The Rabid Elephant Natural Gate

John Wise and his Rabid Elephant Natural Gate Eurorack filter in Phoenix, Arizona

Yes, I’m the proud owner of the Rabid Elephant Natural Gate! Some will obviously wonder just what the heck is such a thing? It is the newest addition of synthesizer gear for my Eurorack based instrument. This filter was just released in its second batch a week ago after being sold out for about six months, it too sold out but this time it happened in under one minute! I should probably say more about it except that I need to get busy installing it and seeing how it compliments my process of making sounds.

What is Love?

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What is love?

Love is the internal hope and desire to inspire others, to mentor, to teach, and to learn from. Romantic love comes when that desire arrives with intimacy.

These characteristics of inspiring, mentoring, and teaching are also the cornerstones and essence of parenting. We, humans, learn from others, investing decades to share their knowledge with us. When the basis of that sharing is poor or ineffective, the results can greatly limit the potential of the person who was to be the recipient of those investments. Over the course of time, the benefits of this community involvement and individual sharing have the potential to aloft those students into various specializations. I suggest that this is an act of love.

To defend in law, treat with medicine, or enhance through invention then becomes the extension of offering love through skills that the one benefiting from these services would not be able to provide themselves. So these skills then reflect our inherent need to offer love and, in turn, require love to be reciprocated.

Art, music, and storytelling are gifts of creativity that allow us to demonstrate abilities that others can strive to emulate so that they, too, might share in the pleasure of witnessing others’ passions. In an age where mere survival is no longer the primary concern of a people, the arts and crafts have the potential to flourish and evolve as new levels of expertise are allowed to find expression.

Finding ourselves able to enjoy passion, inspiration, and finally, intimacy, we may encounter those we can romantically love. Cultivating and then nurturing these relationships requires finesse and nuance to establish mutual trust, finding a sense of certainty that the other will not hurt us.

Because love and pain are so often experienced as being delivered by the same person, we have built defensive mechanisms that can fan the fires of mistrust, making the seed of love difficult to germinate or keep alive. But it is not just love that is harmed by the effect of blurring the line between love and pain; it has an equally damaging role in our ability to learn. Trust between those who are bound together with this delicate emotion must nurture the relationship and not abuse the ability to inflict pain, or else the tender root of love can wither with dramatic negative implications for the individuals and society.

As we move out of adolescence into adulthood, we explore the fragility of deep trust as we try to nurture an exclusive relationship with another person we have not previously given our love to. The effort to satisfy and bring shared experiences passionately into someone’s life requires a tremendous effort where a symbiosis of novelty is evolving between the two people. The herculean task of opening space in oneself while exploring new space within another is precarious as both egos are exposed, and both are made vulnerable. It is then, out of these shared moments of tenderness and acting delicately within the senses of perception that we are able to realize the connectivity of moments that further act to build love.

But what happens should we forget to make these explorations or we never learned how to trust someone else while our most exposed inner selves are laid bare? Can we know love? What of those who are constantly denied love? Most of us start our very lives in the embrace of the people who unequivocally love every single atom of our existence and are willing to take their precious time to start teaching us how to communicate with one another. When will we recognize our own innate ability to share the love and return to inspiring, mentoring, and teaching one another?

Rare Sights

The common sparrow

This is not a rare sight; on the contrary, it is the common sparrow. So why post it? Because I don’t often see common sparrows next to the Pacific Ocean with a perfect blue sky and red flowering torch aloe for a backdrop, so it’s kind of rare.

Two harbor seals in Monterey Bay, California

Two common harbor seals on a rock. Again, not something I’m likely to encounter in the desert of Arizona, nor will the people of Minnesota around this time of year when they are hitting -37 degrees of coldness.

