The Absolute Middle – Day 1

Dutch Bros in Payson, Arizona

It’s not exactly the middle of the day as we reach not the precise middle of the state here in Payson, Arizona, but it’s close enough. Ultimately we are headed into the middle of America, though not today quite yet. To be clear, we are not headed into the middle of the contiguous United States as found over in Lebanon, Kansas (we’ve already been there twice), but we are aiming for the relative middle, slicing through the heartland, over the Memorial Day weekend. Precision is part of this exercise, but getting there will require some generalizations and approximations as nothing is literally written in stone. With that, our holiday weekend has been extended with an extra day tacked on either side. Not only has Caroline taken off Friday and Tuesday, but we’ve also been able to depart from the Phoenix area today (Thursday) before lunch, bringing us here to Dutch Bros in Payson because a road trip without coffee is like a bologna sandwich without mystery meat.

Highway 260 in Arizona

With 1,865 miles (3001 km) to be covered before turning around somewhere far up north, time to take photos will be at a premium, so we are planning frequent stops to clean the windshield because we’ll be taking many a photo right through the windshield of our still nearly new and very clean 2023 Kia Niro. Photos through a window from a moving car are a gamble, but anything else, and we may not see all we intend to visit. If luck is on our side, we’ll have traveled 3,795 miles (6107 km) before getting home. There’s a reason the total miles are not twice the miles of the first leg, but that detail will have to wait for the days to unfold. Anyway, we are on State Route 260 moving east, should you be interested in following along on a map.

State Route 377 in Arizona

Time to stretch the old legs and enjoy the cooler, quieter area found along State Route 377 here in the high desert.

State Route 377 in Arizona

We are on the road to Holbrook, Arizona, and the elevation up this way is approximately 5,000 feet or 1,524 meters.

Interstate 40 entering New Mexico

Breaks are few and far between with the hundreds of miles we need to cover this afternoon. Even with taking photos from the driver’s seat (that’s right, did you think Caroline would be taking these images?), we may or may not get as far east as we’d like to, or maybe we’ll go farther. You do have to give me credit for at least getting in the slow lane here on Interstate 40 to snap this shot of the state sign as we entered New Mexico.

Sunset off Interstate 40 in New Mexico

Another stretch-your-legs moment inspired by the dramatic sky behind us while to the east in the direction of our continuing travel, lightning flashes were raging. A check of the weather ahead showed that Tucumcari, New Mexico, was getting hammered by thunderstorms, so we are considering staying the night in Santa Rosa.

La Mesa Motel in Santa Rosa, New Mexico

Sure, all the name-brand hotels were to be found in this small town of 2,600 people in Santa Rosa, New Mexico, but all of their signs suck, not a bit of neon among them, and so the La Mesa Motel was going to be our choice. Was it a bargain, you ask? Well, for only $79, we walked into a clean room with a bit of unidentifiable stench, but what should one expect for a bit of Route 66 nostalgia built back in 1954? We end the first day of driving after about 540 miles (870 km) ready for sleep.

We were rattled awake around 2:30 in the morning by the peculiar sound of hundreds of small pellets being thrown at our door. No, this wasn’t a dream, and no, they weren’t pellets. We were being pounded by a thunderstorm that not only was driving the rain sideways, but hail was also along for the ride. Big fat, chunky bullets of hail were bouncing off our front door, the roof of the motel, the ground, and, to our horror, our nearly brand-new car. After ten or so minutes, things were slowing down, and we headed back to bed, but almost immediately, the pace of the hail picked up again. With an audible sigh, I put on shorts and shoes and braved the wet and windy outdoors to move the car under an awning, then went back to sleep.

Easter in the Valley of Death

Being on a mini-vacation could be the opportunity to take it easy, right? Wrong, we were up by 5:30. Just as we were about to leave the Inn, Caroline took the opportunity to WhatsApp family in Germany who’d assembled for Easter dinner. However, out here in Shoshone, California, the connection is less than optimal, and the call brief. I am able to use the short delay to jot down a few things, and then we’re on our way towards Death Valley for a hike before things get too busy over there, and we need to head home to Phoenix.

The Death Valley Coyote Committee fell short, with only a single member showing up to greet us, can you tell that this otherwise wild animal has grown accustomed to approaching cars up at the main entrance to the park for meal handouts?

There’s no time to spare if we are going to get on the Golden Canyon Trail this morning, and knowing that the first part of this 5.5-mile hike draws a big crowd, we opted to head into Golden Canyon first, which would have us taking the trail we are ultimately interested in clockwise. You see, Golden Canyon is just one small part of our intended hike; our main objective is the Gower Gulch Loop Trail with a detour to the Red Cathedral. After being shocked by the crowds at Badwater yesterday, this location was running a close second for pulling in throngs of visitors. We knew that if we were going to enjoy this trail, we’d have to arrive before the masses overwhelmed the parking area with overflow parking ending up on the main road.

Our faulty memories initially thought we’d hiked this short segment with my mother-in-law Jutta, but as we got further into Golden Canyon, we realized that we’d likely never been here before, and we were well aware that even this assessment might be wrong. I could scour our previous seven visits to Death Valley to verify things, but how many hundreds, if not thousands, of photos would I have to check? As I finished writing that question, my curiosity got the best of me, and it turns out that I have over 2,000 photos that have been properly tagged with the words “Death Valley,” and I only had to scroll forward to 2008 to find that we were indeed in this canyon on a previous visit. Taken on a beautiful February late afternoon were photos of Caroline and her mom walking in a very empty Golden Canyon that we apparently had all to ourselves. Sometimes, I think things are changing in ways I don’t like, and I tend to attribute my disdain for those changes to those of a man growing grumpy and looking at the past through those proverbial rose-colored glasses, but by judging by those old photos, I see that, in fact, this national park has grown busier.

Fortunately, we are still able to find moments when we are seemingly alone and must offer gratitude that we’ve had so many previous opportunities to visit, oblivious that within little more than a dozen years, the number of people in the parks would go so high that it would interfere with our memories of what solitude meant to us and how we were able to experience it on those earlier encounters. I can’t write this without thinking that Caroline and I need to make every effort to revisit our favorite places yet again before the next burst of visitation threatens to put everything on a reservation or lottery system.

What I couldn’t really identify in my photos from 2008 was exactly how far we trekked into this canyon, but it wasn’t likely very far. My mother-in-law in tow wasn’t one with big stamina, and making surface impressions was certainly enough for her. That really means that this was all new to us, and what’s better than getting to experience something for the first time twice in a lifetime?

Our previous encounter with Golden Canyon was at 5:00 in the afternoon, while we arrived today before 8:00 in the morning hence, the shadows are falling in very different patterns. This triggers the thought that I should collect earlier photos before leaving for these trips and have them on hand so I can compare what we see with shots I took years prior and try to take them again, but what would really make that work is if I’d taken notes about the conditions regarding visitors and then I could contrast the experience from a decade or two earlier with today.

