Day 6 – Marburg and Family

Oh yeah, trains don’t run as frequently on Sundays in Germany! With eight minutes to spare before I can travel from Bornheim Mitte to the Hauptbahnhof, I suppose this is as good a time as any to pull out the computer and start writing. My original plan was to be out earlier for a trip down to Worms, but plans changed because it is 9:30 already, and I’m meeting family for dinner later today. So the idea now is to get to the main train station (Hauptbahnhof) and see what train might be leaving the soonest with no transfers along the route so I can minimize my travel time today while maximizing sightseeing opportunities.

The city, like all cities in Germany, is quiet on a Sunday. People get a late start and walk over to their local bakery to fetch breakfast that they’ll carry home. Before I got out, I was reading noisy American news about UFOs, how TikTok helped create chaos in Huntington Beach, yellow stars of David with “Unvaccinated” printed on them, and how gun sales are still up. What a bunch of crap to drive anxiety.

This got me thinking about the environment I’m in and how impossible it is to consider the German population could be riled into believing that imminent disaster is so close at hand that the only solution is to go buy more guns and ammunition. I’ll be the first to admit that in America, this doesn’t seem so absurd because guns are ubiquitous, but here I am in Europe, thinking of the population racing to knife shops and exhausting their supply of sharp new blades and the tools to keep them that way is simply bizarre. The idea that your fellow citizens or government is so unhinged that the apocalypse is never far away can only be seen as something approaching insanity.

Worms didn’t work out. I’m now on my way to Marburg to see whatever it is that might be in Marburg. Small and medium-sized cities and various train stops are interspersed between farmlands on the way north. It’s difficult snagging a photo (see above) as I’m on the sunny side of the train with a lot of glare off my window while the other side of the train is nearly full, as though the other passengers already knew where the hot side was.

Two stops so far in the first 40 minutes of my journey: first in Friedberg and then in Giessen. The next stop must be my destination. Our train grew shorter in Giessen as a part of it that was going to Siegen has been left behind.

The Marburg train station is on my right while the old town is on my left, but standing on the bridge crossing the Lahn River looking out in this direction, I try to imagine when this was an important trade route at the crossroads between Prague, Cologne, Italy, and the North Sea. With just forest and river in my view, there’s no hint of modernity; it’s easy to see the same thing someone else would have seen 400 years ago from this place on the map.

Here I am, about to delve into history, when a small sticker on a metal post catches my eye. I wonder where I join this group of slugs against slut-shaming?

Mother Pauline Rothschild, age 88, when she died in Marburg, and probably her daughter Minna Rothschild, age 58, tried to escape to America in 1939, but by 1941, Pauline was likely murdered on the spot due to her age while her daughter was sent to Riga, Germany (now Latvia) probably as a slave until she too died at the hands of a rage-filled sociopath. These “Stumbling Stones” seem to be everywhere reminding us of the Jewish people who once lived in the house in front of which the stones are placed.

Saint Elizabeth’s Church of Marburg is my first stop after leaving the train station. This church was built between 1235 and 1283 over the gravesite of St. Elizabeth, wife of Count Ludwig IV of Thuringia. Her husband died while she was only 21. She had three children already and left the court of the Wartburg in Eisenach to live in poverty here in Marburg. This is also the first church in Germany built in the Gothic style and influenced by churches in Amiens and Reims, France.

While a small pamphlet explains briefly a number of things in the church, not all are, such as this jewel-encrusted Shrine for St Elizabeth of Hungary made between 1235 and 1249.

Close-up detail from the shrine.

Remember when real work went into making floors, and we had these amazing designs in our kitchens? Yeah, me neither.

Maybe I’ve not been in enough American churches, but a theme I’ve often seen across Europe is the depiction of death.

These photos are in sequence with how I shot them, so at this moment, I was behind the altar and spotted this old graffiti in the dimly lit passage. Typically, these areas have been off-limits.

With nearly no one else in the church, it felt like I had a good long time to linger and check out the artifacts without feeling like I was blocking someone else from enjoying the sights.

I don’t know a thing about the landgraves entombed here but their final resting places are beautiful. In another section is the body of Paul von Hindenburg, who was the former President of Germany prior to the rise of Hitler, and next to his tomb lays his wife.

Church art must have been the blockbuster movies of their day. Only the church could have afforded such extravagances in the creation of pieces that would last centuries.

I’m sitting in the original oak choir stalls, which is where the Knights of the Teutonic Order also sat. While some visitors have come and gone, I’m mostly alone, save the person at the front door. My mask had to come down although it’s against government policy, I have to smell the church. The ambiance of these ancient buildings is not only the magnificence of what was built using primitive tools that required decades to finish, but not only the breadth of history they’ve witnessed but the scent of time that’s passed through these monuments.

While not a religious man, I can’t help but sit in quiet contemplation and listen for the echoes of God or for hints of the voices of those from the distant past that might still resonate within these walls. There is no organ playing, no incense burning, and only a few candles flicker here and there. How long might I have to wait here until what I believe is impossible continues to be denied me or that I give and leave?

Only the remains of the landgraves will linger on long after I’ve taken my leave, while no manner of deeds from myself will ever qualify me to lay in rest for potentially hundreds or maybe thousands of years as do those enshrined here. Is it only in death that we are afforded the privilege of hearing the voice of God?

The High Altar is the original and dates from 1290. Much to my surprise, I was allowed to walk behind it.

There’s no one here to tell me if the paintings on walls within the church are originals or if they are fading relics of something only painted in the last 100 years or so.

I spent a good long time here at the church, and, as usual, I never feel that I’ve given myself enough opportunity to simply be here and allow something I cannot seem to find or connect with to find me. I suppose giving into faith might be a needed first step, but that’s a line I’m not willing to cross.

Not an easy church to photograph from the outside as the usual culprits such as modern buildings and street signage, often obscure the views. In order to capture this much of the building, I had to cut off the lower part, including the doors, but you get the general idea.

I never get food photography right, but that doesn’t mean I won’t post an image of it from time to time. Something as amazing as the good old Döner Kebab should be noted for posterity as we have nothing in America that comes remotely close to this incredible meal, and I miss them every time I return to the United States.

Just up the hill, or is it a mountain? This is the Marburg Castle. I don’t know how many of the 43 floors my Fitbit is reporting I’ve climbed, but it was a good, steep walk. I didn’t investigate whether any parts other than the exterior of the castle are visitable as if it were I’m certain Caroline would like to explore it with me. With the pandemic, I can’t believe it would be open yet, as there are so many restrictions still in place. No matter, it’s a nice walk.

Empty historical locations on a weekend are unknown to me. If only I could visit Florence, Italy, right now, but no way in 1,000 years would I go there without you-know-who.

While I’ve been somewhat manipulative, waiting for the few people who are here and there to clear away, that wouldn’t have been possible before the pandemic.

I can’t write much of what shows up in these blog posts in real-time, so here I am at 4:00 in the afternoon, 26 hours after I took the photo of the clock on the castle in Marburg. I’m sitting at Coffee Fellows between Hauptwache to my right and Alte Oper to my left. I’m having an oat milk two-shot latte, trying to stop people watching long enough to come up with something to add to my visit to the Landgrafenschloss (Landgraven Castle).

Back in the 11th century, the castle began life as a fort; the view should explain all you need to figure out its strategic advantage.

Decaying bricks and moss-covered stairs leading into a mystery beyond the door drew my imagination into wanting to discover what I might find in there. The intrigue is likely more interesting than the reality as all too often I’ve peered into dirty windows to find that I’m looking at junk as the space is being used for storage.

Ad infinitum, I reference the importance of capturing some of the smallest details to fill the gaps between the larger views. This should be of no consequence requiring explanation, but when I have nothing meaningful to add to an image, thus causing a minor amount of anxiety that I must write something, I likely repeat myself just so some dumb words show up that offer the reader really nothing at all. My apologies for wasting your time; I should have just posted the photo and said nothing.

