Day 28 – Wattenmeer 2021

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Husum, Germany

It’s a cold, 55-degree (13c), gray morning, and, for the sake of convenience, I inconvenienced myself. Rain is expected throughout the day until early evening, and while at the last minute, I decided to wear pants instead of shorts as I was certain I could deal with some cool weather and drizzle, I’m still in the hotel room as Klaus is out searching for a shop I can buy a cheap sweater and rain jacket for just this one day. Tomorrow and Wednesday promise boundless sun and warm temperatures if you consider 63 degrees (17c) warm.

Certainly, I’m not only in the room for this reason; writing has to continue as well. I fear falling behind even for hours would lead to a cascade into doom, and I could never catch up and I could simply enjoy the break and only focus on the moment. Foolish, you might say, thinking I should always be in the moment? I’d argue that my contradictory position is that I’m always in the moment but with a forbearance that strengthens my resolve to be intentional. I cannot tell you if constant writing offers me anything meaningful at the end of the day or will have done so by the end of my life, but I believe that my focus on what I’m doing as I do it must have sharpened my ability to see and retain what I will share later.

Husum, Germany

Klaus texted me about a shop that was open early, and so I walked over to meet him there. Rain jackets for 60 to 200 Euros ($70 – $237) weren’t what I had in mind, and as it is “summer,” there are very few long sleeve warm shirts in stock right now either. Nothing left to do but get a coffee and wait for the other shops to open at 11:00.

Janny's Eis Kaffee in Husum, Germany

Janny’s Eis-Kaffee has indoor seating along with coffee and ice cream, so that’s where we parked ourselves. Taking a table, we were surrounded by kayaking pictures, but it was this large setup that grabbed our attention and elicited deep laughter from me. In the U.S., you can’t use the word “Fuck!” on the wall of an ice cream shop that kids will obviously visit. But you can in Husum, at least if you are 57-year-old Freya Hoffmeister, who owns Janny’s along with another Eis-Kaffee on the harbor in Husum, and she’s a badass. Freya has circumnavigated Iceland, New Zealand, Australia, Ireland, and South America and is now on a 10-year 50,000-kilometer (31,000 miles) first-ever circumnavigation of North America – all by kayak! In 2015, she was named the National Geographic Adventurer of the Year. Gobsmacked is not a strong enough word to share the WOW factor she inspires.

Tomorrow, I start advertising fish sticks for my new gig as a spokesperson for a fish company selling convenience. This rain jacket (nostalgically known as “Friesennerz” or “Frisian Mink Coat” in Germany) is so heavy I’ve decided I can find warmth in this and will forego a layer for the sole reason of saving money on things I don’t want to carry back to Arizona though this rain jacket is going home even if I have to ship it back. Now I’m ready to face the cold, wet day.

Good thing we checked on what food options exist out on the island of Pellworm that we are visiting today because we won’t have any with the limited time we’ll be there.

We’d like to be on the island for a longer time, but the ferry that takes us on the 30-minute crossing doesn’t run so frequently, apparently only 3 or 4 times a day, and first, we’ll have to catch the bus that requires 40 minutes to take us to the ferry launch.

So instead of leaving right away, we have a good hour to spend, and where better to do that than in a warm, dry building? This is my second time visiting the Schiffahrtsmuseum here in Husum; the first time was with Caroline. It’s tragic that I’m so close to Denmark on the north German coast and can’t find Danish Poon and will instead have to satisfy myself with this Dutch Poon.

From poon to buttplugs, I thought this was a ship museum, not a toy store for my friend Brinn?

It was April 2013 when we first passed through this area of Germany as we wandered without a plan on a trip that was a spontaneous jump into the rental car. We had to go somewhere while in Germany for the first time in 18 years, so why not north? We’d traveled back to Caroline’s birthland because Jutta had broken her hip, and seeing that broken hips can be fatal for the frail and infirm, both of which my mother-in-law could be considered, we left for Germany right away. Luckily, Jutta recovered very well, allowing us a couple of multi-day jaunts into the areas we had not been to before, such as the Wattenmeer.

If you want to see more from that visit to this very place eight years ago, click the link in the previous paragraph. Back then I shared a photo of this entire shipwreck that was dug out of the mud nearby. It’s a 400-year-old relic and one of those things I never thought I’d see with my own eyes a second time in my life.

During that other visit, I pointed out that we had a rental car; Klaus and I, on the other hand, came up from Frankfurt on the train and are now heading to Pellworm Island on the bus. Stopping for photos is out of the question, as is getting off the bus and just grabbing the next one.

With a few minutes to spare before we left, I thought it was a good time to grab a photo of myself as, without Caroline here, there doesn’t really seem to be a great reason for selfies, but I have to admit that I do enjoy an occasional visual reminder that I was in the place I’ve taken so many photos and written so many words that were shared here.

Klaus Engelhardt on his way to Pellworm at the Wattenmeer in northern Germany

Cold and rainy didn’t matter to my brother-in-law Klaus as he, too, was enjoying the quiet cool of being somewhere different for the first time this year.

We have two hours before the last ferry of the day returns visitors to the mainland. We hopped on a bus to take us to the old harbor, which must be the center of town. There’s really nothing here. If there’s another village on this island that has a larger population and more historic buildings, it’ll have to wait for a subsequent visit, as we didn’t feel we had enough time to get out to the lighthouse either.

So we walked through the small number of buildings, happy to be here at the end of the rain.

There was a Friesian horse in this pasture, too, but it was not going to pose for a photo, so you get these two beauties instead.

This is the old harbor.

And this is the other end of the old harbor.

This is a traditional Frisian house with thatched roof.

And a close-up of a window.

From the Old Harbor, we started our walk back to the ferry dock. So, should you ever decide to visit Pellworm, do not take the last ferry to the island, and whatever you do, bring a bike or rent one.

We barely got here, and the island is already saying goodbye.