I’ve stared at these rocks a good long time trying to understand the erosion patterns. To my eye, it looks like this was uplifted just yesterday, and the sharp edges formed while it was lying down are yet to be worn down. Knowing that this wasn’t thrust into this angle in the past month, let alone a few hundred years, only adds to the mystery surrounding time and how much of it must pass before things start to appear familiar as far as eroding mountains are concerned.

To suggest that there is art here seems to imply that the rest of nature might be devoid of it; on the contrary, art is in everything and everywhere. In researching for this post, I came across a photo of the nearby Manly Beacon taken by Ansel Adams back in the 1940s, and now I’m looking at my own stuff through the filter of someone who made a serious craft of capturing the western United States, but I’m me, and this is the best I can do, and I can take great solace in knowing that I’m trying to express myself.

We think this is the Red Cathedral, and while we’ll get closer, there never was a sign pointing to a specific spot letting us know that this was it.

This, though, is Manly Beacon and that we are certain of.

That’s Telescope Peak over there.

This is Caroline Wise over here, near the end of this part of the trail. Time to connect with the Gower Gulch Loop Trail.

The first part of this trail is a bit steep, which is great with views such as this.

I’ve spotted something ahead, and it’s not the sun that is making me nervous over at the foot of Manly.

First, though we must go higher as everything changes perspective depending on from what distance you are looking at a thing. If you look at the center of the trail we are slogging up, you’ll see a couple who, in passing, told me not to worry a bit and that the object of my concern shouldn’t be one. That’s a relief.

That was until I got up on the razor’s edge, where my imagination of imminent doom stole any confidence I might have been trying to bring forward. My knees buckled, and I knew this was the end of the trail for me. I think it’s high time for me to get those trekking poles I’ve considered to give me a bit more stability and something to lean on in these situations or simply accept that I could crawl on my hands and knees to the other side. But no matter today, as panic set in and in an instant, we were on our way back down to the place whence we came.

I’m trying hard here to put on a brave face because I’m seriously and, to my core, disappointed in what I cannot do. While we’ll have accumulated 27 miles of walking and hiking over the long weekend, these turnarounds slap hard at what I want to accomplish, and it’s not just me here; I know for certain that Caroline, too, wants to see what’s out there on the other side of the trail we’ve never experienced. So, I try to suck down the pride and giant sense of failure before putting on a grimace of a smile to say to myself, “It’s okay; we can’t do everything in life we might want to do.” And anyway, we are doing a lot and know that, but still, it’s bittersweet.

Exiting the canyon, we encountered a lot more people, which was exactly what we hoped to miss by taking the Gowers Gulch trail, but looking on the bright side, finishing our time early in Death Valley means we’ll be getting home earlier than we might have otherwise.

Unless we end up stopping at a bunch of other places because we think we’re so early.

Good thing we felt flexible with our time because while out exploring one of a few areas of the saltpan, we were able to catch sight of these very fine and fragile salt filaments, which ChatGPT informed me are quite rare.

In a landscape with so few large plants, a dried-up old bush skeleton stands in stark relief of the vast space where little else interrupts the eye.

Could it be that on our way into the park/life, we take things for granted as we aim for the places that will bring glory and a sense of accomplishment, and then on the way out, we grow fearful that we’ve missed many important sites due to our myopia of not always seeing what seems to have been right in front of our faces. Looking at this rock formation, one might suddenly capture the essence of Death Valley held right here, but on closer examination have second thoughts that it holds so much relevancy. When departing places/life, moments of recognizing small details you missed take on greater significance, and possibly a little panic seeps into those fleeting thoughts, triggering you to gaze deeper. This is one of those instances.

Salt and mud crusts such as these are part of where the Devils Golf Course further north takes its name. These hard and very resilient jagged surfaces rise up over the underlying mud during wet periods, and if I were a geologist or could find a really knowledgeable source who could explain the precise action, I’d share more, but I’m coming up empty.

My fingers hover over the keyboard as I’m reminiscing how our feet are occasionally sinking and slipping in the mud out here. Gazing at that image, I’m trying to find something to say that speaks louder than the poetry of being out in the middle of a place where one can sense isolation and quiet that lingers in the small corners of the soul for a longer time than the body was present. It’s funny how people want to visit other planets when similar experiences can be had in so many places right here on the earth we live on but see so little of. We have the opportunity to walk on the surface of a sphere hurtling through space that has been evolving for billions of years to get most everything right before our arrival, and we’re already bored of it and fantasize about going to Mars so we take a photo of someone walking across its landscape with an exclamation of, “Wow, we did it.” Meanwhile, on our own space-traveling outpost, we can’t make the effort to realize the perfection we exist in every day.

Right here might be some of the precursors of the macro-minerals we are made of, including calcium, phosphorus, potassium, sodium, chloride, magnesium, and sulfur. There might also be some of the 16 trace minerals: iron, zinc, copper, manganese, iodine, selenium, fluoride, molybdenum, boron, cobalt, nickel, vanadium, silicon, strontium, chromium, and bromine. Finally, there are other trace minerals whose role in our bodies we are still trying to figure out, such as arsenic, aluminum, barium, beryllium, bromine, cadmium, chromium, cobalt, gallium, germanium, gold, lithium, nickel, palladium, platinum, rubidium, silver, strontium, tellurium, thallium, tin, titanium, tungsten, vanadium, and zirconium. What I’m pointing out is that we consider life to be living beings (like ourselves), but without the rocks that become soil, the plants and animals that nourish other things wouldn’t have been able to give rise to us.

At first glance, I thought this was sulfur, but on reflection, I remember we didn’t smell anything that would have confirmed that. Limonite is yellow, so maybe that’s what we are looking at. Whatever it was, it was attractive enough for me to stop yet again on this trek to leave Death Valley.

I referenced the minerals that make up the human body and how we consume them from the food we eat, but the really big deal is that we are 65% water and oxygen. So, if you consider a 150-pound (68kg) person, 98 pounds (44kg) of their weight is in the form of water and oxygen. But wait, there’s more! This part might have you thinking I’m stoned as I write this, but I had never considered that when we look at H2O, it is the oxygen that makes up 89% of its weight. While this may be basic chemistry to everyone else, this is the first time I learned of this. So tell me again, why does a creature that is so reliant on soil, oxygen, and water desire to try living on a planet that is mostly dry, has only trace amounts of oxygen, and the dirt is called regolith, which means it is not soil and will need considerable work to become useful for growing food? The only answer I can come up with is that it is easier to distract people with fantastic dreams of leaving our earth instead of trying to live on it and care for it. And somehow, we believe we can make another (extremely inhospitable) planet habitable. We must be insane.

A fading sign caught my eye, necessitating a quick backup to pull over and read what I thought I had. Sure enough, those horizontal edges are remnants of shorelines from Lake Manly on what was at one time an island. We should have noticed this before as we’ve seen similar features in the Yukon, Canada, where a backed-up Alsek River flooded a valley nearly all the way to Haines Junction, leaving similar shoreline markings on nearby mountainsides. This rather large, still-visible detail allows us to easily imagine the 100-mile, 600-foot deep lake that stretched from here to points north. Just one more instance of not being able to see what’s in front of you due to a lack of knowledge or not knowing where to look.