Caroline Wise buying yarn at Monarch Knitting in Pacific Grove, California

Okay, this is pretty common, as in way too common a sight for me. This is what every fiber artist MUST do on vacation: search and visit every yarn shop on your travel route! Today, we made the pilgrimage to Monarch Knitting in Pacific Grove, but I should cut the wife some slack because the yarn she’s holding is the yarn I chose. When we walked in and were greeted by the staff, I immediately asked for the fingering weight yarn (as I’m oft to do) so I could scope some yarn suitable for socks. Those colors will end up as a pair on my feet sometime in 2018. They represent the sunset and color of the ocean for me. Caroline also picked up about $8000 in yarn for herself because that’s what these junkies do. Well, maybe it was only 4 or 5 skeins for about a hundred bucks; I’m getting old, and my powers of observation have only become more refined in how self-serving they are. There, wife – you happy that I finally admitted it in print?

The Point Sur Light Station

This is not a rare sight, but the perspective is about to change to one that is rare. It just so happens that after 20 years of passing this rock in the distance, we have arrived on the right day at the right time to be able to visit it. This is the Point Sur Light Station and is open for three scheduled visits per week: one on Saturday, one on Sunday, and one at 1:00 p.m. on Wednesdays (check the hours as these are for Winter).

Point Sur Light Station welcome sign and meeting point

The three tours are only offered on a first-come-first-serve basis. We arrived over an hour early but still, there were two cars in front of us. By the time the gate was opened, there were certainly more people wanting in than are allowed. The tours are limited to 40 visitors, and there are NO reservations. After driving down the single-lane road to the base of the volcanic rock, we collect and divide into two groups that make the walk up the even narrower road without guard rails that fall off to a steep drop to the ocean where death awaits the person who steps in the wrong direction or driver whose brakes are less than stellar. My vertigo is about to go crazy.

Point Sur Naval Facility

This is the Point Sur Naval Facility, which was once part of a worldwide network of defensive listening stations that tracked the movement of Soviet submarines. The Point Sur NAVFAC is one of the remaining Sound Surveillance System (SOSUS) facilities and the only one remaining on the West Coast (according to the California Parks website). It is rumored that the site will open to the public at some point in the future.

Walking up the paved trail to the Point Sur Light Station

Pausing as we climb the 371-foot tall rock to the lighthouse that was first lit on August 1, 1889, and finally automated in 1974 as it became too expensive to employ humans to guarantee the functionality of the light and horn that warned ships for almost 100 years. As we walked up the rock, our docent Melissa shared stories about the facility and some history. Ricky was the other docent who was just behind us.

A bridge on the final leg to reach the Point Sur lighthouse

This little bridge nearly stopped me from seeing the lighthouse. Do you see the gap on the right side? That gap and the larger one on the ocean side drop into oblivion, a.k.a. DEATH. My knees were wobbling, and my lower intestines were knotting into vibrating, wracked contortions of squeamishness, sending their horrific energy straight out my pooper; sorry, but that’s where the center of anxiety driven by vertigo dwells in my body. Knowing there were children in the group that had been walking near the edge of the trail and hadn’t shown a care in the world, there was no way the old dude was going to belly-crawl this bridge or turn around I mustered some strength and aimed for the third GAPING crack from the right (hoping it didn’t open as I passed) and tried to follow its line. Once on the other side, the wood rail that was acting as a barrier ended, and the asphalt gave way to the sky and probably more death – oh, how I hate that I have vertigo. On the other side of all of this, Melissa assured me that we weren’t returning the same way. Hopefully, this would be a relief, but I still didn’t know if other hairy corners awaited me.

The Point Sur Lighthouse

The Point Sur Lighthouse is seen in most of its glory. I say most because the original Fresnel lens was removed years ago, though the preparations for its return are being made, and maybe on a subsequent visit, we’ll visit at night and be able to see the beam reaching out to sea. This is a milestone in our travel as we have looked out upon this rock and longed to visit but could never quite coordinate our time of arrival; today will be a day to stand out. Not only have we finally made it out here, but according to Melissa, we are extraordinarily lucky with the weather, as it is a rare day in winter when blue skies and relatively warm temperatures greet visitors.

Inside the Point Sur Lighthouse

It’s a pretty tight fit for 20 people to stand in this room to listen to the docent tell of the history held in this facility; no wonder we break up into two groups. Upstairs, the squeeze is on until Melissa invites one of the other guests to open a side door so we can step outside.