Somehow, I’d forgotten to get a coffee earlier, and with my head a bit sensitive for the transgression, I was able to pick up one “to go” from a small shop with a wide-open facade that didn’t have a line at the door to meter the people coming in. With coffee in hand, I was able to find a narrow wooden bench that won the 2019 Most Uncomfortable Award in Marburg for the second year running. I’m sure if COVID hadn’t hit last year, it would have been a triple play. Like every day, I have a complaint. Back in 1985, it cost me about $0.20 to $0.33 to use a toilet; today, it’s about $1.10. My coffee costs just over two bucks, and it costs another dollar to get rid of it. This is demotivating for my attitude of staying hydrated. No wonder Germans go out to the bakery, grocery, or ice cream shop and then right back home; otherwise, they’d go broke keeping their bladders empty.

I need to head to the train station as my ride back to Frankfurt leaves in 25 minutes, but first, I need to go throw away a Euro.

Back on the train questioning if this $35 roundtrip journey was worth it. This is an important question as I have other regional treks planned that will cost a similar amount. I think the value I assign to a place is related to the quality of photos, the story I stumble into after reflecting on the day, and some other unknown intrinsic values I’m not aware of yet.

Hmm, Katharina just posted to the Engelhardt / Wise WhatsApp channel that her train is about 15 minutes late, while mine is now 11 minutes late. We are supposed to converge in Heddenheim around 5:00 as Klaus is making us Grüne Sosse, and I do believe I could eat Grüne Sosse every day.

Due to it being Sunday, I feel it’s okay to feel less than productive. I won’t be seeing Jutta this afternoon, but I’ve seen her every other day I’ve been in Germany, so that’s not so bad. Being lazy on occasion isn’t a negative, though I do feel guilty as here I am exploring the German countryside while Caroline just started her Sunday in the heat of the desert. While it’s 7:00 in the morning in Phoenix, I have 4:00 in the afternoon here. We’ll try to get in as much long-distance affection in the next seven hours as possible, as after that, I’ll disappear for nearly eight hours, and upon waking, Caroline will be short upon going to sleep herself.

We are passing through Giessen, and from its appearance, I can’t say that anything looks particularly interesting, nor do I remember hearing about anything that must be seen. By the way, I’m looking at Germany with such a critical eye because if one day we were to move back here, this would be our reality. I think I’ve had a Pollyannaesque view of Germany, and my idealism overwhelmed the reality that people must live in functional, affordable housing with plenty of jobs to support them as opposed to quaint and idyllic locations where a kind of Disneyland abundance of fun awaits me. There is a utility to much of what’s plopped down along the train tracks and beyond the farms. Small plots of new-growth forest are off in the distance but little in the way of wildlands.

Maybe I’m on to something in way of explaining the trappings of life in Germany with so many coffee shops, bookstores, museums, and at other times, a ton of events; you grow up here knowing the conformity and lack of diversity, and so on long vacations you must go far away. You take your bike to some faraway mountains and take a ride in a manicured forest because the wild ones don’t exist here. Getting in the car to take a long drive will result in the stress of needing to drive competitively using expensive gas to arrive somewhere that might be quite like the place you left. If you are going to spend $8 a gallon for gas to travel the 700 miles roundtrip from Frankfurt to Berlin, costing you $160 compared to a similar trip in America that costs about $65, maybe you are not so inclined to call that a day trip, and you need to distribute the high cost across a couple of days?

In the western United States, we have the luxury of driving a relatively short distance to go from desert to forest or to the sea, even if you are living in Phoenix and want to visit the Pacific Ocean or head into the San Juan Mountains of southwestern Colorado. Now, I have to wonder if I’ve taken that convenience for granted. This is a tough question at this time, as the previous American political climate and fear-driven society turned me against the idea of being comfortable in such an incredibly beautiful country. Combined with our social and economic inequity, it feels as though we are building a powder keg looking for a spark.

We passed through Dortelweil. Is it like Bielefeld, or is it like Tucson at the edge of the universe? Two hundred years ago, there were only 448 people living in Dortelweil; a hundred-fifty years after that, in 1960, there were 1,690 people. Today, there are more than 7,000, which likely means it’s a suburb of Frankfurt with many residents making the commute into the city. There wasn’t really a valid reason to offer this information, but I was passing through and thought that Dortelweil might need an occasional nod to its existence compared to its powerhouse neighbor down the train track.

Got into Frankfurt to another glorious afternoon, and as quickly as I arrived, I was on my way to Heddenheim to meet with Katharina, Klaus, and Stephanie for dinner. I’m serious about this potential ability to eat Grüne Sosse every day. Somehow, I forgot to take even one photograph of anything while I was visiting; I guess I was content to hang out, chat, and laugh.

Tomorrow will arrive early as we are moving some things to Jutta’s in the early morning, so I’m gonna rip through the few photos I shot today and try to find my eyes shut before midnight. For the record, this is St. Catherine’s Church or St. Katharinenkirche in German.

Day 5 – Frankfurt

Frankfurt, Germany

This is the view out of the bedroom window on Saalburgstrasse 46, where I’m staying in Frankfurt, Germany, also known as Jutta’s apartment. The last few days, this view has been dark and wet due to the rain, but here we are starting a day in beautiful sunlight. Oh, and it’s Saturday, which in Frankfurt means everyone will be out.

Frankfurt, Germany

Okay, where is everyone? It’s not like I left a few minutes after I took that previous photo, as I had some writing chores to tend to, namely yesterday’s blog post. While I write here and there over the course of the day, some things aren’t written until I decide what photos will be posted.

Frankfurt, Germany

Ah, this is where everyone is. Well, not everyone who is someone, but a lot of those who are planning on being part of everyone. Huh? Crowds are lining up for their free COVID tests so they can go shopping, eat at outside tables, and otherwise find their social life. Once they have their results, provided they are negative, they’ll go line up to get in stores. Grocery stores don’t require negative tests, but almost everything else does. These test centers seem to be everywhere, from empty shops to tents, and again, I’d like to reiterate that this version of free is without any cost other than the patience to wait.

Frankfurt, Germany

Guess what mistake I made while considering Anal Fantasy VII – Remake? I didn’t scan the QR code to see where it takes me, but do I really want to end up with some Goat.se-inspired images? Well, I guess I don’t mind because next time I walk by, I’ll be sure to bring up my phone, and if something gripping is found, I’ll share it.

Frankfurt, Germany

I suppose this is as good a place to report on the fact that while I’ve spent five days in Frankfurt and a short while in Wiesbaden, I’ve not been able to find a single homeless encampment yet. As I criss-cross the city, I’m always on the lookout for obvious signs of homeless people, and although I’m confronted with beggars every day, I’ve not seen a single shopping cart of belongings, a car stuffed to the roof with what someone has left, a tent or makeshift shelter crafted from whatever trash can be scrounged from the area.

You have to remember that Frankfurt is like America’s New York City and Berlin like San Francisco, and yet, from my trip to Berlin two years ago or this visit to Frankfurt during a pandemic, there are no homeless shelters or, worse, homeless camps. This isn’t to say that I’ve not seen people who appear to be homeless based on certain physical aspects such as hygiene and clothing, but the visual signs planted across a city, such as in the United States, those I’ve not found yet.

Frankfurt, Germany

This old jail has been abandoned for more than ten years, according to a couple of guys nearby who also told me that new condos are supposed to replace it, but nothing else could be found about its usage or origins. Strange that I only found one other photo on the internet of it.