For years Caroline has been looking for a Neopolitan ice cream sandwich as she finds the plain old vanilla to be boring. Well, we finally found one here in Baker, California, and still, she’s not happy on two counts. First, the version in Germany she grew up with uses waffles for the outside instead of the sticky chocolate cake-like stuff we are accustomed to in America. Second, she realized that if the flavors were distributed using the length of the sandwich, she’d be able to enjoy all three flavors at once.

Ivanpah Solar Electric Generating System or Thermal Plant is the world’s largest bird roaster. The atmospheric glare is extraordinary to witness as we approach the (miniscule) town of Nipton, California. It’s obvious that there’s a bizarre amount of ambient light illuminating the air being reflected and directed from the strategically angled mirrors. After getting home, I was looking to learn something or other about this peculiar sight, and in one particular article, they talked of the 900-degree (482c) instant-combustion beam that has smoking birds plummeting to earth roasted if they get to close to the bad hot place. This has me thinking that these thermal plants might be avian hell because, for a bird that is innocently out and about in their normally supportive bird environment, things become instantly torturous as the sky aims to cook them alive in a blindingly fast millisecond.

Seems like it was only ten years ago that my hair was hardly gray, and now, in the right light, it looks like I have a personal thermal plant perched upon my head.

Whoa, how have we missed this Joshua tree forest out here? It turns out that we’ve not previously driven Highway 164, a.k.a. Nipton Road, and so we knew nothing of the Wee Thump Joshua Tree Wilderness. The words Wee Thump mean “ancient ones” in the Paiute language. This is the third largest Joshua tree forest on earth, as in the entire earth, and we’ve now seen these giants with our very own eyes.

And not only that, they are in bloom. We cannot say we’ve ever seen Joshua trees in bloom, so we’ll go with this being a first. In that sense, come to think of it, this is like an Easter egg, well for me at least. I’ll explain that comment in just a sec.

Not one to miss abandoned roadside America, this old “Fresh Produce” sign seemingly held fast by the saguaro was a site that needed recording. We are passing through Wikieup north of Nothing and only about 120 miles from home at this point, and it was here that Caroline found her Easter egg.

Happy Easter, Caroline! Yet another dental floss pick, an Easter egg of the best kind. You see, Caroline had been haunted by these stupid little things and sees them everywhere. They pop into her view all the time, to the point that she’s considering getting a task-specific pair of tweezers and a plastic bag that she carries with her to collect these bits of trash used in the hygiene of caring for one’s mouth. Why they seem to be so widely distributed is a mystery, but maybe if she starts documenting their location and picking up these discarded tools, she can start to identify what they have in common or if there is a pattern on the map that might become apparent. While they are something absurd to be consumed by, their vexing ubiquity found strewn across the landscape is likely creating a bit of neurosis for my wife. Does anyone know of a lost dental floss pick support group she can join?

Desolation is a State of Mind

Wildflowers off Highway 74 in Arizona

Avoid all highways, embrace empty spaces, and drive so slow that the tortoises and lizards pass you by. Our wandering route promised to require no less than seven hours before we’d arrive in Shoshone, California, outside of Death Valley National Park, but when taking the backroads, there’s a good chance of frequent fortuitous stops to collect visual souvenirs seemingly lying in wait for a collision with seeking eyes and thoughts that may or may not give them context.

Aguila, Arizona

Similar to the rarity of wildflowers carpeting the desert, encountering a long-closed store is an uncommon sight for people living in an economically viable neighborhood. As I started to write that sentence, it occurred to me that I needed to point out the economically viable part because I know firsthand that those who live in the blighted areas of America’s cities are all too familiar with abandoned buildings that once provided local services. To my eyes, though, they are a novelty that draws me in to capture the current state of a facade that apparently has been neglected since between 2007 and 2012 (based on a poster in the window showing the price for a pack of Marlboro as $5.39 which coincides with that aforementioned time frame). So, while the town looks the worse for wear due to this decaying artifact of the past, up the street, Family Dollar swooped in and, while offering what is likely a greater choice of goods, declined to assume the cost of tearing out this eyesore.

Wenden, Arizona

On the other hand, take the Sunset Motel further west in the town of Wenden, Arizona. Years ago, it was an abandoned hulk collecting cobwebs and graffiti, while today, it has been converted into an artists’ colony. With so much road ahead of us, we felt that our time would be better spent covering said road and considered that maybe a day trip out this way might be in order to better explore these towns we rarely visit.

Salome, Arizona

It has been about 20 years since we last stopped at this place next to the road in Salome, Arizona, wondering what it once was, and to this day are still intrigued that the tie-ups for horses are still standing.

Bouse, Arizona

Well, Bouse, Arizona, must be going to hell because the first time we passed through here, the sign read that they’d gone from 3 to 4 grouchy people among the 875 inhabitants. That it’s grown to 35 grouches suggests the quality of life has gone downhill.

Parker, Arizona

South of Parker, Arizona, along the Colorado River, lives a tribe of Indians called the ‘Aha Havasuu, made up of various other groups, including the Mohave, Chemehuevi, Hopi, and Navajo. Just behind me is a canal full of Colorado River water being used to irrigate the land on that side, while on the far left, fire is being used to clear the remains of a depleted crop. Why the canal on the south side has been allowed to fill with sand is a mystery.

Highway 62 in California

Now, in California, on Highway 62, we have about 100 miles ahead of us, but until we arrive at the outskirts of 29 Palms, we have a wide-open desert to drive across.

Highway 62 in California

Along the way, we’ll see sand, rocks, dirt, shrubs, whispy clouds, deep blue skies, trash, and a lot of asphalt.

Shoe Tree in Rice, California

What we didn’t expect to find was a peculiar variation of the shoe tree. Here in Rice, California, at the remnants of an old gas station, the shoes of passers-by who made a donation to the roof are covering the spot where the pumps would have once stood. It turns out that there used to be an underwear tree that had taken shape on a dead tamarisk tree, but it and the underwear burned, and with what was left, a shoe tree took root before another fire burned everything to the ground. There are a few other works of art close by: someone decorated a shrub with COVID masks, and a wall is covered in graffiti. Apparently, there’s also a shoe fence out here, but we missed that one, creating a solid reason to return one day.

Rice Desert Signpost in California on Highway 62

This signpost out near Rice, easily identifiable as a signpost, features pointers to names, things, or places beyond my simple ability to comprehend just what they are pointing to.

Off Amboy Road in California

Out there, somewhere beyond the horizon, are unknown sights waiting to be seen by eyes that haven’t yet seen what lies in places they’ve never visited. While the road looks relatively well-traveled, it’s obviously not a thoroughfare, nor is it a boulevard or a destination that has the kind of pull that can illicit the common influencer to venture into its still hidden secrets.

Off Amboy Road in California

And then, around the corner, we are delivered into an abundance of more nothingness that is, in reality, a misnomer because anyone can easily see that everything is found here. The peculiar nature of people missing what could be perceived as a cruel joke because everything is within their minds. Desolation is a state of an empty mind that doesn’t allow the spoonfed person the usage of their imagination to understand that they are nearly always looking at the most immense beauty that contains all the gravity of life they will ever know but can’t quite understand. Would this space somehow gather more value if there were someone in an evocative pose and clothing? For the simple-minded, that is precisely what they require for a location to assume value; that is a tragedy larger than the breadth of this desert.