If you told me that there were more sheep on Pellworm than people, I’d believe you. This got me thinking that Google might have answers for that, and so upon searching I learned that there are about 1,200 people here, 2,000 cows, and about 3,000 sheep.

To be a sheep living on a dike eating grass all the time next to the sea sounds like a great life until you get to the slaughter part.

As for being a human living on the island, I’ve heard the weather up this way is harsh. Unless you farm, teach school, or run a shop or restaurant, I think the means to make money are rather limited. Maybe an Airbnb for a month up this way could be in our future?

That or grow a thick coat of wool and just hang out here like this chill sheep.

While at the Old Harbor, there was a measuring stick on high ground showing six floods from 1573 to 1976, with the 3rd of January 1976 being the most recent, with water 4.74 meters high or 15.5 feet over normal. If it wasn’t for the protective levees that have been continually raised, most of the island would have been underwater.

We were moving too fast back to the ferry, with a good 30 minutes between our expected arrival and the departure back to Husum. Obviously, there was nowhere else to go.

We’ve seen oystercatchers yesterday and today but none as aggressive as about the half-dozen that were circling us. Were we near their nests? Were they simply excited to see people where there are so few?

On the left of the photo is the lighthouse we would have liked to visit.

Four cars and maybe half a dozen humans were the cargo making the 30-minute return journey across the shallow sea. Back in Husum, we had dinner at Fischrestaurant Wiesendanger, and while the fish was great, it was the broccoli cream soup with smoked salmon that was the big winner, especially on such a cold, wet day.

Exhausted, we were back in the hotel before 10:00 and asleep minutes after that. Tomorrow we are looking at nice weather and a warm-up to 17 Celsius. I hope that’s warm enough, as I’m not wearing that giant raincoat on an 80-kilometer (50-mile) bike ride.

Day 27 – North To The Sea

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Frankfurt Hauptbahnhof, Germany

To bed late, early to rise. Neither Klaus nor I were woken by the alarm, but he woke long before I did. Taking an earlier train to the Hauptbahnhof than planned, we were able to grab a bite to eat and coffee casually instead of sprinting through the main train station.

Onboard the RE50 train to Fulda in the quiet 1st class section; we left Frankfurt at precisely 6:26; this is Germany, after all. Travel time is about 90 minutes, but without wifi, things feel a bit primitive. For the next 8 hours, we’ll be on one train or another as we have three connections over the course of the day.

Klaus Engelhardt on train to Fulda, Germany

Klaus is my travel companion today. This is the first time he and I have ever gone somewhere together; not only that, it is his first vacation without his wife, Stephanie. It is also our victory lap for having finished everything that needed to be done with our mother-in-law’s apartment. The keys were turned over to the owner ten days early, and he’ll be able to let his next tenant move in early.

On the way to Fulda, Germany

Regarding the 8 hours of travel, we are headed to Husum, Germany, in the far north. This is a fairly good starting point to explore the Wattenmeer (Wadden Sea), which is a shallow body of water of tidal flats and wetlands. When Caroline and I were last in the area, we never saw the sea as low tide makes it disappear, but Caroline did walk in the famous mud. With Klaus and I up in the Wattenmeer until Wednesday, we should have enough time to see many of the sights that we previously missed.

On the way to Fulda, Germany

Over the coming few days, I’ll share (because I know how to overdo that so well) much, if not everything, about what we see and experience. With that in mind, here’s a barn on a farm with windmills in the background out the window of the train somewhere between Frankfurt and Fulda.

Fulda, Germany

Ninety minutes later, we are transferring to the train that will bring us to Hamburg for the next leg of the trip.

Fulda, Germany

The train that was supposed to be 20 minutes late turned out to only be 10 minutes late. We are now on the slowest moving ICE (Inter City Express) train ever as we crawl down the track at about 130km/h or 80 mph.

Between Fulda and Göttingen, Germany

Maybe you were expecting my exceptional photography skills to be on display here. Taking photos from a train window leaves a few things to be desired, starting with clean windows, but we can do nothing about that.

Between Fulda and Göttingen, Germany

Fortunately, there haven’t been 100 beautiful little villages we’ve passed as we are out in the middle of nowhere.

Between Fulda and Göttingen, Germany

Just pulled into Gottingen 3 hours after we left Frankfurt. Hannover is our next stop, and then Hamburg. Strange enough, time seems to be flying. The stress that comes with driving your own car makes 3 hours of travel a bit tiresome, while being the passenger just gazing out the window is not only relaxing but also offers the chance for a random photo.

Between Göttingen and Hannover, Germany

The train has finally picked up speed as we race over along at 221 km/h (137 mph)

Between Göttingen and Hannover, Germany

The green blur of a bullet train moving along like a bullet.

Between Göttingen and Hannover, Germany

We were in a tunnel when I took this hence the white streak across Klaus’s eyes; they are lights outside the train as my camera is focused into the darkness, but the reflection jumped back at me. Not the result I expected but not a bad one either. Like a gazelle, we are about to leap into Hannover.

Between Hannover and Hamburg, Germany

As we inch closer to midday and further away from Frankfurt, we had to give up our unreserved seats on the left side of the train for the sunnier right side where the warmth of the sun is making for heavy eyes. That or the less than five hours of sleep either of us had is playing a role. I guess it goes without saying that my step count is looking ugly, but we should make up for that after we arrive at the sea.

Hamburg Hauptbahnhof Germany

We arrived in Hamburg with almost enough time to spare. Well, we had a minute or two before we had to board the train on the track right next to where we pulled in. The ambiguity of what part of the train was ours confused even Klaus, and we quickly learned we were on the segment of the train going to Kiel and not Flensburg. No problem, we jumped off and headed for “our section,” which was the next car, but the doors were already closed and were not going to reopen as I pushed the button and then the train started to move. This wasn’t me making it go; it was the train saying goodbye to idiots as it pulled away.