Frankfurt, Germany

Back when I was living here in Frankfurt, I felt that the markets were a kind of festive celebration of food and socializing as people came out to celebrate the sun and good weather. These open-air markets are experiential explorations on the way to culinary enlightenment, allowing shoppers to sample things that might not be at their local grocery. While out here at the public square, a glass of wine and some hot food likely help erase the blues that can be a part of a city that is often cold and wet and, in winter, has short days and long evenings. Maybe my relationship with food has an unhealthy, obsessive quality, and I need to idealize life around our gastronomical adventures, but it is such a large part of our existence that I think it deserves a pedestal.

Frankfurt, Germany

This photo is for Caroline to share with her boss; she’ll understand the humor.

Frankfurt, Germany

I’m sitting on Töngesgasse while Stephanie talks with Jutta. Prior to this, we were in an amazing vinegar shop called Frankfurter Fass, where at normal times, I’d be able to sample their offerings, but we are not in normal times. This is only a fraction of the vinegar they have on hand and doesn’t include the olive oils and liquors.

It took Stephanie and I a good long while to reach Jutta’s as Stephanie first grabbed some lunch, and we talked for a while. and then we walked on and took another break to talk some more. Finally, we arrived at a happy mother-in-law smiling at the sight of the two of us showing up at her door together. For the next three hours, we talked; well, we did take a few minutes to explain and then showed her some cat videos, you know, those ones with cucumbers, and then we shared Denver The Guilty Dog with her, too. The small egg custard sweet Stephanie gave to Jutta and I, didn’t carry me very long, and shortly before 6:00, I told the ladies I had to go eat because I had found a restaurant on Römer that was not only open but was serving German food. Not just any German food either; I needed Grüne Sosse, and that’s exactly what I had.

Frankfurt, Germany

I was able to get a table under the awnings on the left at Zum Standesämtchen. I might have to mix things up sooner or later, but right now, I’m far away from growing tired of this Frankfurt special green sauce (Grüne Sosse) and Handkäse mit Musik. While I’ve described it before, I’ll share again: Handkäse (Hand Cheese) is called such because it’s formed by hand as opposed to scraping a cheese-like substance from between people’s fingers.

Frankfurt, Germany

What do potatoes and bread have to do with this photo? Other than everything in Germany being built by people who live on these German staples, it was my consumption of these forbidden food items that, for me, the diabetic, requires immediate exercise to exorcise the demons of carb-rich, sugar-creating molecules that want to kill me. Walking helps keep them at bay, while people-watching has its own benefits, though I can’t make a claim of just how that helps me.

Frankfurt, Germany

Then there’s the part of Frankfurt I love, the diversity. Sadly, most of the ethnic groups are just that, grouping. Rarely and usually only among young people do I see mixed ethnicities chatting and hanging out. Like America, Germany needs immigrants to fill the jobs that young Germans don’t want, but sadly, these new growing communities among their ranks are viewed with dismay and suspicion.

The cutest women here are experimenting with fashion, trying to find their own style. They are eclectic and often unique in their own way. How that’s squashed out of them is a function of this culture that I don’t understand. Is it their job requirements, their parents, or some genetic programming that quickly kills their curiosity? Of course, I can only compare this with my wife, who has managed to keep alive her sense of not meeting anyone else’s requirements but her own. With clothes from Sweden, Germany, America, Japan, India, and Croatia, she blends things with her old standards that also allow her a laziness that would see her also happy in a Gopnik style: Adidas and sunflower seeds, it’s a Slav thing.

Frankfurt, Germany

Conformity by playing age roles here in Germany as opposed to America where, as people age, they try their hardest to play the role of appearing perpetually younger. On one side is the tragedy of people giving up the semblance of originality, and on the other are those who appear silly as they give up their middle-aged appearance for a more youthful version. [Photo of Turkish Gopniks]

Frankfurt, Germany

After just five days back in Germany and for the first time in 26 years, I’m walking around studying Frankfurt with an eye towards examining what life is like here now. I mentioned earlier that older people are playing roles; when I arrived back in 1985, those who are currently 70 were only 34, and I saw them all around me every day. At concerts, restaurants, grocery stores, and generally out and about, they were not wearing such practical clothing. Like all of my generalizations, this is not a rule, but it is a thing. Maybe they are just trying to fit in with their elderly peers.

Frankfurt, Germany

My day on the streets of Frankfurt is about done with the continuing effects of jet lag still being felt. I need to make a note to myself to return to the end of Zeil, not far from the old jail, as there are three restaurants next to one another that are extremely popular with the Turkish crowd, the wealthy Turks or at least those that appear so on a Saturday night.

This reminds me that I wanted to share one other observation about life in Frankfurt today: there’s nowhere to go out and party. This hasn’t stopped people’s need to socialize and, if lucky, find someone of potential romantic interest to talk with, so to that end, they are out en masse in the main shopping area here known as Zeil. From the packed Turkish restaurants near Konstablerwache to the square at Hauptwache, thousands of mostly young people meandered about. I was wondering if this was normal here every Saturday now or if this is a response to not being able to go clubbing later and staying out all night.

Well, I’m not looking for a club, nor a bar, just a bed and a good night of rest so I can get going in the morning to visit Worms.

Day 4 – Germany Under The Sun

Bornheim Mitte U-Bahn Station Frankfurt, Germany

Even before leaving Arizona last Monday, I had planned that today (Friday) I’d head out to Wiesbaden and that this is exactly what I’ll do. Since I only slept less than 5 hours last night, I have an abundance of time. I wonder when this all catches up with me. Hopefully, I won’t fall asleep on the train. Time to go.

The rust is showing in my train-catching skills as I walked right up to one leaving for Wiesbaden and failed to pay enough attention to details to get on board. Good thing the next train was only 15 minutes away, and I’m in no hurry. After a short while on the S9 – Richtung Wiesbaden, I was getting quite the shock; the next stop was Gateway Gardens, the old U.S. Military housing area outside the Frankfurt Airport.

Frankfurt, Germany

My original plan was to spend the entire day out in Wiesbaden, but with the combination of poor weather still threatening rain and how much Jutta appears to enjoy my visits, I’m more than likely going to cut my time short so I can visit my mother-in-law before her dinner time.

Near Wiesbaden, Germany

While I’m inclined to put on my headphones and listen to music, I’m also enjoying the sound of the train accelerating, the doors beeping when they are about to shut, and the soothing voice of the person announcing stops along the route. Once we leave the airport station it’s nice to see that there are still woods next to the track, at least for a stretch until we reach Kelsterbach. Oh, I almost forgot to mention the sound of backpacks being taken off and set down.

Wiesbaden, Germany

I recognize nearly nothing at the Wiesbaden main train station. Again, the attempt to return to the familiar and celebrate nostalgia has been foiled. With that realization coming on so fast, the idea jumps into my head that maybe I should jump back on a train and beat a retreat, but I walk on.

Wiesbaden, Germany

I do love the sights here in Germany, and what’s better than red stone contrasting with deep blue skies? This is a corner of Wiesbaden’s main train station.

Wiesbaden, Germany

There’s nothing left in my memory of how I once navigated these streets, so I have to bring up a map and ask for a location that I know still exists, the Wartburg Theater and concert hall. When I see the street name Schwalbachstrasse, a ping of recognition rings loudly. I now try to recollect if there was a particular path I walked to the shops and clubs I’d visit out this way, but nothing looks like it used to. As I walk by this old church, I draw a blank and wonder if I’ve ever seen it before. With plenty of time, I figure I’ll walk back on a different route, and maybe that will kick my memory into recollecting where I’d been.

Wartburg in Wiesbaden, Germany

Now, on Schwalbachstrasse, I’m looking for a hint of an old club I used to love. Its name was Dschungel, a.k.a. the Jungle. A small place that was underground with more progressive/aggressive music compared to the Batschkapp or Cookies over in Frankfurt. I think I found the door with a sign about something to do with music now called The Basement; it kind of fits in the place my memory says it should, just down the street from the Wartburg! It sure seemed further away back then.