Caroline Wise and John Wise atop the Point Sur Lighthouse on a windy day

Once outside, things were wide open and cool compared to the stuffy little room under the glass enclosure of the lighthouse. Then we walked around the northeast corner, where the wind was blowing so hard that Caroline and I removed our glasses for fear of having them blown off our faces as we turned around for a selfie. Other versions have Caroline’s hair standing almost straight up while my short-cropped helmet of brittle gray hair sits nearly shellacked to my big redhead. In this photo, the hump on my left shoulder can be seen; I’m usually pretty good about hiding that side of my anatomy, as being a hunchback comes with some stigma. Being out here and having all of our senses stimulated is a win of epic proportions that tickles both of us to a delight that other mortals might only dream of experiencing. We attribute this sense of adventure to love, knowledge, and being nerds.

The Point Sur Lighthouse

This is the money shot for me. The path leads us up a steep stairway that climbs the rest of the distance to the top of the rock, which is the Point Sur Light Station. It is from those stairs that I stopped to snap this photo. It sure would be amazing to return someday to see the Fresnel lens back in there.

The carpentry and blacksmith shop at Point Sur Light Station

This is the carpentry and blacksmith shop that sits in front of the lighthouse; behind me are the living quarters called the Triplex, where the assistants to the lighthouse keeper lived. That facility is currently being renovated, while this shop is freshly finished with a great display inside this still-working building. Maybe you noticed from the photos that this has been a beautiful day so far.

A doll inside one of the renovated houses at Point Sur Light Station

Next door to the Triplex is the freshly renovated living quarters of the lighthouse keeper and his family. The decor is straight out of the late 1950’s Americana. There was no TV on display as back in the day; there would not have been any signal that would reach out here. There was, however, an old-fashioned cabinet-style record player with a 45rpm record on it: “Four Walls” by Jim Lowe, which was made into a hit that same year by Jim Reeves – Click here to listen to the song.

There is a gift shop up here that is only accessible during these docent-led tours, so be sure to pick something up to commemorate your visit or enjoy a cup of coffee or hot chocolate. They accept credit cards, and this is also where you’ll pay your $12 per person entry fee at the end of the tour.

The view on the walk down from the Point Sur Light Station

Our three-hour tour is over, but we are still accompanied by our docent for the final descent down the 371-foot volcanic rock that holds this 100-year-old relic that’s on the National Register of Historic Places.

A seashell at Garrapata Beach

This seashell is about to return to the ocean. This shell, along with a couple of hundred others collected over the years along the coast are being returned to the sea as we feel they belong there more than in our living room. Part of us feels guilty as to the casual observer; there are two people here at Garrapata Beach throwing stuff wildly into the ocean. We’ve been meaning to do this for some time but have forgotten our bag of shells more times than we care to remember. It’s as though a circle has been closed.

Kelp from just off shore at Garrapata Beach

We walked back to the stairway leading up to a short path and roadside, where we parked the car. We rarely get to visit Garrapata Beach more than once on a trip up and down this part of the coast, and no matter how many times we visit, it’s always with a heavy feeling that we agree that it’s time to leave. We probably wouldn’t have stopped here again had we not remembered back on Christmas day to grab the bag of shells, but having this opportunity is a treasure and marks a perfect ending to another perfect day, which, when we are traveling, is seldom rare.

Sunset at Garrapata Beach

The sun is low in the sky as we bid the Big Sur coast farewell for another bit of time between visits. There are still a thousand things to see and do along this stretch of ocean, and hopefully, the next time we return, it will feel as new and exciting as it has on this adventure.

Christmas Day

Dawn over Monterey Bay in Pacific Grove, California

Drats, we stayed at a place without a chimney, so Santa couldn’t deliver the goods; probably a good thing because just as I don’t need any new synth modules, Caroline has enough yarn. What we can never have enough of are beautiful sunrises and great breakfasts. Lucky us, the Old Monterey Cafe was open for breakfast today, only not at 6:45 as the busser told us the day before, more like 8:00. So we took a walk across the street to a bagel shop for a cup of coffee as we were willing to wait.