The next train leaves in an hour. Time for lunch, which turned out to be as bad as the cup of coffee we didn’t enjoy on the trip from Fulda to Hamburg. So, attention Deutsche Bahn, your coffee is meh, your user experience and user interface are both meh, and now on this regional train with 90 minutes of travel time, we don’t have wifi. Oh, and that part from Frankfurt to Fulda is also 90 minutes, with no wifi, what decade are you guys operating in? What is the incentive to travel by rail if the ability to connect and get fueled up on good coffee doesn’t exist? This begs the question, is this your idea of 1st class ICE service, really?

Rail tracks north of Hamburg, Germany

We arrived in Hamburg to gray skies, but once we were some kilometers north of the city, the clouds started to break up, offering great views of billowy clouds. The cumulous display might be part of the weather forecast that suggested Germany was in for some heavy rains everywhere except Husum. You are looking at rail tracks photographed with a slow shutter to smear them. Next stop, Schleswig, or maybe another photo if I see something spectacular.

Schleswig-Holstein Cows in their ancestral lands in Germany

I almost missed taking this photo, and I’m surprised I got any of these cows in the frame. These are the famed Holstein breed of cattle in their ancestral lands: Schleswig-Holstein. The Germans have built these cows for over 218 years using similar processes they’ve perfected in building the Mercedes-Benz. If you see these cows in other lands, be assured they were made in Brazil or Pakistan from inferior parts, as only the Germans hold the patent to these highly engineered robot cows. Final fact: in full gallop, a real Holstein can reach speeds of over 240 km/h or 148 mph.

Wind turbines in northern Germany

Evidence of Germany’s move to alternative energy has been following us the entire day so far. Wind and solar are scattered over the landscape far and wide, and contrary to German worries about these turbines killing birds, I only witnessed a couple of dozen being shredded by those blades of terror.

Random town on the way to Schleswig, Germany

And then there was that moment I realized we’d become airborne, flying over small villages to which access to mass transportation is denied in order to ensure those people never escape. I think I’m happy I cannot look out my window as it appears it’s a straight drop down to the merciless earth below.

Hedeby and Danevirke are the areas I learned about on the website listed here. This strip of land has been settled as far back as the Viking Age and is the narrowest point between the Baltic and North Seas. This also acted as the border area between Scandinavia and Central Europe. I photographed this on our brief stop in Schleswig, which features as a starting point to explore the area, as far as I can tell.

Looking north, about 40 kilometers (25 miles) from here, if you could see that far on this very flat part of the earth, you’d be looking into Denmark. We are on the fourth and final segment of our trip to the top of Europe.

We’ve reached Husum on the North Sea, but before anything else can happen, Klaus has to get a COVID test. Without that, he cannot check into the hotel with me, nor can he eat in restaurants if it proves too cold up here. Then again, he’ll have to get a test at least every 24 hours if he’s to eat in restaurants. While he waits for the swabbing of his sinus, I’m outside, happy I’ve been fully vaccinated. With his test complete, he’ll have to wait about 20 minutes for the results so we head to the hotel to get checked in. By the time our bags are dropped off in our room, his negative results arrive; we show them to the person at the front desk, and we are good for the remainder of our stay here on the edge of the Wattenmeer.

How about a nice 10-kilometer (6 miles) walk before dinner? We didn’t leave with that in mind, but that’s where the trail took us as we left the harbor area, walking towards the sea. Reaching one of the dikes, we went through the gate and saw this sign asking dog owners to keep their hounds on leashes so as not to ruffle the wool of the local sheep.

There are dikes that are pooped on by grazing sheep and then there are pristine levees such as this one that, with a little bit of blue sky, look as though they could be a Windows 95 background.

The weather here is a rapidly changing skyscape of racing clouds that change from billowy white to menacing gray, threatening imminent rain, but they, too, just stream overhead and are quickly gone.

There’s so much to see here, and the light is playing a significant role in what get’s photographed and subsequently shared as my photographs shift between dull and vibrant as quickly as a cloud moves from one side of the sky to the other.

I can’t help but feel I’m looking at the canopy of the world that is forming north of here. These are the clouds that floated out of America, across the Atlantic, passed over the United Kingdom, and are on their way to Scandinavia before retiring in the Arctic. Like whales, they are migrating; only these are leviathans of the skies. You can trust that I don’t really believe that weather and the cumulus that inhabits it work that way, but you also can’t know how my imagination works.

Earlier, I wrote that the Germans are building cows, they also build land using sticks. By limiting the wave action using these water breaks in shallow waters, they can limit erosion and start collecting sediments that extend the land, thus taking from the sea instead of the other way around.

Even at the end of the Earth, you will find art, in this case, wind trousers. The German word “Windhose” means “whirlwind” or “tornado,” so this is, in effect, a pun.

I suppose in some way I promised loads of poop when I showed the pristine dike above, but from this angle and distance, this land, too, appears perfect. Look closely at where your feet are when walking here, though, as evidence of the sheep is everywhere.

It is not 1:29 p.m. when the Lamb of God appears to John; it is late in the day and nearly evening, though the sun is traveling with us at such a late hour. Looking at this photo I’m struck that maybe this was the sign I was looking for in visiting all the churches and cathedrals on previous journeys. Here was Jesus himself looking into my soul and I gazed upon him as a dumb animal as I’m too blind to see the obvious right before me. So was he the dumb animal, or am I?

We’d almost sat down for dinner at a table right here next to the water when the sun peeked out for another performance, giving me what I thought would be my sunset photo. I was wrong. We were also wrong about sitting next to the water as the wind picked up, and it was feeling cold. This contrast of a temperature of 61 degrees (16c) to the 95 degrees (35c) we were having in Frankfurt was a bit unexpected in how jarring we recoiled from what should have been a pleasantly cool temperature.