A mere few doors down is the Wartburg, where I saw my first two concerts in West Germany, Einsturzende Neubauten and Psychic TV. Those shows were quickly followed by Test Department and Front 242 in the same place. Formative memories for sure, but the experience of seeing the Wartburg again brings me nothing at all.

Wiesbaden, Germany

Seeing that I’m in town, I may as well follow my nose. I’m looking for a Döner shop, and I think I might know where it used to be. The neighborhood it’s in appears to be a kind of Middle East Quarter, and the shop is called Berlin Döner, but is it the one? I talked with the current owner, and he says it’s been here for 50 years, and he’s owned it for the past 13. It’s a good thing he doesn’t open until 10:00, giving me the chance to not ruin what, at one time, I thought was the best Döner I’d ever had. Now, it gets to remain that way.

Since I mentioned that this area had become a predominantly Middle East-influenced neighborhood: I’m reminded why immigration is such a great thing. If it wasn’t for Europe accepting so many immigrants, the diversity of culture here would not be developing the way it is. Yes, there are problems with integrating peoples of other countries, but what it ultimately offers is indispensable. There must be a good dozen small Middle Eastern groceries in the area, while the Harput and Günay families have opened a serious number of businesses along these streets.

Wiesbaden, Germany

What kind of neighborhood has a dozen barbershops? Apparently, this one. My experiences years ago remind me not to be so quick taking photos in places where a bunch of men with black hair and leather jackets are outside smoking and drinking coffee. I had learned pretty quickly after being run off a couple of times by angry people hollering at me. So, I made sure that those around me could see I wasn’t trying to take anyone’s photo. Just what original French tacos are I have no idea, but the logo suggests it’s ice cream. If they were open, I’d walk right in and ask for a carne asada taco and see how far I get.

Wiesbaden, Germany

After a brief couple of hours here, I feel that I’m ready to leave. While the architecture is different than that of Frankfurt, the rest of the businesses are nearly identical. Not much is open and I can’t imagine what else might be found if I continued exploring the city center, which is actually quite small.

By the time I reach the Hauptbahnhof, I’m hungry, but before I find food, I spot a man I’d seen earlier not far from the Wartburg screaming at someone. I figured it was a racial insult at the time, but seeing this guy here, I thought I would get confirmation. Getting his attention, it was apparent he was still a bit agitated, but realizing I had a real question, he asked if he could help me. So I asked him what happened back at the heavy confrontation and he told me that his issue was the man who asked him for money. He also explained that this is one of the young men who are part of the Beggar Mafia that fans out from Frankfurt to beg in the surrounding towns. He sees these people at parties all the time, arriving in expensive Audis doing loads of cocaine. Well, now I know.

Wiesbaden, Germany

Regarding my hunger, a Döner & Pizza shop was close at hand, so I nabbed a chicken Döner as that seems to be the popular choice these days. I’m guessing the meat is cheaper and so they go with that. I should have gone for a traditional Döner while I was in the Middle Eastern Quarter. My stomach is full; I’m on my way to Frankfurt a lot earlier than I could have guessed. The sun is shining, and now I’m overdressed. Here’s to hoping it’s not raining and cold back in Frankfurt.

Frankfurt, Germany

Whoa, it’s beautiful in Frankfurt, and it’s drawing people out.

Frankfurt, Germany

This was my view in the opposite direction.

Busker in Frankfurt, Germany

Needing a coffee and a sweet, I revisited Kleinmarkthalle, picking up a couple of hundred grams of cherries and an oat milk latte. Exiting, I saw the Cuban busker I ran into the other day while it was raining; we nodded hello to each other.  I threw him a few Euros and sat nearby, sipping my coffee and eating cherries. Life is good.

Frankfurt, Germany

A solar halo touching the cross of the Frankfurt Cathedral; I can’t say I’ve ever seen a solar halo or sun dog in Frankfurt. I’ll take this as being a first and that it portends good things.

Museum für Moderne Kunst in Frankfurt, Germany

I want to photograph everything in the city on my way to Jutta’s, as who knows if I’ll get another sunny day in Frankfurt? Just kidding, as bad as the weather is here, I know there will be many more beautiful days as we move into June.

Römer in Frankfurt, Germany

Half-timbered old buildings, socially distanced people, and blue skies, what more could be wished for?

Jutta Engelhardt and John Wise in Frankfurt, Germany

A photo of two not-socially distanced people enjoying it all is what could be wished for and realized.

Jutta Engelhardt in Frankfurt, Germany

I spent the rest of the afternoon with Jutta along the Main River. We just finished crossing Eiserner Steg (Iron Bridge), with Jutta telling me it’s been a long time since she had last been on this side of the river. Well, we need proof then that you made it over here. I know; let’s take your photo with those two cherubs so others might know of the day that One-Eyed Jutta crossed the Main River. Why she felt the need to grope its butt is a mystery.

By the way, as my mother-in-law tells it in her thick German pirate accent, “The river was churning dark and cold back during the winter of ’42 when my parrot attempted to pluck my eye from its socket. I pulled that still-connected eye from the beak of what would soon be a dead bird and shoved it back in my skull; I am a doctor, after all, but damned if I’d ever see from it again. That’s how I went blind in my left eye, and it’s the tale as I know it.”

On the Main River in Frankfurt, Germany

Okay, that’s not what Jutta told me, nor is it how she lost sight in that eye, but so what? We were out here to laugh and have fun.

Jutta Engelhardt in Frankfurt, Germany

Buying Jutta an ice cream is a surefire way to have fun. I had a coffee and sparkling water as we just continued to sit in the sun. The day has turned out beautiful but I’m starting to melt. From freezing cold to hot from one day to the next. People watching was working out well with all the Frankfurters needing to leave their caves to soak up all of this vitamin D. After nearly four hours with my mother-in-law, it was time to take her back home and for me to head back to my side of town.

But first, I needed to get food out of the way. Going to dinner proved a bit difficult as I’d originally planned on dropping in on Sachsenhausen for an outdoor seating establishment serving good old traditional German fare, but nope, not tonight; they are all still closed. Back across the river, I was hungry enough not to be too choosy and looked in on a place called Naïv, which has lots of beer, Handkäse, and burgers. Well, at least they have “Hand Cheese”.

Pulling out my computer to write some of this down is super awkward as everyone else here is having beers and meeting with friends, while I’m the single solo visitor and the only one with a giant digital device open. Spoke too soon as another English speaker across from me just opened hers. Then, in a flash, my dinner is delivered, and so it turns out I have no time to write anyway. I’ll definitely feel better putting this thing away.

Returned to Saalburgstrasse early tonight as I’m exhausted. Didn’t sort much other than books, and I spotted Jutta’s driver’s license from 1957. She was only 22 years old in this image and ten years away from giving birth to her second daughter, my wife, Caroline. Jutta had already lived through ten years of war and 12 years of recovery and rebuilding following the conclusion of World War II. Her mom was bitter at her losses, including her cherished son, and marriage to someone she didn’t really love was on the horizon.

On one hand, the woman in the image above is just another random human being, but more importantly, she was becoming the person who would most influence my best friend. Even after ten visits to America and the over 30 years I’ve known Jutta, I can’t ever really know her from the formative years she struggled to try and make sense of a chaotic society that was forced into broad sweeping changes that would alter the culture of Germany and have the Germans looking deep within.

Schulatlas from 1927 with U.S. Map - Printed in Germany

From her books, I found The Book of Mormon, gifted to her by a friend named Marianna back in 1988. An old book about San Francisco and a couple about various Native American tribes were buried in her collection. They all appear to pre-date her trips to America unless she bought yellowed old copies from a used book store at some time, but based on her other books, it looks like Jutta always bought new copies of what she was interested in. Stranger yet is an old “School Atlas” from 1927 with markings on the map of the United States. Notes on the edges of the map point to things about the Ozarks, tides, and islands, things a student might write as reminders from their lessons, but the markings that draw a line between Denver and Phoenix are the most curious.

