Weaving Workshop

Caroline Wise at online weaving workshop

Starting March 13th, Caroline joined an online 3D Weaving Workshop. That morning she joined a Zoom meeting hosted by Sally Eyring from Boston, Massachusetts, and for 3 weeks on Saturdays, she was busy for a full 7 hours. Now, I wasn’t around for these “pandemic-safe” workshop days as I headed over to my favorite coffee shop for my very own writing sessions (often gab-fests, to be honest) allowing Caroline to participate uninterrupted by a looming husband (hope you enjoyed the dad-humor pun).

Loom setup for 3D Weaving

This particular process of 3D weaving is a technique developed by Sally Eyring, the instructor, and required some very special tools to make this happen. Some were supplied, such as bungee cords and mitten clips, others Caroline had to find, such as empty gallon water bottles and thread weights. It turns out that having a week between classes was ideal because it allowed Caroline to become much more familiar with the processes instead of the more typical 2.5-day workshop where participants cram everything in between Friday and Sunday afternoon.

3D Weaving pillow cover

The workshop attendees got to choose their own projects. Caroline picked the “bolster pillow.” She wove a sample, trying out different things, then cut it off the loom to see how it was working and to decide on which particular patterns were her favorites. Once that’s done she’ll continue by weaving the actual bolster pillow cover. By the way, weaving samples is typical as it allows the weaver to experiment with different parameters before proceeding with “the real thing.” After the final product has been made it seems likely that Caroline won’t be returning to this technique, but she enjoyed the opportunity to learn something new while discovering that online weaving workshops are viable alternatives to meeting in person.

Trying To Be Somewhere

Fritter from Hurts Donut in Tempe Arizona

This is not one of our usual day trips, as there is no we today; it’s just me. Caroline is at home wrapping up the final day of an online weaving workshop. I, on the other hand, got a late start and sat down for about 10 minutes as I waited for a donut to arrive. Not just any donut, an apple fritter from Hurts Donut in Tempe. Now that I’m here I’m regretting my decision, not the donut due to my diabetes but the other customers who have come in since I sat down. There’s a 10-year-old boy wearing a “Make America Great Again” hat, his 13-year-old brother has a t-shirt emblazoned with “The right of the people to keep and bear arms shall not be infringed” while their sister is not flaunting the family’s right-wing leanings and of course nobody was wearing a mask. A guy before them in his 60s was also maskless and angry looking; he’s probably showing his disdain for the masked libtard sitting here looking at him from behind a computer, writing about him.

I’m becoming allergic to the outside world; just this morning, on our walk, we passed a truck with some stickers that had me asking Google, what is the meaning behind 13 stars with the Roman numeral 3 in the center? The Three Percenters was the answer. Who are they? A far-right group; enough said. Yesterday I had to leave the coffee shop I’ve planted myself in for the past couple of weeks. I left because of 4 white men between 25 and 55 who were waiting to place an order, and none of them were wearing masks, though the owner had a sign requesting customers wear masks until they sat down. This belligerence to masks springing up all of a sudden is due to our right-leaning Governor, who removed mask rules, to the consternation of many political leaders. Damn it, another man just walked into Hurts Donut maskless while I wait for them to finish this batch of fritters that should have been done by now.

Superior, Arizona

With my steaming hot Super-Fritter in a box that I believe normally holds a dozen donuts, I bolted out of Tempe and headed for the 60 Freeway East. I’d love to blame the next bit on my diabetic sugar high that was likely underway, but my anger has been boiling over regarding the blatant displays of ugliness for quite a while by now. I was already blowing fuses in the Mesa area due to the heavy traffic; oh wait, not just heavy traffic but aggressive get-the-fuck-outta-my-way traffic. I drove for a decade in Germany, I’m not foreign to driving fast, but reckless tailgating and swerving in and out of traffic will piss me off. Then, at Florence Junction, I catch a break, and traffic thins as many drivers turn off towards Florence Prison, obviously on their way to visit loved ones.

Then my confirmation bias gets triggered as a group of bikers pass, and one has a Three Percenters logo on his baseball cap. Great, now I’m going to see this damn thing everywhere. This was shortly before pulling into the sleepy, almost a ghost town, blip on the map known as Superior. Our first visit was in the late 1990s after Billy Bob Thornton, Sean Penn, Jennifer Lopez, and Joaquin Phoenix brought this place into the public eye with the film titled U-Turn. Twenty-some years ago, there was nobody here, and there were fewer of them on subsequent visits. I passed through Superior a few times last year on our way out for drives to Duncan or down to Winkelman before hitting Miami back up north for some Mexican food. Those previous stops were at the height of the pandemic, and I guess people weren’t stir-crazy enough then, but today, they were out in droves. I skipped a stop at the gas station for water as I already know that this far out, masks are for idiots and I’m one that belongs to that clan. I did pull into Main Street to take notes but ended up on a quiet side street as sleepy Superior awakening to the potential that might be found in the biker’s wolf-pack economy.