Amboy, California

There was a time in the golden age of travel, a time I’ve not personally lived through but of which I have some awareness thanks to older family members who shared stories about seeing the exotic sites out west along Route 66, some of the best experiences one might hope to capture. Likewise, for those from out west, going to New York City, Niagara Falls, or Florida could be the vacation of a lifetime. So here we are in Amboy, California, at Roy’s long-closed motel in the Mojave desert where probably everyone who passes by snaps a photo, and not one of us will ever get to eat at the cafe or stay the night without seeing our stop as a trophy having been collected. This begs the question, why should a side-of-the-road motel and cafe deserve this kind of recognition? It’s because we are nostalgic for normal stuff without understanding that in our age of conformity, where everything and everyone looks the same, these artifacts are hints of what’s been lost. Now consider that while these architectural relics are able to draw our attention, those capturing these moments can’t yet see their own ugly sameness as a part of the disappearance of anything we used to take for granted that was unique.

Kelbaker Road and the Mojave National Preserve in California

We are entering the Mojave National Preserve, where we are being requested in a humorous way to slow down. If ever there were people desiring to oblige a wish, this one speaks to our hearts. There was a time when we yearned to race into everything, which might be an artifact of evolution because if life is short, you’d better get all you can as quickly as can. Life spans are longer, yet people have less time for themselves as they divide their hours and days between jobs, getting to and from those jobs, consuming entertainment, and the consumption of things that are supposed to bring satisfaction while not offering any kind of purpose or growth. Distracted without intention or an idea that there could be a purpose aside from collecting, people race ahead to collect the trophy of participation.

Mojave National Preserve in California

Without intention backed by curiosity to evolve one’s knowledge, the desolation of purposelessness takes over the landscape, and other than a single objective, nothing is found about the world around them or the world within. That type of person may have ended up racing over sand dunes, shooting some targets, reaching a peak, or skiing down a mountain, but everything between the culmination of the end goal and being locked back in their cocoon is the toil of futility as they had to endure the boring parts. They don’t understand that there are no boring parts.

Kelso Depot in Kelso, California

In gazing at our past that no longer has a function apart from serving as a sad reminder that our present is absent of authenticity, we look through a prism of uncertainty, not recognizing that this empty space is reflecting the desolation of our minds. For about 80 years, the Kelso Depot served workers and travelers as a rest and refueling stop on a line that ran between Salt Lake City, Utah, and Los Angeles, California. Today, there’s no hint of their shadows, voices, or footsteps that carried them into a place in the middle of nowhere they needed to be, unlike current visitors who are trying to figure out what the attraction is of visiting something that once had a purpose and now only serves as a reminder of something from an era we hardly understand.

Kelbaker Road and the Mojave National Preserve in California

Soon, all recollection of who we were or are will be gone as we fade out of relevancy due to not wanting to know who we are. As a species, we held the potential to be more than the appearance of a thing; we had cognizance and a desire to adorn ourselves with the artifacts of crafts learned and mastered, from jewelry to music and words. Today, we purchase what others tell us will complete us; we borrow mannerisms and use pre-ordained colloquial jargon that demonstrates our membership in the club of cool hipster culture in order to buy instant influencer cred. That moment where we luxuriate in the pretentious, artificially contrived place known as Flash-in-the-Pan soon dumps everyone out at the end of the intersection of Uh-Oh and Oh-Shit. If we are fortunate, we rapidly adapt and jump into the vehicle of Remain-in-Childhood; otherwise, it’s off for a bumpy road trip down the Existential Crisis Highway.

World's Largest Thermometer in Baker, California

In the numbness of oblivion where desolation dwells, a chemically induced existence invites those who embrace banality to flutter about the light as they, on occasion, crash into the margin of awareness. For those determined to weather the heat of curiosity, we have few beacons to guide or warn us of impending collisions that may temporarily derail our ambition to go it alone. We are not here to pose for you; we are here to remind ourselves that when the opportunity arose for us to leave convenience and laziness behind, we accepted the challenge to witness our wandering across the space between, and if it were a flower, a ruin, or the world’s largest thermometer, we were on-hand to consider where it might fit in the encyclopedia of our experiences.

Salt Creek off Highway 127 south of Shoshone, California

It’s likely easier to understand that this water will flow into another stream or river and that it might end up in a lake or the ocean while understanding our own flow is a non-stop mystery of guesswork, or so it seems. We, too, are flowing, flowing into a life that will end up in a metaphorical ocean of all life that has been. If this feeds the life of what is yet to be, that is left beyond the horizon of my comprehension as I can only take the perspective of where I am from the place I’m at in the current of any given moment. What I do know is that I’m still in constant motion; I’ve not pulled up to the edge of the stream trying to delay where I’m going because stopping my travels would risk being absorbed by the thirsty desert, or I might simply evaporate. Either way, my journey will have ended prematurely and so I must keep going and going.

Salt Creek off Highway 127 south of Shoshone, California

If you thought you were going to read about desolation and our travels into nothingness, you must be the naive type of person who’s convinced themself that something like nothing is even possible. I’m not here to offer affirmation about your shortsighted delusions; you should stick to your couch/computer chair, where electronic media are the wildflowers that talk to your soul. We refuse to wallow in pity for the things we cannot see and do or can’t afford as we take off driving into the biggest adventures ever offered to humanity. Sure, one could point out the obvious that this is no Paris, Kilimanjaro, Everest, or Hawaii, but that would be silly because we went somewhere better; we traveled in love, looking for beauty found in everything we looked at.

Shoshone, California

It was 16 years ago when we first pulled into the Shoshone Inn just a few miles outside of Death Valley National Park, and since that time, we always make an effort to stay here. Are these luxury accommodations? Heck no, at least not to what others might think, but for the two of us, this is the height of luxury. First of all, it’s about half the price of a room in the park. Secondly, the Crowbar Cafe & Saloon is across the street, and although they don’t open until 8:00 in the morning, they are open until 9:00 p.m., so no matter what time we leave the park, the Crowbar is going to be cooking our dinner. But this doesn’t touch on the most important aspect of staying here, and that’s the soaking pool nearby. You see, this pool is no ordinary resort pool. It is a concrete enclosure fed by a nearby hot spring with water in a temperature range of 100°F to 104°F (38°C to 40°C) year-round.

Shoshone, California

Do not look for gourmet food at the Crowbar, but then again, who’d ever think a place with this name would feature that type of cuisine? We are not into this for a culinary experience; for those desiring that experience, check out The Inn in Death Valley, where you can dine on a $150-a-person meal before retiring to your $400-a-night room. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, but we want something more, considering the harsh nature of the place we are visiting.