I cannot believe that Jutta would mark up an heirloom that might have belonged to her father in order to remind herself of her last trip to America when she flew into Denver, and I picked her up for the drive to Phoenix. Maybe she did, but I like the mystery of believing that someone out of her past was foreshadowing a page out of Jutta’s future.

No longer able to keep my eyes open and brain reeling from exhaustion I was able to fall asleep at 10:30 and sleep all the way through to morning when I picked up again to finish this post.

Day 3 – Frankfurt

Jutta's bed in Frankfurt, Germany

After almost six consecutive hours of sleep, I woke at a more reasonable time of 6:15 a.m. I had to rip some paragraphs out of my Day Zero blog entry that Caroline found challenging to post and so it finally was pushed to being published. I can’t recommend reading its remaining voluminous 3,300 words that emerged from the transition zone between leaving America and arriving in Europe as it’s so much rehash of me saying blah blah blah, but then again, I feel that way about most all I share here. At least some of the photos are nice.

Then it was on to Day 2 in order to finish writing what I couldn’t put down last night because I was so tired. Between sentences, I was able to get in my ablutions and began to feel like a routine of normal life was starting to settle in. Well, as normal as things can be while adopting a new (albeit temporary) routine thousands of miles away from my wife and home.

Jutta's desk in Frankfurt, Germany

Distracted by a fit of inspiration, I started writing about my mother-in-law in another document that may or may not be published here, but that’s beside the point other than to excuse myself for the lack of blogging here. Before I go much further, I’ll explain these two photos. The first is the bed I’m sleeping in, which was Jutta’s, and before her, it was her brother’s. She believes the mattress had once been her father’s but can’t be certain if it’s been replaced in the intervening 100 or so years. I’ll confirm with Stephanie (my sister-in-law) if she had it replaced in the past (let’s hope). The second photo is of Jutta’s desk which was the desk of her ex-husband Hanns’ father. For the time being, this desk is where I’m writing, as well as preparing the photos I’m posting, in the late evening and early morning.

All of us humans need beautiful things to catch our eye and bask in the good fortune that we might have been able to decorate our dwelling in some way that appeals to our sense of the aesthetic. We grow older, and yet these objects tell us stories whose full depth no one else can really fathom how we see others and how they might make our hearts smile.

Heaven, children, home, and the art of life have decorated the walls of Jutta’s apartment, but now these things must all go somewhere. Her new place is quite tiny and will only hold a fraction of the things held so meaningfully by my mother-in-law. How to decide what is parted with when so much is deeply embued with memories?

I do not know the story of the image on the left, but I do know that the man in the middle is Wilhelm Linnenkohl, Jutta’s father. My mother-in-law has never been able to speak highly enough about her terrific father, and it’s obvious she felt incredibly close to this man. Sadly, the same can’t be said about her mother, who doesn’t warrant even a single photo to be found anywhere in this large collection of mementos.

The cake plate from a local Konditorei was painted by a very young Caroline when she was in elementary school. If her memory serves her right, that’s her mom in the middle and Caroline in the back. Of all the times I’ve been in this apartment, I somehow have never really seen this picture, and if I did, I never considered its provenance or how my mother-in-law connects to the memory of her then 7 – or 8-year-old child.

Things brought home from Jutta’s many journeys to America were never very far from her heart. As a matter of fact, they were beside her during those times she sat at this desk I’m sitting at tonight. While I write on my computer, she wrote by hand her entire life in the chicken scratch appropriate for a doctor.

Speaking of provenance, there are no markings on these treasures which makes it nearly impossible to try selling them as what is the story behind them? Stephanie doesn’t believe anything in her cabinets was used, not even once.

I’m thinking that I need to use some of these so their function might extend beyond decoration.

The one thing from Jutta’s effects Caroline and I both love is this clock. How it’ll get to Arizona, if we even ship it there, is in question, but one thing is certain: we’d like to get it repaired and listen to its chimes into the future.

Now, on with the day. When I finally broke away from the apartment, I took an hour-long walk down some random streets, trying to follow my dysfunctional inner map to Jutta’s new place. When I reached the zoo, I started getting the idea that I might be heading in the wrong direction, so I checked a map, and sure enough, I had to do a little backtracking and alter my route. My pace was slow as I was just as interested in finding what I didn’t know I was interested in yet as getting to my destination.

It’s easy to have the impression that Frankfurt is a shiny modern city filled with glass and steel and high rents exclusively for the wealthy, but you can also find many old buildings in varying states of disrepair.

Maybe returning to the earth is just a natural part of life that plays its role, taking back all that it has given. Even the cars are being pulled into the camouflage, so we might not see them disappearing.

There are 12,000 markers on this old Jewish cemetery on Battonnstrasse next to the Museum Judengasse here in Frankfurt. Twelve thousand people, whose names are impossible to remember, with lives unfulfilled with the satisfaction of dying of natural causes surrounded by loved ones. These souls were exterminated by hate, and they had no avenue or wall to post their grievances as the world turned its back on a harsh reality. It’s somber to slowly walk by and try reading birthdays and names while everyone else walking by, apparently tuning out what this memorial represents.

Who were you, little Robert Goldschmidt, when you died in a concentration camp before you ever reached the age of 8? Not only were you dragged from home and shipped almost 1,000 km to die with your family, but you also missed any kind of real childhood and fun that all people should know. An anonymous marker that is effectively hidden among the thousands of others on this wall will never really tell anything about you or your dreams. All we know of your existence is that you were born Jewish and died in the heinous manmade hell known as Auschwitz by the hand of monsters.

Getting to Jutta’s just as she finished lunch worked out for us, sitting a good long while talking about her fears, inspirations, guilt, and what comes next. We were able to have a coffee delivered, which was great as, once again, the heavy rain kept us in. Maybe I need to try visiting early in the morning or late in the day, as the rain seems to be held at bay during those hours.

It’s 4:00 p.m. when I’m able to grab a table at Hauptwache Cafe to sit down for an early dinner, or is this a late lunch? I’ve never eaten a meal here, only Apfelstrudel. I started with an order of Handkäse mit Musik, naturally, of course, followed by Wiener Schnitzel with Grüne Sosse because that’s the way it has to be for the universe to function.

The pleasure of being ignored for a meal and having to gain the attention of the server is a luxury. I finished my lunch over 20 minutes ago, and my plate continues to sit on my table. In a moment, I’ll order dessert, though I hate admitting this here where Caroline is going to learn that I had another sweet, so it goes; she knew I’d be indulging myself. Oh my GOD! Hauptwache Cafe does not have Apfelstrudel on the menu. The menu was changed due to the pandemic, and while the server sold me an apple pie she insisted was great, I was seriously disappointed.

Gray skies are not very motivating to wander far as the chance of rain remains ever-present. Not that I’m leaving anytime soon from this normally packed establishment, but I am aware that I need to do something or other within the next 4 or 5 hours. I have a sense of needing to do important things that use my time wisely and that I don’t waste a valuable moment from this amazing opportunity. Yet, maybe being present can be enough.

I’m an experience glutton with an inner voice that yells at me: do not relent; go out and find something new! Hah, so what am I doing at Hauptwache Cafe enjoying a two-hour lazy meal? Well, I fooled you; I snarfed most of my dessert and decided to play it safe by calling it quits so I could get out and walk this off. So, with no time to waste, I’m taking a pause on this side of my journey to see where I end up.

Drawn to the main train station, which always has had a pull on me, and so through the high rises, I walked into the rotten funk between the heavens and a nearly defunct red-light district filled with sketchy types that seem to be eyeballing passersby looking for victims. Sure, I’m a bit paranoid, but I think when we are in seedy areas of downtown, it is smart to move with purpose while not making eye contact with a soul.