Point Lobos State Natural Reserve in Carmel, California

We’ve been up here on the central coast countless times, but we’ve never stopped at Point Lobos State Natural Reserve due to a gazillion cars parked roadside, as the parking lot is always full. At 9:00 on Christmas Day, it turns out that we are some of the first people in the reserve. This was the first view that opened up on the trail.

Surf spilling into a shallow basin in Point Lobos State Natural Reserve

Not but a few more steps up the trail, and the power of the ocean is on display a few hundred feet below us. While the ocean was calm when we arrived a couple of days before, it’s churning today. Today is also the beginning of my sense of vertigo kicking in as we encounter more than our fair share of precipitous drops and sheer cliffs that rouse the electrifying sense of deleterious swirling going on in my derriere; well that’s just where it happens!

View while at Point Lobos State Natural Reserve

The plan is to have no real plan; as we were driving down Highway 1 with the idea we’d go south, that was about as far as we’d gotten with having a plan. When Caroline saw the sign for Point Lobos, she suggested that maybe today was a good day to visit, turns out she was right. Now that we’re here, we’ll see where the trail takes us.

Lichen on a tree at Point Lobos State Natural Reserve

So a plan has developed, and it dictates we go slow, real slow. Our inspiration comes from this algae (Trentepohlia) that grows slowly and does not sway in the wind, migrate, or retreat in the rain. They just hang on to the surface they are attached to and imperceptibly spread out and thicken. While I could easily look it up while I’m here writing this, I’m leaving a note to my future self reminding me that I didn’t search for an answer and that I may still want to know what purpose these algae and the lichen they often live with symbiotically serve?

Sedimentary rocks layers reminiscent of similar formations in Grand Canyon National Park

Dear Geologists, when might this rock have been uplifted? Its creases are perpendicular to the rock itself instead of the ocean, and if I’m not mistaken, aren’t those creases caused by water running over the rock surface?

Breaking wave at Point Lobos State Natural Reserve

The waves roll in with a swell that, in some respects, appears relatively slow until it is compressed into something unmovable, and then its true force becomes apparent. As the water reacts to not having enough space within the volume it occupies, it moves in an unobstructed direction, and in this case, that means going straight up. Air is simultaneously displaced, often with a whoosh, and water escapes as mist and spray in whichever direction the physics of the environment and moment allows. We are left with a beautiful explosion and thunderous clap of water; the rocks are left with just a little less material as erosion acts on them to rearrange their structure into something different, and memories are built and changed with nature’s infinite unfolding.

Caroline Wise and John Wise at Point Lobos State Natural Reserve

Occasionally, we, too, are part of the landscape.

Cormorants at Point Lobos State Natural Reserve

We’ve reached Bird Island near the end of the trail here at Point Lobos State Natural Reserve. The birds we are looking at are cormorants, except for those three seagulls having identity issues. For a moment, I think about their freedom, certain they don’t have opposable thumbs and that their food is always cold, but they get to warm up on an island not fit for humans without deploying a serious amount of dynamite. Their home is found wherever they happen to land. Their buffet is bountiful and free, only requiring them to spot it and then fall out of the sky into the water to retrieve it. So as long as they avoid the hawk, eagle, and us humans, they are free to fly, walk, swim, and eat without systems where the exchange of time, taxes, and mental turmoil impinge on the freedom of us humans without the means to afford some of the freedoms the more fortunate can play with.

Caroline Wise at the southern end of Point Lobos State Natural Reserve

Caroline is pointing to the place where our trail will take a final turn inland and back to our car. It’s been a great walkout here as we stroll along the ocean, lost in the beauty of it all and entertained by our thoughts or lack thereof.