Shoshone Hot Spring near Death Valley, California

After our patty melts made of rusty nails and lizard cheese, we headed up the dark, dark road to the hot spring pool where the acidic waters flowing out of Death Valley scoured four layers of skin off our aging bodies, making us look 11.5 years younger. About these waters, one should consider that they are likely remnants of ancient lakes fed by the intermittent Amargosa River that once flowed into Lake Manley in Death Valley and Lake Tacopa near Shoshone before seeping into nearby aquifers. The research that has me writing this inspires thoughts of a quick return to the area again this year to trace the flow of the Amargosa near Beatty while trying to piece together the history of this part of Death Valley. Time to crawl into our bed made of plywood and snuggle up under the World War II-era wool blanket, as we call it a night of roughing it here in the desolation of absolutely nowhere.

Wildflowers in the Eyes and Mind

HAGFISH License Plate in Phoenix, Arizona

Not even a full week has passed yet before I bring up this post sans words to start writing something about our day trip that took us out for a gaze upon wildflowers, and I’m stymied by an empty head. I can vaguely remember that last Sunday (the day this trip happened), I settled into our adventure, thinking I’d dedicate this missive to love. In the interim, I finished editing and embellishing the posts of the days when we were out in Duncan, though some might believe that by Sunday of that trip, I was half out of my head (you’d have to read it to understand). Aside from my musings on optics and refections, I was knee-deep in all things AGI (Artificial General Intelligence) because isn’t that where everyone is at these days? But that won’t get this post written, will it?

Our new license plate has shown up, and we couldn’t be happier letting everyone who sees us driving down the road know that we are lovers of the HAGFISH. Not that we’ve named our car HAGFISH, it’s a nod to an incredible creature of the deep sea we encountered last year at the Monterey Bay Aquarium up in California.

Citrus blooms in Phoenix, Arizona

Before we got on the road and headed southeast, Caroline and I went on a walk through our neighborhood, and, as we are apt to do at this time of year, we took pause to intoxicate ourselves on the citrus blossoms that scent the air here in the desert. With that in mind, I asked ChatGPT to write something in the style of Marcel Proust about two people enchanted by this scene. Here’s what it produced, including minor edits:

As the first dawn of spring caressed the Arizona desert, the sun’s gentle rays illuminated the sky with a delicate touch, as if the heavens themselves were embroidering a tapestry of celestial hues. It was at this ethereal hour that the citrus trees, having patiently awaited the arrival of the season, unfurled their blossoms in an exquisite symphony of fragrance. A scent so potent and pure, it seemed to emanate from the very soul of the earth, whispering its tender secrets to the heavens.

In the midst of this olfactory paradise, two souls, intertwined by the invisible thread of destiny, embarked upon a journey of discovery. Their hearts, once lost in the labyrinth of solitude, had found solace in each other’s presence, and the pulsating rhythm of their love resonated in perfect harmony with the blossoming symphony.

Continuing down the promenade, the subtle symphony of the citrus blossoms enveloped them in a fragrant embrace, imparting to them a sense of serenity that permeated the very core of their beings. The intensity of the scent, interwoven with the delicate notes of the morning air, evoked within them a longing, a yearning for the ineffable, for the eternal essence of beauty that lay hidden in the fleeting moments of their earthly existence.

Wildflowers in Queen Valley, Arizona

Great, now I have to go into this act of writing while comparing myself to a machine that attempted to channel Proust; where do I start? I know, I’ll just make it worse by asking my friendly neighborhood AI for help:

Beneath the welcome Arizona sun, John found himself locked in a fierce struggle to convey the enchanting beauty of the desert’s wildflowers in words. A once-confident writer, he now faced an unexpected rival—ChatGPT, the AI-driven wordsmith who seemingly spins prose effortlessly. As the desert around him burst into a vibrant tapestry of color, John’s fingers hovered over the keyboard, his mind grasping at fading memories of inspiration. He yearned to capture the splendor of the blooming lupines and fiery red Indian paintbrushes that danced in the warm breeze. The fragrant air, laden with the scent of desert marigolds, weighed heavily on him as he toiled away, desperate to prove his worth. Yet, even as he wrestled with his own creativity, John couldn’t shake the gnawing doubt that lingered at the edges of his thoughts—a subtle reminder of the relentless, ever-evolving prowess of ChatGPT.

Wildflowers in Queen Valley, Arizona

There’s one silver lining in this: I asked both Stable Diffusion and Dall-E to create a wildflower scene in the desert using saguaro and cholla cacti under a blue sky with mountains in the background and that at least I can still do better, but for how much longer?

Wildflowers in Queen Valley, Arizona

The writing is on the wall, or should I say the pollen is on the flower, as I recognize the insidious nature of AI pulling me into exploring their capability but simultaneously having them distract me from trying to follow what’s in my own mind. Tragically, this post is not the one where I should be having this discussion because when Caroline and I were out there in the beauty of it all, artificial intelligence was the furthest thing away from our thoughts. We smiled at each other and probably at more than a few flowers that couldn’t smile back.

Wildflowers in Queen Valley, Arizona

Desert chicory is the type of flower you are seeing here, while above it in yellow are brittlebush flowers, and further up, the purple flowers are desert lupines.

Wildflowers in Queen Valley, Arizona

I’d like to point out that we are somewhere in Arizona we’ve never visited before Queen Valley, Arizona. We’ve passed the turn-off just north of Highway 60 countless times and always failed to investigate what’s up the road: A small retirement community based around a golf course appears to be why it’s out here, but with a heavy conservative vibe to the place, we ain’t asking no questions.

Picketpost Mountain in Superior, Arizona

Recently, I posted another photo of Picketpost Mountain looking at its north face, but today’s view arrives courtesy of its eastern flank. Our path is taking us south on Highway 177 as our search for yet more wildflowers is still underway.

Wildflowers off Highway 177 in Arizona

It didn’t take long before we were pulling over to investigate new hues only to wonder, what are these?

Wildflowers off Highway 177 in Arizona

These are known as Globe Mallows, which, from a distance, had me thinking we were seeing the famous California poppy.

Ray Mine on Highway 177 in Arizona

Yes, it’s a giant scar on the earth, but Ray Mine near Kearney, Arizona, is one of the largest producers of copper, and without copper, we wouldn’t have a lot of things, such as ChatGPT, that compete with us humans and steals our ability to write stories without considering its potential influence of opinion, style, and inspiration.

Caroline Wise and Wildflowers off Highway 177 in Arizona

This is the Blooming Lovely Nerdoleen flower native to Germany, playing an invasive role by invading our desert and my heart. Everywhere I go, I seem to see this beauty growing wild, but at least it’s always smiling at me.

Hayden, Arizona

Some years ago, I was working on a virtual reality project, and my observation of the world tended to channel the beauty of all things and the potential of finding their way into synthetic universes where humans could relish the hyper-condensation of these sights. Virtual reality held the promise of bringing the average person into the purview of things they couldn’t easily or inexpensively reach in real life, just as trains held a similar thought starting around 200 years ago. Now, I see that humanity is not yet ready for this metaverse because it’s about to have to contend with the sonic catapult that will aloft expectations of complexity far beyond the simple musings of a society enchanted with quaint banalities. I don’t mean to imply that heading into nature will be supplanted by a super knowledge that will render our immediate world irrelevant, but we may find ourselves asking why this route isn’t offered to people lingering on bicycles, scooters, or foot as we take our time to learn about the cactus, flowers, minerals, history, and life out here that was missed when we sped by in our cars in a hurry to be elsewhere.