I’m in love with these ground-based rocketships. They speed effortlessly over the European landscape, cutting the journey time by car from 6 hours from here to Paris, France, to only 3 hours. Someday, you should be so lucky to have a full cup of coffee or a beer brought to you in first class and watch as not a drop is spilled in the quiet of the cabin, hauling you at 300 km/h (186 mph) across Europe.

Those things that can’t move might grow moss on them in this damp climate. but the same happening to the population here is a strange phenomenon to witness. There’s a tragedy to covering so much of the city in just a few days with a constant reminder that so few people are here and even fewer visiting from anywhere else. Germany is a land of many cultural traditions that bring people together for music, talks, coffee, cake, shopping, long dinners, many festivals, and historic destinations. It’s incredible to think that my fellow countrymen were bursting at the seams due to the most minor pandemic-related restrictions based primarily around masks while Europe has had to put on hold the heart of their society.

I remain incredulous that I’m actually in the city of Frankfurt am Main, living in memories that should be being shared with Caroline, whose connection to this place is far, far greater than mine. Yes, I feel guilty for the luxury of exploring her birthplace in a way I never had the mind for when I was younger, and I’m guessing the same would go for her. I’m lucky that communication tools are what they are and that she and I can chat all day, that I can share a video call with her and her mom as I did again today, and that I can capture and write all this stuff that may not matter to anyone else but for her, a surrogate experience with the man she loves is better than nothing.

Keep Entrance Clear Day and Night. These signs are ubiquitous across Frankfurt, as are the bicycle lane and one-way signs, stickers demanding that fascism doesn’t have a place in Frankfurt, and buttons to summon a change in signals so pedestrians can cross the many streets required to get around. I’ve done my fair share of walking this city today. I covered 16 kilometers (10 miles), which saved me $6 for a day pass for the train. I wonder what tomorrow brings?

Day 2 – Frankfurt

Frankfurt, Germany

Four hours of sleep wasn’t going to be enough, but waking at 2:30 in the morning was when the cock crowed in my head. By 5:30, I started feeling I’d finally be able to snag a couple more hours of shut-eye, but sleeping in until after 10:00 was not my plan. I was now running late and needed to call Jutta to let her know I wasn’t going to be showing up between 9:00 and five minutes ago. She told me not to worry and enjoy a nice breakfast along the way.

I was momentarily distracted by those things that were precisely the reason for my being in Germany, the effects left behind by Jutta as she went into assisted living. Strange how when she lived here, I never really gave a second thought to what she’d amassed over her lifetime, but looking over her artifacts now, I start to see part of her story arch based on literature she’s read, though I have no way of giving it a proper timeline. Already late; I have to save this for later and get going.

I’ll travel this path a few times during my stay, walk down Saalburgstrasse to Bergerstrasse, and get on the U-Bahn to areas further on. The bakery on the corner winked at me, telling me it had quick calories to jump-start my energy supply. Nothing like an Erdbeerplunder (strawberry Danish) to do just that. As I left the shop and noticed that the Wednesday open-air market was taking place, I had to at least check out some small corner of it. Good thing I did so as I was able to alleviate some of my guilt of indulging in those empty diabetic-unfriendly sugars by balancing it with a grilled Thuringer sausage.

Frankfurt, Germany

Standing there on Bergerstrasse, I got to thinking about how many people were just launching into German conversations with me. Thirty years ago, during the Cold War and with so many Americans in occupied West Germany, I felt that the population had developed a natural sense of who the Americans were, even when bearded with long hair as I had been during much of my time here. Today, that insight has faded and German is once again the only official language of this country.

People are patiently waiting outside shops where signs instruct shoppers that only one customer at a time is allowed in. While in line, they wear their masks. On the street, it’s a mixed bag of some people wearing masks and others not. I cannot find a pattern, as only those who’ve been vaccinated are allowed certain privileges, and  I’m not sure they eschew masks. The reason I’m struggling is that only those over a certain age have been able to get the vaccine, and mask-wearing does not align with people’s ages.

There are a lot of elderly people in this neighborhood which reminds me of the likelihood that someday I’ll need to stop driving a car and that living in Europe would be a possible good solution to that. But then you see these seniors shuffling by slowly with walkers and canes; how they also balance the bags of food, they are out collecting looks challenging. Something else seen but not certain is that they are alone, and my knowledge of Germany suggests they may very well be all living alone. Doubt looks to creep into my thoughts of being anywhere that will be easier on an old person. I’m considering this as I see the old person creeping out of me.

Frankfurt, Germany

Nobody is making eye contact with me; there are no silent nods acknowledging each other’s existence as in America. The beggars are out, and so are the permanently drunk who, strangely enough, still wear masks over their loud and aggressive conversations with the person walking next to them or simply talking to the universe in their lament about all that’s worthy to broadcast to everyone in earshot.

Not having to translate much of what I hear, I’m just an observer traveling with my own cultural baggage, able to concentrate on the details likely unseen by those living here. We grow a thick skin to filter out the intrusions and construct the life we want to have in an anonymous society while the visitor is often overwhelmed by all that is new to their senses, but this is not new to me. On the contrary, my moments here are quite familiar, though often far from my memories, as they don’t really need revisiting while living in Arizona.

As though I weren’t already late, I’ve been sitting in the U-Bahn station, maybe 15 meters underground writing the above as train after trains come and go. I note this just before hitting save to board the next train so I can finally drop in on Jutta. It’s noon, and the little things keep arriving in my mind.

Maybe it’s because I’m so late getting underway, but I’m not seeing many young people on the train, or maybe they are homeschooling? What I am picking up on is the idea that more people are looking directly at each other. Maybe their masks have them feeling like they are hidden behind a barrier that doesn’t allow others to notice their eyes observing them, but I’m noticing. An older lady with the squintiest of eyes and I are looking directly at each other while I hold her gaze somewhat astonished that a German is making eye contact. Funny how, on one of my last visits to Germany, I noticed how smartphones were used to lock riders’ views to staring at their device, thus easily avoiding finding somewhere else to look while on public transportation. What is it about the noonday crowd that is hardly using phones at all?

Frankfurt, Germany

In minutes, I’m getting off at Dom/Römer, where it’s now raining. Over at city hall, family and friends of about 15 people are in a celebratory mood as a couple was just married. Signed in at Lebenshaus and given an FFP2 mask this time, I was let into Jutta’s room while she finished lunch. She and I were supposed to go out for coffee today, but with the cold, wet weather, I’m opting to stay in for my two-hour visit. Right now, her room is sparse, though she’s supposed to get a piece of furniture delivered this Friday, where some of her belongings will continue to live with her.

Jutta Engelhardt in Frankfurt, Germany

The reason an attendant let me into Jutta’s room while she was at lunch was that I’m not allowed to sit with the other tenants, probably due to pandemic precautions or maybe also trying to get the others to socialize a few times a day, seeing they are all neighbors.

Jutta Engelhardt in Frankfurt, Germany

Only about a half-hour after I arrived, a message from Caroline chimed on my phone: what’s she doing up at 4:00 in the morning? She set an alarm so she could go out and see a lunar eclipse. This allowed the three of us to have another video chat and for me to see her beautiful face smiling at me. And while I finally had slept well, I’m yawning now, so Jutta and I are going to head around the corner to a nearby ice cream cafe for a coffee…and maybe a treat.

Jutta Engelhardt in Frankfurt, Germany

Nope, that didn’t happen. While there was a break in the poor weather that allowed the thought of going out, from the brief time we decided to go out until we got downstairs, the rain came on a bit heavy again. We dipped back inside, but it wasn’t relenting, so we were postponing until a sunny day came along. After a couple of hours of visiting, I was once again out in the city.

Frankfurt, Germany

Now in the rain by myself, I needed to find a bite to eat and a coffee. That was easy enough, but as is the case everywhere here, there’s nowhere to sit down, so you pop around the corner, pull your mask down, and eat once you decide just what you want.