Travelers Hotel in Miami, Arizona

I’m not even hungry yet, nor did I finish the donut, but that doesn’t mean I can’t find room for a green chili burrito from Guayo’s El Rey Mexican restaurant. I called the order in as the place was obviously packed as I drove by, which gave me about 10 minutes to wander around. The first time I took a picture of this building 19 years ago, it wasn’t boarded up, and a lot of the glass was still intact, but today it’s looking sketchier and sketchier. According to the internet, it was built in 1918, but there’s a date up in the concrete that is difficult to see on this small image that says 1927, so I’m going with that. At one time, it was the Travelers Hotel, while during another incarnation, it was the Real Market, and on the south side of the building was the Real Buffet. Someday, maybe it’ll be a meeting hall for the Three Percenters.

Miami, Arizona

From Superior all the way to the New Mexican border out by Duncan and Clifton, this was copper mining country. When mining operations stopped, so did the imagination of anyone who might have lived out in these parts as nothing moved in to pick up the slack to offer jobs. The farming that was going on continued to some degree, but most everything dried up. There are a lot of vacant buildings in various stages of decrepitude that beg for me to enter them, but the most interesting ones are boarded up and locked. Seeing I’m not the kind of guy who enjoys talking to local law enforcement who might be angry with me for breaking and entering, I stick to checking out the obvious and wide open.

Saguaro Cactus on Route 77 north of Winkelman, Arizona

I’m over 100 miles from home before I finally start to feel like I’ve left most everything behind, but the writing is on the wall. Actually, the writing has been well established for a long time as there was a point over twenty-three years ago when, on a drive west of Kingman, Arizona, approaching California, we detoured up Old Route 66, a.k.a. the Oatman Highway looking for a glimpse of the Colorado River. As we talked, I wondered at what point in the future would these desolate places be so overrun that the charm of being far off the beaten path would be lost? I think we are close, but then I suppose I must temper that with the idea that some old guy who passed through these areas in the 1940s probably thought the same thing I was recognizing 50 years later. The cactus in this photo is along Route 77, heading south out of Globe to my next destination.

Giorsettis Superior Grocery in Winkelman, Arizona

I think this is either the 3rd or 4th time I’ve posted a photo of Giorsettis Superior Grocery in Winkelman, Arizona. I love this old market as it doesn’t feel like it changed since the day it opened. The floors give when you step in, and I wish I could buy everything just to boost their profit so they could still be here 20 years from now. While I’ve shared it before, I’ll share it again. Our first visit back in 2002, I believe, was for drinks, but a stack of still-warm tortillas enticed us to buy a dozen. I can’t say we ate them all in the next 15 minutes, but I won’t say we didn’t either. This is one of those places I obviously feel a lot of nostalgia for.

Winkelman, Arizona

Just across the road from the store is an area of Winkelman that all looks about like this. Every time we are down this way, I expect the rest of town will take on the same appearance.

Gila River in Winkelman, Arizona

Where I turned to enter Winkelman is the junction of Route 77 and 177, which returns to Superior. Checking out the decay on the west side of town, I spotted something I don’t believe we ever visited before: an old bridge. Out there in front of me is the 77, which continues its way south to Tucson while I’m standing on a footbridge built back in 1916 that crosses the Gila River.

Hayden Arizona March 2021

Not two minutes north is the town of Hayden, which, from my perspective, should be part of Winkelman; as a matter of fact, Hayden High School is actually in Winkelman. This old mining town is disappearing from reality, and someday, in the not-too-distant future, I expect it will be nearly completely gone.

Hayden Arizona July 2002

This photo was taken in July 2002 on one of our early visits to the area. I have a thing for old gas stations, and as best as I could tell, this was just such a place. With the two pillars and the pipes coming out of the ground at what looks like pedestals to me, I believe this place really was a gas station a long time ago.

Hayden Arizona March 2021

Nineteen years later, the pipes are still there, as is the listing door frame, but everything else is gone. Driving through the remains of the town is nothing shy of a bummer, though the ruins are interesting enough to look at. There are three interesting buildings here for sale: an old theater and two old churches. I cannot see how a place like this could be gentrified and brought back when the poverty that still lives here would have nowhere to go, nor would the inhabitants survive the increase in property values and taxes.