Garrapata Beach near Big Sur, California

Too late to return north as we’d figured we would likely be somewhere on the road stuck in traffic in Carmel instead of enjoying the sunset, so we went further south to Garrapata Beach. This is our favorite beach if one could have a favorite beach as it seems that all beaches to some degree are our favorite. What makes this one unique is the quick break of the waves close to shore after welling up to heights that are taller than we are and then some tall cliffs behind us that must capture the sound of the crashing waves because it sounds like a freight train rumbling through here. In our travels from the coast of Alaska and Hawaii, the North Sea to the Atlantic, and the Gulf of Mexico to the Pacific, this beach has stood up as having the loudest, most thunderous waves, and for that reason, it is exhilarating. For size, volume, and speed the North Shore of Oahu wins that contest.

Garrapata Beach north of Big Sur, California

So this was our Christmas day: a slow walk in the universe of infinite coastal beauty without the emotional and consumer drama that seems to bog people down in obligations instead of true celebration.

Alsek – Day 10

On the Alsek River in Alaska, United States

Howling winds are today’s alarm clock, and they are also our nemesis in getting our gear packed without it flying away. After employing the strategy of using trees as a windbreak and then moving over to help others, our camp is soon packed up, and we are ready to push the rafts back onto the water to start our day of moving a little further downriver in search of our next stops and ultimately camp.

Hanging glacier near the Alsek River in Alaska, United States

Maybe I’ve repeated this one too many times already, but the idea that we are experiencing summer feels elusive. On the other hand, my imagination of the winter conditions says that if it were, in fact, that time of year, we’d be experiencing fiercer winds, temperatures dropping into the deep negatives, and would find most rocks and waterfalls covered in a thick blanket of snow and ice. Should I ever have the means, I could see coming through here some cold January day when light is as precious as warmth to snap a few photos of what this corner of the world looks like when no one else is present to witness it.

On the Alsek River in Alaska, United States

Throughout our journey southwest, we are presented with this abundance of glacial ice and snowpack; we are, after all, in the drainage of the largest non-polar ice fields on Earth.

On the Alsek River in Alaska, United States

Looking at this image not only am I once again struck by the size and scale of our environment but also our insignificance in comparison. I enjoy the opportunity to dwell on the details that allow me to consider the dirt-and-debris highway that rides atop these glaciers. Boulders that become erratics and moraines that are left in the glacier’s wake, granite that is pushed around, and surfaces scrubbed bare are the handy work of time, ice, water, and grinding weight that transforms ice into the blue hues we stand in awe of.

On the Alsek River in Alaska, United States

Our liquid highway today has been cutting through the Fairweather Mountain range and had us passing the enormous Novatak glacier, which, if I’m not mistaken, is that massive sheet of ice in the far background on the left. Like all other days, we needed to make a pit stop to collect firewood, though we hung around long enough to grab lunch at the same time.

Hiking near Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

Not only was this a stop for firewood and lunch but it was also the spot that would serve to take a hike from.

We were heading to get our first glimpse of Alsek Lake. Cresting a small hill on the fairly worn trail, a gaggle of geese on an iceberg became a skein as they departed, flying close to the lake’s surface.

Caroline Wise and John Wise on the Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

We humans, on the other hand, are surface-bound but happy to be here. Our arrival at Alsek Lake, though, is a bittersweet moment as it signals that our last campsite of the journey is about to be had. Caroline’s beanie is a clear indicator of what is on our horizon: Yakutat Coastal Airlines is the company that will fly out to Dry Bay to ferry us back to our regular and ordinary lives as compared to these days of the extraordinary and exceptional.

Mushrooms off the Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

A cluster of huddling mushrooms will never know my world, and I can only observe them in their natural environment for minutes before my attention is taken to the next observation. These photographic memories allow me a revisit and study them to finish contemplating just what it was back on this particular Saturday that intrigued me about these fungi, pulling my senses their way and, in a sense, asking me to immortalize them.

Wildflowers off Alsek River in Alaska, United States

From a view on high, this chilly corner of the world is monochromatic, but on closer inspection, the full palette and vibrancy of the rainbow are scattered about for those observant enough and willing to invest their time to explore such sights.

Wildflowers off Alsek River in Alaska, United States

Every other day when I’m in the world I call home, I repeatedly see the same roads, same kitchen, same office, and mostly the same faces, so when I find scenes such as these, I must capture them so I may gaze upon them repeatedly as well.