Not yet satisfied, I remembered the sausages I’d seen at Kleinmarkthalle yesterday and grabbed one of them; it was a dried pork and paprika shriveled sausage of a thing. With the rain continuing, I lingered here at the market, paying a little more attention to each vendor than I did yesterday. It wasn’t far from there to Konstablerwache, where I knew I could find a seat underground so I could jot these things down and stay dry and warm. How strange this situation of being in Europe without a cafe, wifi, or restaurant to sit down and take a break.

Frankfurt, Germany

I emphasize being warm as I insisted when leaving Phoenix that it would be warm enough soon enough in the Frankfurt region. I knew that I could deal with a few days of rain and cold, so I could leave my bulky fleece at home. Now comes the mea culpa that Caroline was right; I should have brought it. Also, I brought a rain jacket, but I’m waiting until I really need it. It seems like I’ve really needed it both of these days, so I’m at a loss why it’s not with me. Damn, I hope my wife wasn’t also right about bringing sunblock [or your hat, maybe? – the wife].

In this cavernous underground train station, the subway is yet further below; I’m sitting next to the coming and going S-Bahns. These trains are the much longer ones that travel between regions such as between Frankfurt and Wiesbaden, Darmstadt, and Hanau. Normally, when I’ve been down here, I’m waiting for a specific train so I don’t really pay attention to the ones I’m not going to ride but instead count the minutes until mine shows up. Sitting here at 4:00 p.m., I’m watching trains pass through at a rate of what seems to be one every 60 to 90 seconds. By the way, not all subways of the U-Bahn system perform service strictly below ground but also find themselves out on streets, such as the U5 that used to bring Caroline and me home after visiting the downtown shopping area.

My coffee is not having the desired effect, or jet lag is simply chewing through my waking energy faster than I can muster it. Judging by people’s jackets who are walking past me, it’s still raining up there, and while I have an umbrella, there’s really nowhere else to park myself…unless I catch a train over to Hauptbahnhof that could promise more people watching and maybe somewhere to sit that’s not so far under the surface of the earth.

I’m also likely in danger of dehydrating as, with limited toilet facilities available to the public, I’m reluctant to drink. I’m guessing that for Germans, the idea is to get out to pick up what you need and go right home. I’m not giving in to that, as it’s far more interesting out here where beggars can go by asking for coins or smokes.

Pandemic Shopping in Frankfurt, Germany

Wandering around upstairs, still at Konstablerwache contemplating walking to the Hauptbahnhof, I spotted some open, and importantly, free toilets, which means I now have a goto location for that necessity. With the rain taking a break, I opted for a walk down Zeil and learned about a new way of shopping: scan a QR code to make an appointment to enter the shop at a later time or date. There’s obviously zero tolerance for ambiguity about how many people are in a shop, so a system was created to make shopping a little easier.

The respite from the rain didn’t last long, and my idea that I might walk to the main train station has been dashed so down the stairs I go into the Hauptwache train station.

Busker in Frankfurt, Germany

By and large, I find Germans to be an educated populace with a giant appetite to experience the entire breadth of their freedoms. They love their long vacations, free university system, and rich cultural offerings in nearly all mid to large-sized cities. They know world history, not just their own country’s history, and they are pretty well aware of global politics. Yes, they pay high taxes in order to have a very effective social safety net, but they are of their own mind and demand justice within their borders, and that sense of doing the right thing often extends well into Europe. With that as background, I’ve not seen a single person in the train station not wearing a mask.

Train after train passes me on its way into the station, and everyone I glance at is wearing a prescribed mask. They are not wearing gators or cloth masks; they have KN95 or medical masks on, period. I’m sure if I sit here long enough or maybe if I rode the train multiple times a day, I’d see the occasional offender but not once in the underground area or on the trains themselves. It should go without saying that it’s the exact same in the shops, but on the street, it’s definitely a mixed bag.

Just as I finish writing the above, my observations are proven wrong. A drunk man took up a seat about a dozen seats away from me and has gone to sleep; his mask is down under his chin now. Another guy further down, suffering from Tourettes or schizophrenia, is wildly gesticulating in almost violent movements, but he is quiet. Watching him, I realize there are two pigeons down here at Hauptwache with us, and maybe his head movements are trying to communicate with the birds. While not likely, I’ve got nothing other than my uneducated guesses to explain him. Time to board one of these trains to make my way out to Heddernheim.

Frankfurt, Germany

What a hodgepodge of weather in such a small region. Emerging from the bowels of the subway system, the sun is out here making me wonder if it had always been shining on this side of Frankfurt.

Frankfurt, Germany

After arriving at my in-laws, seen above, they assured me that just two hours before my arrival, it was hailing out here and the sky had just recently cleared up. We sat down at the dining room table and started to gab. Along the way, Klaus made dinner. Well, I got leftovers, but let me tell you that these were no ordinary leftovers; this was Grüne Sosse (Green Sauce) which is a famous Frankfurt specialty you will not find anywhere else on earth. With a handful of boiled potatoes and a couple of hard-boiled eggs, this dish of cold ground herbs in yogurt sauce is an absolutely perfect preparation that takes the simple and transforms into wonderful.

The conversation continued as we lost all track of time…

Frankfurt, Germany

…It was only minutes before 11:00 p.m. as I walked over to pick up the train heading back into the city center.

Medical Mask in Vending Machine from Frankfurt, Germany

The trains run late into the night, but they are not as frequent as during the day; this gave me more time to spend looking for things in these tunnels I might have missed on every previous visit I’ve made. Heading to an important meeting for work, and your mask is getting dingy? Just stop at a nearby vending machine, and between the gummy candy and chewing gum, you can buy a fresh FFP2 mask for a couple of Euros.

Frankfurt, Germany

I’m not alone out here, which makes me feel better as on my way into Germany I wasn’t sure how enforced the curfew is. I should have known that it was a recommendation and not something that turned people into criminals for needing to keep moving between places.

Frankfurt, Germany

A major source of entertainment for me in the subways has always been the sections of walls dedicated to advertising upcoming cultural events. The industry surrounding the printing and posting of these large, widely distributed missives must have taken a serious hit during the pandemic, as there’s little to read with large parts of the dedicated spaces empty. This poster, at least in my translation, captured this perfectly, “Archive for Nothing.” With nothing going on and nowhere to go, this otherwise white space is offering you a glimpse into nothing.

Frankfurt, Germany

Seeing how I no longer live off Glauburgstrasse on Gluckstrasse, I won’t be taking the U5 home tonight but instead boarded the next train, the U4, to Jutta’s old apartment. The train cars are quiet, no revelers are partying with open bottles of alcohol, nor have I seen a single homeless person or beggar on the trains yet.

I didn’t shoot very many photos today, and I won’t know for years until I read this on that future date if what I captured and shared achieved something worthwhile, but this was the best I could do. Finally, while this was only my second day in Germany, I feel as though I’ve already been here for many more days. Such is the impact of having our senses moving to fully alert from casually aware.

Day 1 – Frankfurt Arrival

I’d been in Frankfurt for about five hours before I took a moment to sit down at MyZeil to share some impressions. Much of the airport is still closed. Germany would have been closed to me if I hadn’t been able to call my brother-in-law Klaus and have him verify the reason for my arrival during the pandemic. Our stories matched, and after they had checked all the documents I had photographed (one with Caroline and her passport, our marriage certificate, the document that notes that she took my name), I showed my return ticket along with a couple of other things such as the name of my mother-in-law’s assisted living center and had explained that I would be staying in her apartment, only after all that, I watched as my passport was stamped for entry. Klaus picked me up shortly after that and took me directly to Saalburgstrasse 46, where I’ll be staying. We caught up a bit, but then I needed to head out for a bite to eat and to make my first visit with Jutta Engelhardt, my mother-in-law.