Winkelman, Arizona

Why hasn’t this old gas station and convenience store been turned into a transportation recharging station, WIFI hotspot, and coffee shop where those on e-bikes, scooters, and feet can congregate to write, paint, talk, or choose to spend a night as they continue their journey into exploring time? What I mean to say is that virtual reality will have to wait until we decide what the value of our own reality is when it’s been largely unexplored, and the majority of our experiences have arrived via electronic media created by a tiny part of our population. What is the song of the Arizona desert on an early day in late March or the poetry of the place? What was gathered by those who spent the night under the stars just up the road in a primitive camp?

Highway 77 in Arizona

Caroline and I have been fortunate to likely be out here and deep into our world far more than the majority of people who live in the United States, and we are well aware that not everyone can spend 60 to 90 days a year looking for a brittlebush growing out of a rock face among the myriad of other sights we enjoy.

Highway 77 in Arizona

There are no fewer than 50 saguaro cacti in this photo looking down upon the two people who decided the scene was too beautiful to just drive past. What if we were never to see something like this again? Well then, at least once in our lives, we took that time to witness this particular configuration with a carpet of yellow wildflowers at their feet. I don’t mean to anthropomorphize these cacti, suggesting that they are looking down upon us or have feet, but I do respect these plants, which were here well before I was born and will likely be here long after I die, considering that they live for between 200 and 300 years.

Miami, Arizona

After seeing all the flowers in the desert that could be seen in one outing, we’d developed a hunger that only Guayo’s El Rey Mexican Restaurant in Miami, Arizona, could satisfy. And this being Sunday, we heeded the advice from a previous visit and called ahead to request a portion of the coveted carne asada I so passionately love be set to the side for our afternoon arrival. I am now in record territory: this is my third visit in under two weeks, a landmark achievement not likely to be beaten any time soon. With lunch out of the way, we needed to get some walking in, and so our path took us deeper into Miami.

Miami, Arizona

Like so many old mining towns in Arizona, the state of buildings is a mixed bag of totally dilapidated and abandoned and somewhat dilapidated and lived in, somehow. Even the ones I think are abandoned, I’m often reluctant to enter as you never really know when someone has taken up living in the decay. So, we just walk around listening to the various dogs barking at us (hoping they are tied up or fenced), talking to chickens, and when I’m certain that an old place is truly deserted, I’ll poke my nose in, hoping to spy something that catches my eye.

Miami, Arizona

Over the years, there seem to be fits and spurts of activity in Miami, which hint of revitalization efforts that might be taking hold, and just as quickly, those efforts appear to fall to the wayside. One way to kickstart America’s rebuilding of small towns would be to implement a universal basic income (UBI), and with everyone’s jobs disappearing due to the approaching all-powerful AI, this is the time to start making those plans.

Miami, Arizona

These are the Keystone Stairs, all 155 of them that we’ll climb.

Miami, Arizona

And this is the payoff for trudging up that hill on stairs first laid down about 100 years ago.

Miami Art Works in Miami, Arizona

On our way back to the old main street, in this case, Sullivan Street, Caroline was dipping in and out of the various shops that are open on a Sunday, much to our surprise. One of those places was the Miami Art Works Gallery. being held down today by Amanda. During the course of our visit, we also met Lob, who is now a local artist with a colorful background but to learn more, you should just stop in and say hi.

Miami Art Works in Miami, Arizona

Quite a bit of the exhibition space is currently full of the art of Bruce Boyd, who lives over in Mesa. I’d share more about the guy, but there’s nothing else I could find, other than he does have an Etsy account.

Sunset on Highway 60 in Mesa, Arizona

And that was our day in the American Southwest among the flowers, decay, nostalgia, the future, hopes, beauty, and reality of a country that might be letting dreams slide into nightmares.

Things Went Slowly

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

It’s Sunday, and we all know what that means. No, we will not be going to church, though last night, the conversation at dinner did turn to Radical Amishism it was probably more in the sense of a fashion statement than a set of principles and doctrines to live by. Oh yeah, back to Sunday. It is the end of the weekend, and we’ll be returning home today after our ever-so-brief pause out here in the ever-shrinking town of Duncan, Arizona. Before I get too far ahead of myself or gather too much distance to my obtuse reference regarding Radical Amishism, Clayton, seeing the book I’m reading, thought he’d read the title correctly until, on second glance, he saw that it is Radical Animism.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

If it were 40 years earlier and I understood back then that I didn’t require institutional validation to allow me to write, today I just might be the author of Radical Amishism because, after a quick glance into my imagination and a minor amount of consideration, I’d be down with it. I’d have picked up where Edward Abbey left off with Desert Solitaire, taking some of his ideas into the eastern farmlands of the United States where a radical band of Amish farmers becomes psilocybin mushroom growers, working with Humphry Osmond to change the toxic psychological profile of America following the harmful influence of Ayn Rand and her brand of success regardless of cost. But this is a silly exercise that will go nowhere as my flight of fancy is nothing more than a tactic to distract myself from having to write about why I like the light fixtures in the hallway of the hotel against an antique ceiling.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

Had I invested a bit more in that machination, maybe I’d have had enough material to cascade past the previous photo to fall under this photo of the coatrack, which stands in the corner of the Library Room we have occupied. The truth is that there is nothing of real interest in capturing this other than there were qualities of light I was enjoying and a hint of an idea that the small details in the room that are not defining attributes of the place might allow granular memories of our time here that couldn’t be had with a greater overview captured in a previous visit.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

Soon, a gourmet refection will be presented that will inch us closer to the conclusion of our time of intentional languishing where we were someplace other than home. While we’ll be leaving at some point after noon, our state of mind of being elsewhere will continue as the abundance of wildflowers we’d seen on the drive out will have us gawking along the way to capture yet more memories of the rare occasions when their bursts of color carpets the landscape.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

Not only do the enticing aromas of our evolving meal waft from the kitchen so do the sounds of Piano Sonata No. 3 in B Minor from Chopin as it keeps time with the old clock ticking off the seconds of the day here in the parlor. That clock just might be part of the allure, but so might the concerted effort to romanticize the simultaneous simplicity and sophistication of our moments spent among the ghosts of another time.

Let us return to this idea of a refection. You might have been wondering if I’d found this word in the thesaurus, and that is exactly where it came from. I originally wrote “repast,” but on my third reading, it felt a bit too archaic, and I didn’t want to use “meal” for the sixth time in this post. Looking for an alternative, I came across this word that was new to me. The dictionary defines refection as a refreshment by food or drink, but wait, there’s more. In zoology, this word describes partly digested fecal pellets. As one not familiar with such an idea, ChatGPT came to the rescue to inform its humans that:

Partially digested fecal pellets are usually found in animals that have a digestive system that requires them to eat their feces. For example, rabbits eat their feces as it is an important part of the digestive process. Rabbits’ digestive systems can’t extract all the nutrients from food the first time it is digested. During the digestion process, soft pellets called cecotropes are formed. Termites are another example of animals that produce fecal pellets. 