On the Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

We lounge lakeside with some visitors indulging in short naps while I restlessly meander across the area, looking to fill my memories with as many mental snapshots as I’m able to hold. What I can’t bring back is how the impressions of bear paws create a sense of alert that one could stroll by at any minute. The feeling of the air and the sound of icebergs rolling over, echoing across the water before the ripple laps at the shore, letting us know that it wasn’t a mere ice cube that was tumbling, will also remain a distinct remembrance. In a sense, I’m like one of those frozen water molecules out there in front of me, locked in a moment, except I’m trying to understand what potential exists for me once I escape the clutch of the universe that has trapped me in my current existence.

Near Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

I’ve never seen moss move, nor will I likely ever have that opportunity. That I never will is okay because it affords me that delight in seeing it sit quietly and serenely as I inspect it, touch it, smell it, and fall into wonder how it knew that by attaching itself to something of such a strong contrasting color it would allow it to be all the more beautiful.

On the Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

I’m an equal opportunity connoisseur of things beautiful and hold rocks in high esteem.

Hiking near Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

Time for the two-legged animals to trace their way back to the rubber crafts that allow them to traverse water from above instead of within like normal water-going creatures.

Wildflowers off Alsek River in Alaska, United States

Just because we must return to find new adventures and even more sights doesn’t mean we don’t have to walk by and not appreciate those things we missed when we first passed through.

Wildflowers off Alsek River in Alaska, United States

Their colors sang to me and, like Sirens, lured me with their song and enchantments though fortunately, I escaped without having to encounter a kind of aesthetic shipwreck at the price of being drawn to them. Should you guess by now that I’m a romantic, your observation wouldn’t be wrong.

Near Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

Don’t think for a minute that rocks do not also hold a special place in my heart. In my book, “Stay in The Magic,” I devote a healthy dose of love and appreciation for all things geological as we moved down the Colorado River through that stone temple known as the Grand Canyon. While the landscape here may be newer and worn differently, it is no less spectacular and serves as a powerful lesson about differences found between geological epochs and locations.

On the Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

Does that look like a 10-story-high iceberg to you? It doesn’t to me either, but it’s at least that tall. Such are the tricks of scale played on the mind of the explorer in such exotic places.

Pauly at the oars on the Alsek Lake in Alaska

It’s just amazing what boatmen do to make all of these experiences possible for those of us who have no other way of exploring this type of environment. While he’s finally out of silhouette and not laying on his back, hardly recognizable, this is Pauly, although under the hat, behind the sunglasses, and with his jacket covering his lower jaw, you’d hardly know it.

On the Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

In Alaska, rocks know how to float.

Caroline Wise on the Alsek Lake in Alaska

We have arrived at our camp in front of the Alsek glacier and its lake. This will be our home for nearly 36 hours and if this were the extent of how we might spend a weekend just sitting lakeside with an occasional paddle out among the icebergs, we could be happy, ecstatic even.

Shoreline near Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

While Caroline communes with the horizon, I pick up some of the details to ensure there are no gaps in our visual memories.

On the Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

The skies above the Fairweather Range start to clear.

Mountains near Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

The rugged mountains and heavier coastal precipitation make for some stark snow and ice forms riding atop the range. Like waiting for the fireworks to begin on New Year’s or the American Fourth of July we are in anticipation of some particular clouds giving way to a rare sight: the top of Mount Fairweather, which is still shrouded to the right of this photo.

On the Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

Starting to feel like it’s almost evening. To the right of the rafts lies the channel the Alsek is exiting on and the one we will take the day after tomorrow.

Sunset on Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

Dinner in the golden light of the Alaskan wilderness but Fairweather remains elusive.

Wildflowers off Alsek River in Alaska, United States

So flowers must remain my constant visual companion as we wait for the big show. If you, too, had been here on this day, then maybe you also would be smiling with me as your memories danced with the color of mid-summer here at 59 degrees, 12 minutes, and 5 seconds north.

Driftwood and Wildflowers off Alsek River in Alaska, United States

Moving towards the end of the day, the light remains spectacular.