Hayden Arizona March 2021

Along the way, I felt reluctant to continue my trek away from home, but I’m glad I did. Looking at the photos and comparing them to my memories makes this journey worthwhile. The changes in our cultural landscape over the years are starting to impact the way I see the lands of America. They are tinged with an ugliness from our characters as violent, angry, racist, lunkhead thugs who are spoiling the potential that made the United States so appealing. The physical land that lies between the Atlantic and Pacific oceans is like so many other places on Earth, but it has been the promise of opportunity and finding magnificence that, in my view, has been the draw for so many people around our planet for the past couple of centuries. I think there’s a chance that our major cities might suffer catastrophic setbacks as their tax bases shift due to how the pandemic has changed where we work. If New York City or Chicago starts to rapidly decay, how long before they go the way of Buffalo or St. Louis, or worse, they start to mirror towns like Miami, Arizona, and crumble into so much rubble next to the road?

Exploring Deviancy

Charles Manson Letters

As I wrote yesterday, I’d successfully written John Wayne Gacy; how about trying Charles Manson? I didn’t really have much of anything to say to him as, at 24 years old, I was a noob, and I was about to find out just how stupid I really was. I first wrote the California Department of Corrections asking for Manson’s address; the response offended me with its language of effectively calling me a deviant. The guy who wrote me closed his letter with a kind of best wishes to find what I was truly seeking as though I was on a pilgrimage. I was, to say the least, upset.

My next act had me funneling my indignation back into the typewriter as I hammered off a letter to the office of then-California Governor George Deukmejian. I let him know how incensed I was at this attempt at trying to guilt me into not exercising my 1st Amendment rights. I sent it off, never expecting to hear another word. When I did hear back, I wished I never had. The Governor’s office apparently reached out to the Department of Corrections and let them know about the butt-hurt idiot in Germany using a military address to whine about not being able to write a madman without a lecture. I was assured I was free to write to Charlie at San Quentin Prison, and the letter that was sent to me was being taken out of circulation. My first thought upon reading this was, “Well, this is going into my State Department file along with all the other crazy shit that’s in there from my time in the military.”

Manson never wrote back, and as I shared in the previous blog post, I lost interest in exploring this avenue of deviancy as it really was just a morbid curiosity to communicate with someone seriously on the fringe of society. When people around you are boring conformists and what you seek is potent stimulation, the paths you might take could look peculiar to those around you, so it goes.

They Call Him What?

John Wayne Gacy book and letter to John Wise

Goddamn, I hated the Army. Oh, I loved basic training, and I got into my job as a part-time database programmer, part-time videographer/trainer, and data processor, but the bullshit of playing soldier was alien to me. I wanted an experiential life, not a regimen dictated by blind obedience and pretending that we were doing something important. Important to me was art, literature, music, creativity, exploration, history, love, fucking, and generally peeling back the skin of the onion of culture.

I’d joined the military in 1985, and by the end of 1987, I was free of that psychodrama to begin my full-time journey into the natural world of deviancy outside the machine of conformity. For two years at Rhein-Main Airbase adjacent to the Frankfurt International Airport, I had plowed into every word of Friedrich Nietzsche I could put my eyeballs on. I had dined on the vulgar fruit of Charles Bukowski’s effluvium. To my surprise, I learned that fist-fucking was really a thing, as was shit-eating and piss-drinking. Bertrand Russel was playing a role in my life along with Wilhelm Reich and a host of other thinkers. Art had been a part of my everyday existence, as was the discovery of music I’d never heard of before. And then I left the military before my term was up in large part due to a photo I’d taken of the performance artist Johanna Went, but that’s another story. From Ft. Bliss in El Paso, Texas, I headed back to Germany, and if I could have parachuted right into the red light district, I would have landed on the first prostitute I saw.

I wanted visceral and raw life to counteract the attempted brainwashing I’d endured for more than two years, and the only way to get there was to further embrace the antipodal world from where Americana and the U.S. military stood. I didn’t know how to reach my counter-culture heroes, who were celebrities in their own right, so I turned the other way and tried writing someone who was still a captive of total control.

Prison is where I thought I was while acting like a soldier, so why not write a prisoner? But I didn’t want a pen pal; I wanted to write someone who was a kind of Socrates or Dr. Frankenstein in his own right, and so I took aim at a serial killer. Maybe the most famous person who met that criteria in the 1980s was the Killer Clown, a.k.a. John Wayne Gacy.

So I found his address at Menard Correctional Facility in Illinois and wrote him a letter; he wrote back. For a few months, we exchanged letters, culminating in Mr. Gacy sending me an oil painting of some Disney characters dedicated to my daughter Jessica. I’d imagine that would make some people groan, knowing an infamous serial killer was creating a painting for someone’s 2-year-old daughter. Such is the life of someone feeling outside the mainstream.

Regarding what’s in the book from me, well, that can mostly remain private into eternity as the book is largely unavailable unless one wants to part with nearly $1,000 to secure a copy, but nobody on earth could ever have that level of interest in what some idiot 24-year-old had to say to a monster. For years, I was embarrassed to be included in the book, and I do believe that was Gacy’s intent, but here I am among fellow weirdos, such as Lux Interior of The Cramps and a young Oprah Winfrey, exploring our curiosity.