It was nearly 10:00 p.m. when we left the Compass Restaurant where we dined on a couple of great fish dinners. What I forgot to share earlier is that we’d stopped for ice cream before our walk, which was part of what necessitated our lengthy stroll next to the sea. Now with 17 hours into a long day and tired feet that barely carry us back to our hotel, we are just minutes away from falling asleep with wishes to not arise with the first bird song we hear.

Day 26 – Between

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Frankfurt, Germany

Between America and Germany, between here and then, between culture and death. We have choices of where we want to be, what we want to eat, and how we want to feel. Sure, it takes a lot of love, friendship, and trust to succeed in finding our way into and between these joys, but there are options for those who are uncompromising in their ability to compromise.

Frankfurt, Germany

Today is my day in between as tomorrow I go while today I stay. Between things are preparation and then a train ride that will cover 640 kilometers (400 miles) from Frankfurt to Husum in the north. It would be faster to drive, but taking photos from the windows of a car is not as safe as doing the same from the train. My mind is already halfway to the next place and three-quarters of the way home. I’m in between.

Frankfurt, Germany

I’m in between others’ lives too. How does one care about what passes among family members when certain obvious conditions are at play? Do we ignore tensions for the sake of neutrality while that train approaches possible wreckage? Or do we engage ourselves, risking our own place in a crumbling cohesiveness that is at the precipice? I know the answer and throw myself into the volcano.

Frankfurt, Germany

What if I’m wrong? Then, the ensuing wreckage threatens to ensnare others into the mess I might be creating from misplaced perceptions that were only obvious to me. What if I’m right? I can’t really ever know, as the forces that move people ultimately have to come from the truth that resonates within them.

Frankfurt, Germany

So, I walk and walk and walk. My sense of time is out of sync with my significant other, who is 10,000 kilometers away from me, on the opposite side of the earth. Our love is never more than milliseconds apart; even when asleep, I feel that our heads lay right next to one another with nary a millimeter between them. To fill that minuscule gap, I walk, and I walk some more. In every step, those places between my thoughts are traveled, and the distance is shortened as I grow ever more familiar with where I’ve been and where I might be going.

Frankfurt, Germany

Still, there are pathways I hadn’t seen that require a sharp right or left turn, and yet others I never saw coming that present opportunities to peek into the dark alleys where danger might exist. If I attempt my best to remain aware, maybe I’ll find just enough light to illuminate my own ignorance.

Frankfurt, Germany

Between the darkness and light, our youth guides us unless we murder that naivete to enable the future dead self to operate in the here and now. How does one reconcile living with one’s own corpse? We close the gap between spontaneity, positivity, and hope so we can clasp that hand of despair. Do not walk with the dead, as you, too, will soon be rotting.

Frankfurt, Germany

Do you know those places right in front of you when you are wandering around that stand between moments in time? They’re among the trees, in architecture, and the faces you might encounter. All things are in between their own history while simultaneously existing between everything else’s history. If you cannot perceive that the person across from you is not your age, nor are they remotely aware of where you are in your own life’s process, it’s likely because you’ve turned off your awareness and ceased wandering. The dead coyote or sleeping woodpecker were expert wanderers living in moments of freedom until consciousness fully stopped or was just taking a pause; it seems that only humans can be considered as the living dead.

Frankfurt, Germany

If you are foolish enough to remain at home witnessing the past without any possibility of peering into a spontaneous moment. Your routines are blocking you from refocusing the telescope and the microscope that is your perception. Your thoughts, like the notes on a piano, drift out of tune, and befuddlement befalls you like a discordant song played at the wrong speed.

Frankfurt, Germany

Now I must go walk as I run out of what I filled up on during my previous walk. I’m inching closer to being in between the words that will run out before being replenished. Walking is the food for my mind, as is what I press into my mouth is nourishment for my body. The symbiosis should have always been known, but when a society places a premium on cultural suicide, how do we survive that strangulation of our imaginations when the voices that would inform us of our ignorance are lost in the noise between entertainment and consumption?

Frankfurt, Germany

Do I lament this place time has brought me between young and old man where idealism and hope might be blinding me to a reality where the masses no longer care about survival? I do not mean physical survival but the independence of our ability to create and explore the complexity our ancestors discovered and gifted us. No, I cannot lament this great fortune of being present as the future may deal me a blow and take away this insight I believe I’m within. I’m not between here and there; I’m in the now and ecstatic for this awareness. And so, I go walk more.

Frankfurt, Germany

What if tomorrow I have nothing to say? I may have walked a thousand miles by then, yet my fingers could obscure the letter sequence lost behind a gate of frustration. It happens that our emotional state tells the brain’s creative outlet that it is not allowed to deliver anything that might be meaningful to others due to internal turmoil when ego cascades in a destructive crush, trying to obscure the truth. Maybe the truth is I’m not being honest with others, or maybe not with myself. Can I hear those around me and the me that is within demanding I listen to things I must learn because I lost my ability to celebrate raw exploration?

Frankfurt, Germany

Mental illness springs forward in the void of neglect and self-abuse that arrives with turning in without the balancing counter-action of turning out. What exactly transpires or went wrong as we go rogue, turning into a hermit? The mythology of the troll comes to mind where this angry creature must suffer for taking refuge under the bridge and forever being afraid to go beyond its domain. How tragic the idea that as a shut-in, our inner troll emerges, pushing away all those who care and come near, costing this victim a hefty price of total alienation.

Frankfurt, Germany

Some are alone and lost, while others carry the voices of unwanted visitors within. Learning how to choose a path and what to filter out isn’t always as simple as an A/B choice. We must look to others for help to escape when our existence becomes a blur, or we are a reflection in the shadows between clarity and light. Take the hand of the one who is trying to rescue you; being alone is not the same as being human.

Day 25 – Am I Ever Going To Move?