Mount Fairweather in Alaska, United States

And just as the surrounding landscape is turning darker, the clouds clear long enough to offer us this most beautiful view of Mount Fairweather. That beast is towering 15,325 feet above sea level and is one of the tallest coastal mountains on earth at only 12 miles east of the Pacific Ocean.

Campfire on the Alsek Lake in Alaska, United States

We close out the day around a campfire, warming our toes and enjoying the conversation of a day, a week, a life well spent. Tomorrow, the adventure continues.

Alsek – Day 9

Hanging glacier along the Alsek in British Columbia, Canada

Snow and glaciers are part of a gorgeous start to a day on the Alsek River, well, that and a hot breakfast.

Mountains along the Alsek in British Columbia, Canada

We won’t be in camp much longer as it’s almost time to get out on the river.

On the Alsek in front of the Noisy Range in British Columbia, Canada

The mountains in the background are part of the Noisy Range. The sky is a mixed bag of shifting clouds that is, on occasion letting bits of sunshine speckle the landscape.

Joining the Tatshenshini River from the Alsek River in British Columbia, Canada

Straight out, far in the distance between these two mountain ranges, lies the Pacific, and fortunately for us, that’s not the way we’ll be traveling today. For one, no river runs out that way, but if there was, it would mean we are almost finished with this journey. We are now entering the confluence of the Tatshenshini and Alsek Rivers. While this is just one small braid joining us, soon we’ll be on the full flow of the combined rivers.

Hanging glacier along the Alsek in British Columbia, Canada

Another hanging glacier falls out of the mountains alongside the merging Tatshenshini and Alsek Rivers in British Columbia, Canada.

The merged Tatshenshini and Alsek Rivers in British Columbia, Canada

This photo was taken in the middle of the now merged Tatshenshini and Alsek Rivers which at times feel more like a lake.

Alsek in British Columbia, Canada

One minute, I’m looking behind us, and the river reflects the golden light of the early morning sun, and then a minute later, we are looking at winter.

End Glacier is straight ahead and slightly left here on the Alsek River in British Columbia, Canada

Here’s where things start getting a little more difficult because the Alsek is about to become a thousand shallow braids, and our trip leader, Bruce Keller, has to make some serious decisions based on his years of studying rivers. This labyrinth demands we engage in a zig-zag hunt for the path that will take us to End Glacier, which is just ahead on the left. While that spot down there in the United States might look relatively close (we estimate it to be between 6 and 7 miles from our current vantage point), we have about 15 miles of rowing ahead of us due to the course we will have to take.

GoogleSatView of Alsek
Satellite view courtesy of Google Maps.

We are sitting in that mess of braids, as seen in this satellite image I found on Google Maps. It was taken in winter when flows are low and much of the river in its thinnest parts is frozen, at least on its top layer. On the day we were running the river, the entire channel may have looked much like a lake, but in some places, the water would be only inches deep.

On the Alsek River in the United States

There may have been water flowing over this gravel and sand bed some weeks ago, but now it’s an exposed bank that we are floating past. To my untrained eye, the water was going in all directions at once. While this river could be said to be flowing through a river bed, that path is changing all the time from day to day and week to week. In eddies, it runs back upstream; near gravel beds, it can run sideways until it spills back into the main channel. Water that is being dragged out of the main channel is called a bleeder and where water has accumulated and starts reentering a larger channel, that is known as a feeder. Earlier in my blog post, I spoke about how people on these rafts do not want to step in the water to help dislodge a raft that has run aground; this image is a perfect example of what might lay just below the surface and getting a foot wedged between half-buried trees in fast-moving cold water is not somewhere anyone wants to attempt a rescue.

Lush riverside plant life along the Alsek in the United States

Back in Canada, we had ice and rocks and a couple of flowers; here in the United States of America, we have lush mountainsides and flowers in abundance because America. I’m just kidding, of course, as this has been a large part of the landscape ever since we arrived on this side of the Tweedsmuir Glacier.

Walker Glacier on the Alsek River in the United States

Around the bend from End Glacier, we get our first glimpse of Walker Glacier, thusly named because it used to be accessible. The name of Walker may no longer be appropriate, though, because it has been retreating since 1984 and the section our group hiked on five years earlier has collapsed and helped create an even larger lake in front of the shrinking glacier.