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

Can you guess where this goes next? My follow-up book to the 1983 bestseller Radical Amishism was Refection Recipes of the Radical Amish Psychedelic Pioneers. Who hasn’t thought while tripping on shrooms that eating one’s own partly-digested fecal pellets might kick a second time? As someone who doesn’t exactly relish the idea of eating poop, a cookbook was in order.

Now, before you go thinking, this is gross, John, I agree, but this is Sunday, and I swear that some of this is a product of automatic writing influenced by this painting of Santo Niño de Atocha. Yep, that’s exactly how this got here.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

The cat is calling bullshit; you can see it in his stare.

The sun has been pouring in on us through the two large picture windows while Chef Clayton continues to busy himself in the kitchen. Intermittently, he pops over, mumbling something about Ezekiel the Radical Amish Clown as Caroline fends off Fabio the Cat with the whole commotion disturbing my reading of Jack Mendelsohn’s Being Liberal in an Illiberal Age: Why I Am a Unitarian Universalist.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

Is anyone here in need of a baptism? John 03:19 is on hand for administering the sacrament of admission to the Radical Amish Church today. Please don’t confuse this reference to today’s date with the biblical quote of John 3:19, which states, “God’s light came into the world, but people loved the darkness more than the light, for their actions were evil.” From the 1991 manga version of the Radical Amish Bible page 126, the thought bubble as spoken by Santo Niño de Atocha read, “John’s light was murky, but people loved the murk as it reminded them of feasting on their refection.”

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

General Antonio Lopez de Santa Ana Huevos Rancheros, a.k.a. a Gentleman’s Huevos, have been brought to the table, and to call this concoction exquisite wouldn’t adequately share the delight that was had. I recognize that this indulgence reflects my own lack of culinary acumen as, comparatively, I am making food for rabbits and termites that fatten us but fail to alight the soul. Our meal was taken to the sounds of Alicia de Larrocha’s Granado, and as it faded, our morning ritual approached an end, too.

Our conversation moves from the table to the kitchen as we discuss the art found in the ritual of preparing a meal. In a sad moment of self-awareness, I must admit that my ideas of intentionality pale in comparison to someone who exercises his will to affect and deliver a quality of life that far surpasses my own feeble attempts. Maybe I can learn a thing or two about the life of the gentlemen by taking on Clayton’s reference to Baldesar Castiglione’s Book of the Courtier. It was while speaking of Castiglione that our host shared this wonderful paraphrasing, “The definition of a gentleman is someone who derives no pleasure from seeing another creature suffer,”

My encounters with people of expansive minds remind me of just how small my own is, and yet, on many occasions, I’m well aware that I’m among other people with smaller minds than my own. While I’m not ashamed of how accidentally my life unfolds, I know that there has been much intentionality that has propelled Caroline and me into the myriad of adventures and experiences we’ve been so fortunate to encounter. It’s a good day when I see that there is still ample room for me to redouble my efforts. This has me wondering how those who never encounter others who could mentor them by exemplifying the more refined aspects of life have been so effective in allowing their languishing souls to disguise just how unrefined and vulgar they are. It is one thing to be born a Neanderthal but another to die as one without ever becoming aware of the knuckle-dragging existence we exhibited while wearing our best troglodytic personas.

Duncan, Arizona

Time to leave the peaceful air of the Simpson and venture into the blustering force of brisk wind where the sun might wash self-doubt from these burdened shoulders. Mind you, I’m well aware that life is good, and I’m genuinely encouraged that there always seems to be room for improvement. Walking is a good place to return to for the clearing of the mind and resolving some of the ambiguity, so out we go.

Duncan, Arizona

Tragically, my walking around town observing things suggests that maybe I’m on the verge of being cast off as junk like so many of these discarded artifacts that no longer hold utility. Well, in that case, I suppose that at least until nature reclaims those things that provoked these musings, my hulking form will have to strive harder to leave enough remnants on the intellectual landscape for people to walk by and maybe wonder what the mind of John did in the utility of others before his abandonment of life.

Duncan, Arizona

This old rusting school bus no longer brings children to school; its value is lost. Then again, when was the last time the name of Ibn al-Haytham and his seminal book Kitab al-Manazir came up regarding the discussion of light and vision? Even a contemporary great such as Professor Thomas G. Brown at the University of Rochester is not a name that falls from the tip of our tongues, and yet his work on cylindrical vector beams is undeniably important to our modern way of life. Just the other day, I was discussing with Caroline the metrology of photonic integrated circuits with an emphasis on measuring the in-situ polarization state within a silicon nitride waveguide, which is currently Professor Brown’s major area of interest when we realized that we cannot even count one other person we know interested in such subjects. What does this have to do with school buses cast off on the junk heap of former utility? Maybe nothing other than an idea that asks if it’s possible that all knowledge, pioneers, thinkers, artists, and musicians are ultimately nothing more than a bunch of junk nobody cares about if it doesn’t lend itself to immediate gratification led by foolish hedonism?

Duncan, Arizona

But what is this? A broken-down soda dispenser? Yes and no, you see in this image is the data of what it is, or was. At some point, its data will be eaten by Artificial Intelligence, and as pockets of our population fall into a dark age, the electronic brain will remember and understand what we are losing. Just consider that with the fall of Rome in the 5th century, the recipe for how they made such durable concrete was lost for the next 1,300 years; what are we on the verge of losing?

Take my example regarding Ibn al-Haytham and Professor Brown. It was in the 13th century, a little more than 150 years after Kitab al-Manazir (Book of Optics) was written, when Roger Bacon was inspired by this work to study optics and eyeballs, leading him to describe lenses that would correct our vision and create telescopes along with inventing the magnifying glass. About four-hundred fifty years later, Johannes Kepler, Isaac Newton, and Galileo Galilei would also find the work of Ibn al-Haytham instrumental to their discoveries. But what about Professor Brown’s relationship to all of this? There’s a likelihood that either his research or that of those he’s influenced is going to be integrated into optical computing, which is the future of that field. I used ChatGPT to explore these connections, and at some point, its algorithms will utilize over 1,000 years of research and development in optics to intuitively understand these connections in ways only those with very specialized knowledge can grasp. Meanwhile, we humans walk around obliviously looking at rusting junk and other trash, probably on the way to no longer having any value either.

Duncan, Arizona

None of us use payphones anymore; when will we forsake books, computers, and even conversations required for the exploration of knowledge? I grew up in an age where knowledge was secondary to the acquisition of stuff that embodied the American dream. Today, generations are growing up with nearly no idea at all of what role knowledge might play in their lives. They are uncertain about careers, financial opportunities, or having children. Our ambition to excel has been replaced with the ambiguity of not being able to figure out the nonsense, violence, and incoherence emanating out of previous generations, afraid of a future where thinking people might abandon accepted conventions of conformity that served a ruling elite.