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It’s past noon before I emerge from my lair in Heddernheim, where I reveled in the mundane tasks of laundry, eating, writing, and just hanging out for the sake of relaxing for a minute. When I finally jumped aboard a train, I had been already entertaining the idea of just staying put, but that option would have me miss an opportunity to experience something that I would regret once I returned home. I wonder why I so easily take for granted where I live in Phoenix, but maybe I don’t take that city for granted after all. True, I’m no longer inspired to photograph it and justify that by telling myself that the repeating patterns of conformity offer no novelty for my eyes to explore, but I do still like being there for the incredible winter climate and being well-positioned to explore places beyond our desert home.

Motion where old meets new and motion where we move within and without versus standing in place staring at the same shadow theater in our homes that replaced the cave. The world is not so black and white that all of reality can be gleaned by witnessing it from afar. Our ancestors and contemporaries have left, but there are countless artifacts telling us where they’ve been and giving us clues about where they might have gone. Engage yourself on a path of randomized branches where you discover things that have always been there but remained unseen, or maybe an object right before you change your path as you navigate obstacles. Of course, if you are more comfortable finding the hidden landmines in your head, sit still, do not move, convince yourself that you’ve seen it all, or at least know it all, and you will be sure to fall off the ledge into your own madness.

A piece of fabric that stands between sanity and empathy has been able to divide peoples of various lands in a way that fascist thugs and religious zealots have done in the past using violence and coercion, not for the sake of public health but to cleanse a people of thoughts deemed poisonous to various regimes. How this small article that temporarily shields the nose and mouth has been equated to those on crusades, purges, holocausts, and persecution can only be a testament to how few enemies people have aside from the demons of insecurity that live within their heads.

You are not the lonely “Ferkelkraut” living alone outside of society and culture unless you removed yourself when you found the world intimidating to your limited knowledge of how the world should operate in a perfect state. Life is not a vacuum where you choose the exotic elements that you deem worthy to enter your universe. You are, for a moment, alive in the chaotic soup of constant motion compared to this weed that will never stand up and make choices that benefit itself and others in its proximity. You may choose to be a noxious weed, but should your raging fear and anger about lacking the means to participate on a group level cripple you, maybe you should choose to live the life of a plant fixed in place.

You will never see these paving stones where I have seen them. You cannot know if they were hot or cold or exactly what the color of the plant life was between them. You can only make assumptions, not based on reality, but using your bias to infer some value or other. This is the mistake of those who cannot move across and through the fabric of reality as they attempt to define this constantly moving plane of perception for others. The stone we see today is not the same stone we saw yesterday, and to reference it as the never-changing archetype that should define all other stones must certainly be a sign of man unhinged.

This is where we humans go when group psychosis afflicts a simple majority. We stumble over the stones that once guided us into reason, empathy, and compassion at a time when progress was hailed as all-important. Tripping over our better selves, the angriest among us snatch those who attempted to flee to safety, as what happened here with Hermann Lismann, who at 60 years old in 1938 fled to France only to be held outside of Paris in the village of Drancy until he was transferred to Majdanek Concentration Camp in Poland and murdered for his desire to live and believe the way he saw fit. We flirt with these kinds of insanity when we start to believe that external forces are the cause for the conditions we’ve inflicted upon ourselves through our fear of what we don’t understand.

You mustn’t understand me nor desire to define me. That I don’t fit your limited ideas of what and how reality has shaped you doesn’t offer you license to demand my conformity. It is not the immigrant, gay person, atheist, black, brown, or other among us that drives your fear; it’s the small and petty little animal within who is afraid of the beasty stealing your life or nest. You require therapy to fit into a fluid world that moves with the seasons, years, and the endless march of time that only goes forward.

What lies ahead is not the edge of the world where you will fall into nothing at the end of the trail; the nothing you fear is where your mind falls into uncertainty because you’ve convinced yourself that what might be ahead would certainly change you beyond recognition.

But what if down that path you find an incredible restaurant packed full of those others you think you abhor, and instead of stealing your identity, gender, orientation, rights, or culture, they welcome you to their table and share a story that has you laughing at how their uncertainty also gave them anxiety about joining the party. After a glass of the local favorite drink, you find yourself understanding that this person doesn’t have the power to destroy every belief system you have grown crusty in but instead offers you the chance to let down your guard. To be among strangers and sharing will most certainly leave you with impressions that move with you bending the path you believed you were on.

You know nothing about this man, nothing. Okay, you know he’s balding, bearded, middle-aged, with eyes that require help to see things clearly, but what else do you know? Will you like him or hate him? Should I tell you anything about him, it is my bias and personal filters that will tell you those things I want to believe him to be, but the reality is that he may well be someone altogether different from you. Not to say he won’t still be himself, but you bring yourself to this party and only you will ever know the things shared with him that might be exchanged between you two.

Now, head back into the night. You’ve crossed a bridge that offers you a new view of your former certainty. Maybe you’ve started learning that being stuck at the bottom of this dark river in the mud is not the ideal place to be when you could be in the brightness of sunshine, rowing in the flow of those enjoying the opportunity to find these special places of discovery, awareness, and acceptance?

Day 24 – No Idea

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Frankfurt, Germany

What am I doing here? I don’t mean the apartment Klaus, and I were in when I took this photo of a nearly empty space, but here in my head the next day as I’m supposed to be writing whatever it is that will be placed here. For the previous 24 days, I have, to good or bad effect, dumped whatever was in my head onto these pages. But here I am, on Thursday, and my brain is behaving like it’s Sunday. Maybe it’s not that I have “No Idea” but that I’m getting closer to needing a vacation from this gargantuan task I’ve taken on. Not to imply that my responsibilities to these things, such as emptying Jutta’s apartment or visiting her regularly, are part of the task I’m referring to; it’s the exercise of photographing and writing about those moments that course through my day so Caroline back in Arizona can share my experiences with me of which she would otherwise not have any real idea or picture.