Camp next to the Alsek River in the United States

Where Caroline and I set up our tent next to the river was the face of Walker Glacier thirty-three years ago. Back in the mid-1970s, when Bart Henderson was out exploring the Tatshenshini before setting up the first commercial white water runs in this area, he must have encountered a very different environment. Back then, in this region, the mountains were perpetually snowcapped, and the glaciers extended hundreds of feet further than they do now. One has to wonder if someone traveling through thirty years from now on an October run will only hear stories of glaciers that used to be in the mountains and that people were even able to walk on them shortly after getting off their raft.

Walker Glacier on the Alsek River in the United States

On our way for a closer look.

Walker Glacier on the Alsek River in the United States

There will be no walking out on that jagged mess of potential death, but it sure is pretty.

Walker Glacier on the Alsek River in the United States

Rocks floating in the water waiting to be released from the ice that for thousands of years have carried them to this point. Sometime soon, the ice will have melted and will be on its way to the Pacific, and the rocks will find their way to the bottom of the lake. This is another example of how erratics are brought to new locations.

Caroline Wise and John Wise in front of Walker Glacier on the Alsek River in the United States

Like a couple of erratics, these two from somewhere else keep ending up in places they are not originally from. Notice Caroline’s beanie from Yakutat Coastal Airlines? She got that one five years after her first “bush plane” ride. My beanie was handmade by Caroline, and has since been to Yellowstone for some snowshoeing, to Oregon on the coast during winter, and twice now to the Alsek.

Walker Glacier on the Alsek River in the United States

As we explore the lakeshore next to Walker Glacier I’m struck by the idea that no one else on Earth could be having the experience I am right now. While in the city back home, my office, or the grocery store, we all experience a shared reality. Out here, there is ample opportunity for 14 people to have a distinct perspective of a view that only they will hear and see. And while any two people looking at, let’s say, the Statue of Liberty will have distinct but similar experiences, they are relatively the same as the Statue is unchanging, and the environment, aside from the weather, will be relatively constant. On the other hand, there are experiences like today’s that are dynamic and will be mostly different from anyone who follows. I think this fluid state of change is what draws many people into these types of experiences, such as when a surfer finds a wave only for it to dissipate, never to be ridden again, allowing it to enter a kind of mythological status. Are these kinds of journeys our way of joining the mythological narrative that surrounds our existence?

Alsek River in a calm corner in the United States

These moments of unique experiences well removed from our routines beg a question for me: is there a hierarchy of greater or lesser impact on the character of the individual from the grade of experience that affects us on a deeper intrinsic level? If so, how do they broaden or narrow one’s focus or affinity for what life is offering? Is our relationship to the nature found in these extraordinary locations extended and made more secure, or was our DNA and previous experiences already taking us down this path?

Outflow of the Walker Lake joining the Alsek River in the United States

The waters of the Alsek River and the lake that has formed at the Walker Glacier are joining here, where even the patterns in the mud are strikingly beautiful to me.

John Wise napping next to the Alsek River in the United States

One can easily get tired on vacation and in need of pulling up a spot in the sand to just lay down and get a little nap.

Rafts on the Alsek River in Alaska, United States

It’s 9:00 p.m. as I head to the river to check the lighting and make sure nobody has made off with one of our rafts.

Sun on the local range here next to the Aslek River in the United States

The sun has come out to smile upon us here in Alaska as our day unwinds.

Middle of the night on the Alsek River in Alaska, United States

A few of us are up late on a clear, cool night. While the roar of 14 voices can sound cacophonous in this kind of landscape, the river seems to have slowed down in reverence to the moon and delicate light that is defining our night and is somehow quieter than it was when we landed. These moments late in a river trip are when one wishes to roll back the clock to when we were first launching and make it a point to keep sleepiness at bay so we could enjoy many of the nights where the midnight moon silently crawled across the sky while the rest of our travel companions slept warm and soundly over in their tents.