Is this something that progressed or obsessed me as I grew older? Nope, after trying to establish contact with Charles Manson, which failed, I was already growing out of it. By the time Jeffrey Dahmer was apprehended I was tempted to write him but instead satisfied myself by picking up a t-shirt with his mugshot on it while on a trip from Germany to Los Angeles. Wearing that shirt in Germany went unnoticed by Europeans who had no idea who this cannibal was, but American tourists traveling through would raise their eyebrows at the rude hippy flaunting such ugliness. I was reveling in it because back then, I was loaded with a bunch of fuck you.

Hurry Up And Imagine Something

Doc for Amie on the ER-301

The following is a list of a few random things that were going on between getting our first vaccine shots on March 17th and March 24th while I forced myself to take up a bit of counter space at a favorite coffee shop to eke out some blog stuff.

Has the vaccine stolen my mind? How’s my new internal 5G connectivity working out? Maybe I got a placebo? No way, my arm feels like someone punched me hard, but my brain is not participating to deliver meaningful thoughts that offer up compelling ideas. Racing against the clock due to an early lunch necessitated by an afternoon meeting demands that I find some deep productivity right now and make it good. I need to find some way to blame my wife, as she’ll proofread this before it’s published, and I’d like to at least have some good snickering as she reads this half-hearted attempt at something.

Two days later, my arm no longer hurts, but my brain is not much more functional than it was then. I’ve been sitting in this coffee shop now for nearly two hours, and just a minute ago, did I even bother opening a draft that I feel should just be discarded, but seeing these thoughts feel as distant, I may as well add them to this trash container. When I arrived earlier in the day, I got caught up in conversation with someone whose last day here was this morning. Then Trent Gill, a.k.a. Trently, a.k.a. Whimsical Raps, started streaming one of his Mumble-Code sessions on Twitch, where he’s working on Monome’s Norns instrument. I don’t have one, but there’s something undeniably interesting about listening and occasionally watching Trent work through a coding session.

All of a sudden, it’s later yet again, but I did learn of barista Kaylie’s horrific accident a few years ago when she and a friend, pushing a car at the side of a road, were hit by a drunk driver, nearly costing the girls their legs. Kaylie was in the hospital for three and a half months and in a wheelchair for a full year before she hit rehab. And of all places she could have ended up, she was at Hacienda Rehab, notorious for a patient in a coma impregnated by a staff member. Through this tumultuous time in a 17-year-old’s life, she was told she’d never walk again; well, here she is, standing in front of me, relating the story that happened just three years ago. While Kaylie is battling the PTSD that comes with such an experience and subsequent depression, you’d never know it if you encountered her some random day at this coffee shop.

One user who also happens to develop “units” for the Orthogonal Devices ER-301 Sound Computer put out a call asking if anyone was interested in writing documentation for his package of “Accents.” Seeing I wasn’t getting far with my personal writing, I thought this might be a good exercise, so I volunteered. These Accents are elements or units that are building blocks for assembling synth voices or acting as modulation sources on other units within the ER-301. I chose a unit I had no experience with that seemed particularly difficult, and so I got to try to understand amplitude modulation, better known as AM, which turns out to be a 135-year-old process, which only worked to prove to me that 135 years later, we humans, by and large, are not very smart entities. As I finished up with the bulk of that unit, Joe the developer, asked if I’d help out writing the documentation for another unit, this one named Points. Points is a take on the envelope generator, a.k.a. ADSR, that was first created in 1983 for the Yamaha DX7, the first incredibly successful digital synthesizer. I’m currently trying to understand how levels and time work as I study page 26 in the old DX7 user manual and integrate that with Joe’s addition of bringing modulatable curves to the equation.

Something that can hold up blog posts is my need for images to accompany the writing. One distraction after another has to pass before I finally get tired of seeing the accumulation of draft posts, and I get busy grabbing shots that end up being far simpler than the grandiose plans I had in the first place. By the time I’m frustrated I just grab my phone and take the photo to throw up here, kind of like this screengrab from the Orthogonal Devices forum. That’s what I was doing tonight so I could pass on nearly half a dozen drafts to Caroline before letting them see the light of day.

Memories Of A Place

Chaga Chai tea from Green Salmon Coffee Shop in Yachats, Oregon

As if there weren’t enough photos already on this blog about our many visits to Oregon, this little placeholder is just one more addition to our memories. Last November when we were in Yachats, we stopped at the Green Salmon Coffee Company and in addition to picking up coffee beans for us and some friends, Caroline snagged a box of this Chaga Chai Spiced Mushroom Tea. The packaging was all she needed to see to know that we’d be leaving with some and now that she’s nearly out of it, I scanned the image to immortalize our memory from Yachats. There’s really nothing else to add to this other than pointing out that we sure would like to be up on that coast right now.