Frankfurt, Germany

This was Jutta’s bedroom for the last years. It’s a narrow space in front of the window. Two people could stand shoulder to shoulder, so maybe the room is five people wide? The apartment is tiny, at only 50 square meters or 540 square feet.

The photo above this one is Klaus in Jutta’s living room. Maybe it’s the tall ceilings, or when a room is cluttered that it feels bigger than it is, but when it’s empty, it seems extraordinarily tiny.

Frankfurt, Germany

I’ve listened to the radio often while in this apartment, from cheesy old German hits from the 50s to what feels like an endless loop of The Weeknd, Dua Lipa singing We’re Good, and Kate Ryan offering some silly pop music with Désenchantée. The cassette that was in this boom box is coming to Arizona with me. I’ve not listened to it, but I can share that Stadtbücherei Borneim will never see Side 3 and 4 of Peter Härtling’s book titled Schubert again as it heads to America for being fed into something called Volkmires Inferno, more about that on another day.

Frankfurt, Germany

This was the kitchen. Yes, even the kitchen sink leaves when a tenant moves out. The girl who’s taking the apartment asked that we leave the light fixtures as they were headed for the trash and would save her some money on having to replace them. As for the stove, sink, and refrigerator, that’s a cost that all renters have to come up with when they move, or they take their old stuff with them. By Saturday this will all have a fresh coat of paint and look as new as can be. On the right side of the photo is the hall that leads to the living room in which Klaus is standing in the top photo, and the bedroom door is on its right side.

Frankfurt, Germany

The toilet, bathroom sink, and showerhead all remain, but the medicine cabinet and any cabinets in the bathroom have to go away. I have loved this shower as compared to our American one that trickles out water without any meaningful pressure, this one has the force of the Main River behind it.

Frankfurt, Germany

Jutta’s view from her rear window and the door that opens to a small patio. While this might look cramped to an American, this is a very nice and quiet corner in the middle of the city.

Frankfurt, Germany

View from the front window in the living room looking towards Bergerstrasse in the distance on the right. Maybe you notice how high the windows are? This stops people from easily looking in.

Frankfurt, Germany

The front doors to flats are often inside in this configuration, where all tenants enter through a common door and head upstairs. Bells at the side of the door are used for buzzing individual tenants. If you are looking for elevators or handicap accessible lodging, that might be difficult to nearly impossible. Regarding rents, Jutta’s apartment costs about 950 Euro or $1,130 a month, which, with the change of tenant, is going up 2 € per square meter, bringing the rent to 1050 € or $1,250 per month.

Compare these prices with ours in Phoenix, Arizona, where we rent 865 square feet (80 square meters) for $988 or 829 Euros per month; the same space in Frankfurt, Germany, would cost roughly $2,000 per month. Maybe you’d just like to buy the apartment instead of renting it? Our family was offered the option to buy it at a cost of 7,000 Euros per square meter or about $350,000 for a 540-square-foot apartment.

Frankfurt, Germany

My own personal reset is happening today. Four short hours of sleep, a few remaining details at Jutta’s apartment that need tending to, lunch with Klaus, a visit with Jutta, and then make my way back to Heddernheim.

Frankfurt, Germany

I’m tired enough to want to take the train, but after walking only about 2 miles today, I have at least another 3 miles I need to get in, so I’m walking some more. The next stop on this train line is Merianplatz.

Frankfurt, Germany

After walking to the end of Bergerstrasse, I walk across a small park area that brings me out near Konstablertwache. Before I went there, I needed a break in the shade, and while I sat on an old wall watching others moving through the park, too, I spotted another one of these cargo bikes I’m in love with. I swear that if we move back to Europe, we’ll shoulder the expense and own one of these with electric assist so that in the nice weather months, we can go shopping with a cargo container to carry our groceries home or even carry Caroline upfront, offering me map directions to where we’re going.

Frankfurt, Germany

It’s already 3:30 and 35c (95 degrees) when, after the slowest walk ever over Bergerstrasse to Konstablerwache and Zeil, I sit down for the third coffee of the day. I’m yawning so much that it’s hard to focus on my screen. This is amplified by sitting at the underground shopping level that leads to the various trains further below that come through Konstablerwache. People-watching is an incredible distraction that’s actually going to lull me to sleep due to the cacophony of voices that are filling the cavernous area down here creating a soothing soundscape to my senses that are hinting at fatigue.

I wasn’t interested in making good time over to Jutta’s on such a hot and very humid afternoon, so sitting here at the U-Bahn seemed like a good way to spend a few minutes while Jutta is at her own 3:00 coffee and cake afternoon break. Had I shown up earlier, there’s a good chance I would have woke her from her nap. Ha, and here I am, needing a nap of my own.

It’s no exaggeration that I have “No Idea” of what today is about. With my primary task of being in Europe complete, I feel like I can veg, but on the other hand, I feel like I’m wasting valuable time when I could be doing something important instead of just sitting here mesmerized in a head whose eyes are getting more and more difficult to keep open.

And then the coffee starts to kick in but so does my interest in watching such a diverse crowd of people from all socio-economic, ethnic, and age groups walk, jog, and drag themselves past me. Shit, now my imagination gets the best of me, and I start eyeballing the bag sitting in the chair next to me. The guy who’d been there said something to the server, and then he walked away. He’s been gone about five minutes without a backpack that could have any manner of something in it. In America, I think someone would have snatched it by now, but I’m in Europe, and every so often, maybe not as frequently as in the past, someone tries making a political statement by using a bomb to grab attention. Could this abandoned backpack contain my imminent demise? After he’d been gone, maybe 7 or 8 minutes, he returned carrying three bags of fruits and veggies he picked up at the stand further behind me. Note to Caroline: you know which seller I’m talking about, the one that’s in front of the escalator that exits across from McDonald’s and Starbucks.