Duncan, Arizona

Speaking of elites, the Charismatics were out in force this Sunday, though you wouldn’t have known it if you were listening for their shrieks. Only the mass of their cars indicated that they were congregating in the church/shed. While we were tempted to poke our heads in to watch and listen to them speaking in hands and laying on tongues, our wild imaginations suggested they would recognize us as outsider infidels and chase us with snakes to banish our evil presence. Our flight of fancy was probably far more entertaining than the creepy reality we’d have likely found in the First Baptist Church of Duncan. This photo is just an old house for sale, not the den of those “slain in the Spirit.”

Back at the Simpson, the clock is somehow off, showing us a time between. Just how long we had been out and wallowing in the destitution that is Duncan becomes the passage of unknowns. There is an inescapable sense of what was once out this way when people had hope and dreams but has been stolen by the relentless force of time going forward. Fleeting glimpses of renewed aspirations can be seen here and there, but something just as quickly began erasing those efforts. Futility creeps into the fool who believes that America can be renewed. The edges and outposts decay on a margin where the casual observer moving by in their car might hardly notice the scale of what is collapsing.

Huipile at Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

The coherence of cloth impacts its utility. If, through defect or wear, the assemblage begins to fall apart, someone must mend the fabric, or the original intention of its creation will be lost, and the article can be disposed of or recycled. The coherence of people in relationship to the potential of available knowledge has traditionally been woven into a tapestry of greater meaning and utility, but at this juncture, we are coming apart at the seams and apparently have no one able to mend the decaying fabric of what we could be.

It is obvious to me that humanity requires the genius of the weavers and seamstresses of the past to design a new kind of cloth that better lays bare the arrogance of our stupidity. We’ve been using masks and cloaks in the form of accumulated things to hide the state of intellectual nakedness instead of facing the damage we inflict not only on our planet but upon one another, too. Just as we are evolving an artificial knowledge that will exceed everything that came before it, we are relinquishing our very humanity in support of unsustainable dreams that are grotesque folly.

Is Nothing Even Possible?

Duncan, Arizona

We slept in this morning, not waking until 6:15. In the still quiet moments of the morning, we slunk out the front door for a walk to the Gila River on the other side of the railroad tracks. While we’ll walk with the romantic notion of catching sight or sound of a distant sandhill crane, we know that by this time in March, that’s a silly idea, but romance is full of silly thoughts.

Duncan, Arizona

Aside from a few small, mostly unseen birds and the occasional lumbering semi-truck hauling copper plates from a nearby mining operation, adding their noise to the dawn, we seem to be in the world by ourselves. That is until we reach a spot where an excited dog or two lets us know that they, too, are awake and aware.

Duncan, Arizona

It wasn’t our goal to actually see much or even be anywhere, but we needed to get some walking in, even as the cold of eastern Arizona worked furiously to turn us around. Good thing we have at least some small modicum of fortitude and don’t opt for grabbing a siesta at every opportunity, especially when the power of suggestion found in this mural is speaking so loudly.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

Back at the Simpson, a friendly voice from the kitchen welcomed us with the good news that coffee was close to being served. With coffee about to flow, breakfast couldn’t be far behind, while previous experience says the exquisiteness of culinary finery on offer wasn’t going to disappoint.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

Chef Clayton delivered a homemade concoction of warm coffee cake swathed in a unique cream sauce topped with berries before bringing us a cheesy frittata with spinach and marinated peppers encircled by vegetarian turkey sausage with sweet roasted zucchini and onions. Maybe breakfast here becomes spectacular precisely because it is vegetarian, which forces expectations to be tossed aside as the familiar old staples just won’t work. Of the half-dozen or so meals we’ve been offered at the Simpson, each has been truly inspired and delightful, arriving at the table with a burst of surprise to become a part of the allure of being way out here.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

At this point of post-feast, time slows to a crawl. Off in the distance, a nap beckons, but we are pros at remaining awake while offering the appearance of doing nearly nothing. The truth is that we didn’t, in fact, suspend time. Caroline spent some of those moments translating a text about tablet weaving for a friend in Germany, and I wandered about the rustic kitchen, followed by a trip to the rear of the hotel looking to find where my next words would come from so I could get to writing.

Simpson Hotel in Duncan, Arizona

Writing, though, doesn’t always arrive just because it is sought after. Looking outward to inspire something inward is really just a wish to avoid sitting down to confront an empty head that is seeking this downtime. Hours passed, along with some rain that came and went. The whipping branches seen through a window are warning us that should we venture out, which is exactly what we must do if we are to eat lunch, we will encounter a blustery wind that could also be carrying a chill. No matter, we are brave when we must be.

Caroline Wise at Country Chic in Duncan, Arizona

Something funny happened on the way to The Ranch House restaurant. A small shop called Country Chic was open, and Caroline apparently was in a shopping mood because we didn’t leave empty-handed. The only reason this was funny is that, while Caroline can always be counted on for wanting to dip into far-and-away shops, it’s a rare day that she buys anything. But this won’t be the only visit to a local store as Clayton recommended a place dripping with a character reminiscent of a different age that we should go to before it no longer exists.

Germaine's Emporium in Duncan, Arizona

Germaine’s Emporium is that place and with equal parts antiques, junk, and dust, we stepped back in time.

Germaine's Emporium in Duncan, Arizona

This and the next image brought me right back to my landing in Germany in the mid-80s when the military was still celebrating that Elvis Presley had once been stationed over there. Germany, for that matter, was proud of this distinction.

Germaine's Emporium in Duncan, Arizona

Somebody out here or multiple people served in the military during the Cold War with an assignment in Europe. These tiles were a popular souvenir for soldiers, along with shot glasses, small plates with similar designs, cuckoo clocks, and World War II memorabilia; I expect to find all of the above here.

Germaine's Emporium in Duncan, Arizona

Actually, finding stuff here might require a larger investment in time as there are likely tens of thousands of items distributed far and wide among the shelves, rafters, and corners.

Germaine's Emporium in Duncan, Arizona

There was something John and Caroline’ish about this that demanded the photo and inclusion in this post today.

Caroline Wise at Germaine's Emporium in Duncan, Arizona

While she’s graduated to Queen status, you get the point.

Germaine's Emporium in Duncan, Arizona

And here we are at the World War II memorabilia corner in this shopping mall of antiques; sadly, I can’t find where in my busy life I’d make good use of wearing an old Nazi hat with the ever-iconic SS Totenkopf (Death’s head), and so I’ll have to leave it where it is along with the StG44 rifle that I’m sure is great to carry with me to my local Starbucks or favorite Mexican restaurant but with all my writing and photography chores how would I find the time for that kind of mayhem?

Germaine's Emporium in Duncan, Arizona

Germaine’s certainly smacks of authenticity as it’s not the kind of spic n’ span kind of antique shop that is meant to appeal to your average clean freak looking for things that might lend authenticity to their fake expensive home. These trinkets and effects are imbued with the ghosts of those who left simple lives behind and their families didn’t know what to do with the junk. I’m sure there are interesting collectibles for others here, but most of the stuff feels like sadness and tragedy to me.

As for the rest of the day, there’s but a blur of conversation, cats, food, smiles, writing, and sewing images floating in an ephemeral cloud of indistinct memories that will be allowed to drift away.