Around the corner from the apartment is Zeiss Metzgerei, where I never fail to stop for a slice of roasted pork belly on a Brötchen mit senf (roll with mustard). I’m sharing the image of the bag with my sandwich because very few places are offering somewhere to sit down and those that do are only serving people outside. To be seated at a restaurant, you have to show proof of vaccination. So, I’m outside, it’s raining lightly, and I have my computer on my back and camera on my shoulder. As I was still evaluating the relative safety of the area here on Bergerstrasse (there are usually quite a few beggars and shady types hanging out), I was keeping things tight as I stood under an awning, quickly wolfing down my Schweinebauch-Brötchen.

Living in Phoenix, we are confronted with a constant flow of people on street corners holding up placards, begging for a handout, and offering us blessings from God; store parking lot driveways are also popular begging spots. In Frankfurt, they are sitting against a building holding up signs explaining their destitute situation, but you also have those who approach you directly, asking for some change. Then there are people somewhere between poverty and homelessness who want cigarettes or a lighter. There’s something that feels more confrontational about these situations. Later in the day, I was walking by groups of beggars that seemed either like family or maybe a small gang of friends who I couldn’t help but feel were taking inventory of the person passing by as they tried to get me to acknowledge their needs. I just keep going without a word.

With something to sustain me and wanting to put the beggars behind me, I headed for the U-Bahn to catch the U4 to Römer. Jutta is now living at an assisted living facility on Buchgasse 1, and it took me a minute or two to find the entrance.

John and Jutta in Frankfurt

After a quick hello, it just so happened that I was right on time before Caroline jumped into her day to Skype her into our first meeting so the three of us could share some big smiles. I showed Jutta some photos of our recent trip to Monterey and the Big Sur Coast in California, and after a quick hour of reminiscing about past adventures, including her first trip to America that took her up that very same coast, I was back out on the street, just as the sun was emerging. I had wanted to stay longer, but jet lag was hammering at me in the warmth of my mother-in-law’s room.

The first thing to notice about Frankfurt today is how empty everything is. Streets are quiet, pedestrian traffic is way off, and many shops are still closed, while those that are open have strict entry procedures, including a few that check for your vaccination or recent negative COVID-19 test before letting you in. While intermittent rain was coming and going, there should have been far more people out here next to the Main River on a spring day.

If I’m walking, I can’t fall asleep, and I need to stay awake until at least 9:00 p.m. This might have been a bad plan because while, yes, I was moving, I had so little cognitive ability that my wandering felt lost and meaningless. Sure, there’s the nostalgia of being in the city where Caroline and I fell in love, but I’m trying to appreciate how peculiar the situation is regarding the impact of COVID-19 on such an important European capital city. Instead, I move a bit slowly, uncertain where I’m going other than hoping to find an umbrella before the next shower.

This street, in normal times, would see bumper-to-bumper traffic and a ton of noise, but it’s quiet, with only a few cars passing here and there.

Part of the iconic (and unique to Germany) view of the city of highrises is taken near a vantage point where we watch the fireworks over Frankfurt every New Year’s Day. One of the small cruise ships that ply these waters for tourists and people wanting a couple of hours on the Main sipping wine was out in the middle of the channel, but no passengers could be seen on board; I’m hoping it’s a sign that they are getting ready to ramp up services again.

I walked through here on the way to Jutta’s when it was still raining and absolutely empty, but that photo was a bit grim, and half-timber buildings just look better in the sun anyway. Behind me is the Römer, the seat of city government, and before me is the Römerberg where one of the best Christmas markets is held when conditions allow.

As quickly as the sun came out, the clouds moved back in, so I dipped into Kleinmarkthalle where I’ll probably visit a dozen more times while I’m in the Frankfurt area. This covered farmers market has always been a favorite of mine as I’d never known anything like it before I took up residence in Frankfurt back in 1985. Stopping here for a cortado was not only meant to revive my heavy eyes, but I couldn’t help but think of our friend Angela, who brought us to the place that made her favorite coffee drink in Frankfurt some years ago that just happened to be right here.

On the other side of Kleinmarkthalle, with my coffee in hand, I found myself being serenaded by this Cuban busker playing clarinet for passersby, hoping to earn a few Euros. I threw some coins in and talked with him for a short while about his 30 years living in this city and his hopes that someday he could move to America. Seems that the pandemic has been especially hard on people on the economic margin of life in Germany.

Still, without an umbrella, I had to duck under an awning and wait for some fierce and heavy rain mixed with hail to pass before continuing my aimless walk through the city.

Just behind me is where I visited MyZeil, looking in even more earnest for an umbrella but also in need of a toilet. What the heck? The toilets are all closed, probably due to the pandemic. Then, like the determined person I am, I simply went through one of the passages where the “closed toilets” were supposed to be, but they were locked. …Or were they? Yes, the men’s room was definitely locked, but I heard female voices in the women’s room, so I waited. Their door didn’t close all the way, and so, although the handle was locked too and wouldn’t turn, I was able to use the facilities. I guess Germans aren’t wandering very far from home or drinking a lot while out getting some sun, as I didn’t see one open public toilet.

It was at this point that I started taking my first notes of the day I referenced in the first paragraph.

I can’t believe how familiar this city still is. When Caroline and I visited Frankfurt for the first time after 18 years away, I was kind of lost, but today things are all quite familiar. It was difficult to sit still writing anything as I wanted to keep on moving to see what I could see on my first day. I had ideas for dinner, but the fatigue of traveling around the earth to be here and only getting about two hours of sleep on my flight might change my plans.

I know I can’t do everything on day one, and I also know I have five more hours of daylight. The urgency to sleep nags at me with big yawns that tell me to get my blood flowing and keep walking. I know I have to stay awake until at least 9:00 p.m., though it feels like I could lay down on a nearby bench for a quick nap.

Wow, an E-Assist mini UPS delivery vehicle is being pedaled through the shopping area of Hauptwache; I’m seriously impressed. If these were 2-person affairs with space in the back for sleeping, I could see driving something like this through Yellowstone and going camping with it.

Speaking of Hauptwache, while the Hauptwache Cafe looked closed, it was open actually, but having apple strudel and cream for dinner seemed a bit heavy, so I kept walking in the direction I was going, which was in the general direction of the Hauptbahnhof (main train station). That got me thinking about this guy I know who lives nearby.

I texted Olaf, who had no idea I was coming to Germany, and asked him to take a walk down Kaiserstrasse and that maybe we’d bump into each other. Surprised, he headed out immediately, no questions asked. He helped me find a nice, inexpensive purple umbrella and then led us to an Imbiss (cafe and convenience store in one), where I had another coffee before we crossed the street to his apartment.

Whoa, Olaf’s “kids” grew up and are nearly adults! Sylvia was home, but of course, she was, as many people still are, working from home, though I did learn she’s had her first two days back in the classroom. Both Olaf and his wife are vaccinated; well, Olaf is halfway there. After covering things about life during the pandemic, I was hungry, but my plans were now certainly different than my intention when I left America; I needed food, and I needed it now.

Again, back across the street and up towards the Hauptbahnhof, we visited a Döner Kebab shop Olaf’s daughter Lucy recommended: it hit the spot. Döner is loosely known as gyros in America, but they are nothing alike because döner is actually great. All of a sudden, it was 9:00 p.m., and I still wanted to get some blog-related things out of the way, so we parted ways with the agreement that we’d meet again while I was in Germany for a cookout in his backyard.

Walking through the main train station area at 9:00 p.m. was a stupid idea as I felt I had “robbery victim” written all over my head. Moving with purpose, I was quickly on my way to the subway on the U4 back to Bornheim Mitte for the short walk to my mother-in-law’s apartment. This photo is for Caroline. It is a mural near her mom’s place that never fails to put smiles on our faces. Great, now I’m wired. Maybe I had too much coffee?