Frankfurt, Germany

It’s 4:00, and I’m comfortably awake with my paranoia in check. The stream of people never slows, though it pulsates as waves of trains arrive below me, and other people are flowing into the underground to get to their next destination. I suppose I need to pulsate my ass out of this chair and get over to Jutta before her dinner hour over at Zauberberg. Herr Ober, zahlen bitte.

With my coffee paid, I could go back to the sweltering streets under the sun, or maybe I should have hooked up with the woman nodding on the street too high on heroin or fentanyl for a fix so the oppression of the weather just wouldn’t matter and I could join the other junkies of Frankfurt who are oblivious to the changes of their environment.

Frankfurt, Germany

Minutes after walking away from the woman who can’t even find consciousness, I arrive at Lebenshaus for a visit to the greatest mother-in-law I’ve ever known (okay, so the only one I’ve known who’s also related to me). Talking is a large part of our routine, and without wasting a second, we start gabbing. I’m able to share with her why I had so little sleep; her other daughter Stephanie and I had a seriously meaningful talk into the wee hours of the night. At 6:00, it was dinner time here at Magic Mountain, and after escorting Her Highness to her dinner date.

Frankfurt, Germany

I left Jutta and started a walk to Heddernheim; how long can it take? The walkover was nice, although it was fairly hot, even at only 95f. We desert dwellers, accustomed to low humidity, seem to take a long time to acclimatize to these wet air conditions that keep me in a perpetual state of sweat. I never realized how little there is to eat along Eschersheimer Landstrasse, although I’ve walked this street before; that was some years ago on my first challenge to walk across Frankfurt, which then, in my imagination, was a big city. It is not.

Frankfurt, Germany

I’m pretty sure that if three letters were allowed after the first letter that identifies the city a car is registered in, the owner of this Bentley would have certainly added the K to his plate.

Klingeln - Bicycle Bells

On my way up Escherheimer Landstrasse, I stopped at a bike shop that was open late, till 7:00 p.m. and bought a new bicycle bell (Klingel) for my desk because one never knows when surfing the web you’ll have to warn others that you are about to pass them.

Frankfurt, Germany

It was right near here that I was also passing Eschersheimer Landstrasse 140, where Caroline and Stepanie spent the majority of their childhood. The front door was open so I had to go in and photograph the entry to their flat.

Frankfurt, Germany

The doors have not changed since the Engelhardts lived here. Their flat was the door on the right, and Caroline’s room was to the left after you entered. The blue banisters are certainly recent, but the red stairs ring a bell.

Frankfurt, Germany

Here I am, guilty of stoking the fires of nostalgia by walking in places that can only trigger memories of times long ago.

Frankfurt, Germany

The front door is no longer the same. We change, the landscape changes, and on occasion, the architecture changes too.

Frankfurt, Germany

Passing the Polizeipräsidium where the U.S. Army shopping area known as the PX used to be, I couldn’t help but think about the recent story that 95 local policemen will be terminated for their participation in an extreme right-wing group.

Frankfurt, Germany

Oh, there were times that I considered jumping on the train I was walking next to, but I kept thinking that it could only be another stop or two before Heddernheim when I could get some dinner at Speisekammer. Certain they were open, I never checked their hours, but when I asked for directions to their location, I was informed they were closed. Fortunately, there were options, not a lot, but at least one other reasonable choice besides pizza, döner, or these canned meats that, while my eyebrows might rise at trying them, I have to admit that I am curious about sending some back to Arizona.

Frankfurt, Germany

Oh, here I am, crossing the Nidda River, which means I’m close to getting dinner finally.

Frankfurt, Germany

A bit more than two hours is what it took. I’m at 16km (10 miles) when I arrive at Momberger Restaurant. I’m sitting with an old man who criticizes the way I set down my camera and then fanning myself to cool off. He informs me how futile it is and that I should shave off my beard to cool off my face. Okay, Karen Hitler, how about you shove your cranky attitude up yer Po? To be honest, I’m afraid I’m going to be exactly this guy someday.

Day 23 – Goodbye Bornheim-Mitte

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Frühstück at Eifler Bakery in Bornheim-Mitte Frankfurt, Germany

After living at Saalburgstrasse 46 in Bornheim-Mitte, Frankfurt, for 23 days now, it’s time to wave goodbye. While there’s a chance Caroline and I will be in the area again someday for one reason or another, it is time to move on now. I might even have a thing or two to finish up here tomorrow, some minor cleaning maybe, but tonight, I’ll be staying in Heddenheim north of here. While I have this romantic notion of still coming to the bakery I’ve been visiting every day, the journey over here requires three trains or at least one train and about 2 miles of walking. If I listen to my own advice, it’s probably healthier to discover another place and let this one go.

The one thing that was missing in the apartment was a refrigerator and stove that would have allowed me to cook my own food in order to afford me a bit more immersion, though I don’t know where I would have discovered the time to do that. Going out to eat every day has been okay as by having so much bread and potatoes, I’ve been more aware of my need to walk that stuff off, but I’ve also indulged in a crazy amount of Grüne Sosse and a good amount of Döner, so there is that upside. All the same, I would have enjoyed buying some fresh food (beyond some fruit and a couple of bratwursts) from the open-air Wednesday market to prepare myself.

Flower display in Frankfurt, Germany

Two hours after sitting down to breakfast, writing the above, and laboring over what I wrote the day before, it’s time to finish my coffee, take advantage of the free toilet, and figure out what my next steps are. I know, I’m going to get on a train to Oberursel for a walk in the Taunus mountains. Okay, maybe not exactly that; I’ll go check out the train schedule and possibilities before I fix this idea.

Jutta Engelhardt and John Wise on the Main River in Frankfurt, Germany

Well, that idea was scratched for a minute as with the heat coming up today, I thought that seeing Jutta earlier and taking a short walk to the river would be the better idea and so that’s what I did. Our visit was only long enough for her to read a few paragraphs from yesterday’s blog post that pertained to her and then our brief visit to sit next to the Main River. I had to get her back to Lebenshaus as they were serving lunch outside in the garden, and I wasn’t going to be able to take her with me, so by 11:45, I was once again on my way.

Train in Frankfurt on the Main, Germany

Like the animal crossing signs in America where nobody ever sees a moose, elk, deer, donkey, or tortoise, I had thought this rail crossing sign was a relic from a time when maybe there was a scenic slow-moving train that made its way up and down the bank next to the Main River, but then we heard the train whistle. I had to grab the camera and jump in order to catch this rare sight, well, at least for me, as I’d never seen a train here on this track. The composition isn’t great, but when you have a split second to capture the rare mountain lion crossing the road, you don’t ask it to pose; you just get a photo in the hopes you might prove that such a creature was witnessed by your own eyes.  This is proof that the train track running along the river in Frankfurt is still operational.

On the train in Frankfurt, Germany

When I arrived at Hauptwache and checked the train schedule, it turned out that the U3 to Oberursel / Hohemark was a good bet. With 10 minutes to spare, I even had time to have my first Frikadelle on Brötchen of this trip before heading downstairs to jump on the train.

Taunus Mountains in Germany

A dozen or so stops later, I was at the trailhead into the Taunus mountains just across the street from the train. For accuracy, I should point out that Waldlust is not where I got off the train; it is the stop just before. I took this photo from the train because it said Waldlust. Well, I had to smile as, in my brain, this translates to “intense desire or passion for the forest” or “Forest Desire.”

Taunus Mountains in Germany

I asked for a walk that would take about two hours, and that’s just what I was directed to. The Heidetränk-Oppidum Celtic Circular Trail was perfect, but as nice as it was, it was the fact that I only passed one other person on the trail that made it special. When I lived in Germany and even before coming over for this trip, Caroline warned me that the Taunus trails can be incredibly busy as people flock here to breathe the fresh air of Frankfurt’s “green lung.”

Taunus Mountains in Germany

But today, on a day that the population was grumbling about the sudden turn to exceedingly hot weather (88 degrees or 31c while in Phoenix, where we live, Caroline has to contend with 100 degrees or 38c at midnight), I guess that going into nature is too much to ask so everyone stops what they are doing so they can survive “Frankfurt Mega-Heat Wave 2021 – Global Warming Edition”

Me on the other hand, I am like the moss. I have no choice but to be out in the elements.

Taunus Mountains in Germany

Foxglove, ladyglove, or digitalis purpurea, whatever it’s called, this brightly colored plant was everywhere in open areas of the forest.

Taunus Mountains in Germany

There’s something hidden in plain view here that would have been unmissable about 2,100 years ago. It’s why this trail is called the Heidetränk-Oppidum.

View from Taunus Mountains in Germany

It’s a hazy, hot day in the Frankfurt area, and the grand view of the skyline of the city in the distance on the right is diminished because of the weather, but that’s okay, as this walk took me far away from any crowds.

Taunus Mountains in Germany

But enough of that, time for a history lesson as much as I can craft one from Wikipedia, where the information I’m finding is rather thin. What is known is that this site is one of the older Celtic sites in the area (the largest in the state of Hessen) and once had a 10km (6 miles) wall around it. Oppidum is the Latin word for “town” or “settlement,” and Heidetränk refers to the specific location.

Taunus Mountains in Germany

Signs of the wall can still be seen, though they are so eroded that they are bumps on the landscape like you might be able to see here. The walk itself is 4.3km (2.7 miles), which takes you past just some of what remains. Sixteen interpretive signs are scattered along the trail, but to gain a better understanding of what was here, a visit to the Vortaunus Museum in Oberursel is probably in order. Hey Caroline, do you know of any good books about the Celtic culture of early Europe? We need to add it to our reading list.

Taunus Mountains in Germany

There are no ruins remaining here in the forest; due to erosion, theft, and vandalism, the area hardly retains the features that just 150 years ago were still visible. This opens up another distraction in the curiosity of John going about the world. I can see visiting a number of Celtic sites, such as I recently did with Boris down in Heidelberg, and going to museums to see the artifacts of what they created and left behind so that I might paint a better picture of who these early Europeans were. My knowledge of the history of Germany is pretty limited; first, about a long time ago, there were Neanderthals, they were replaced by Barbarians, then came the scientists and philosophers, followed by Nazis, and finally, BMWs and Techno. Stephanie informs me that there was a period with Romans; who knew?

Taunus Mountains in Germany

Back off the mountains, I needed to make up for not taking a bottle of water with me. Just behind the info center is a small restaurant, so I had my first bottle of Taunusquelle Medium Mineral Water. The train awaits my arrival, or maybe it doesn’t, and the next one will just leave, and I have to wait for up to 15 minutes for the next one.

In the city, I had to return to Bornheim-Mitte once more as I worked to finish my goodbye to the area. Jutta’s apartment is in the final stages of being emptied before getting a fresh paint job. I dragged out as much furniture as I could by myself as Klaus and Stephanie made their way across town to help with some of the remaining things, like the kitchen sink and medicine cabinet in the bathroom You see, in Germany, the fixtures and appliances (other than the radiator heating system, toilet, and shower) all leave when a resident moves out. There are no closets because those are not built into dwellings; you bring your own. With the heavy stuff moved over to the street side for the scheduled pickup of heavy household things set for Thursday, it was time for the three of us to get dinner.

Based on my recommendation, we visited Zum Blauen Bock German restaurant just a short walk from Jutta’s apartment. No, I did not have Grüne Sosse. After nearly three hours at dinner, we finally drove over to Heddernheim, my new home away from home. Tired as hell, what did I do? Stephanie and I stayed up until 2:00 chatting; that’s what I did.