Homeless Jenga

Junk on electrical box in Phoenix, Arizona

This moment was brought to you by our incessant walking with the goal of reaching 10,000 steps a day. On our usual route there is an electrical box behind which homeless people have been known to sleep, shoot drugs, store junk, or leave random things. Today is one of those random things days. A scattering of thumbtacks, golf tees, paper clips, straight pins, and a few other items lay helter-skelter atop the box. Where’d they come from? What is their purpose? I can only surmise that this was a late-night session of homeless Jenga where the meth demanded they do something other than pick at scabs.

Kraut

Homemade Sauerkraut

Back on January 3rd, I stopped in at my local Whole Foods to buy 22 pounds of organic cabbage. In the days prior, it began to look as if the weather might be cooperative this year; it can’t be too hot or too cold, or the project I wanted to embark on wouldn’t work. I had to acquire a new mandoline slicer as our old mandoline was no longer with us. I tried one time to shred this much cabbage by hand, but that is a horrible task. Another reason why I haven’t done this in a while, the lid of our 10-liter ceramic crock had first cracked and then broke in two after something fell on it off the kitchen counter. Caroline since then glued the pieces back together with an adhesive that was not food grade, but my feeling was that the lid never comes into contact with any of the contents of the crock.

So, with about 10 heads of cabbage cored and quartered into 40 pieces, I started slicing and stuffing the cabbage into the crock. After every six quarters added, I threw a tablespoon of salt on top, mixed it with my hand, and pressed it down. And this is what I did for the next couple of hours. The added salt breaks down the cells of the cabbage, and putting pressure on the shredded pieces allows me to fit it all in the crock. By the time I’m reaching the end of the slicing and I’ve made a huge mess of the counter and floor, the compressed cabbage has given up so much fluid that I have a good 2 inches of brine sitting atop the cabbage. All that is left is to put on the lid, fill the V-shaped rim with water, write the date on a piece of tape on the lid and wait.

Homemade Sauerkraut

Thirty-six days later it’s time to empty the crock. I’d wanted to wait until the 42nd day, but the temperatures are going up here in Phoenix, Arizona, and at a certain point the fermenting cabbage will turn soft and maybe even develop a strong alcoholic taste, which I don’t want. With that in mind, I pull the crock that’s been turning cabbage into sauerkraut up off the floor in the corner and get ready to start packing kraut into jars, 8 of them as it turns out. With 2 gallons or 7.5 liters of this German superfood, we lose a bit of refrigerator space but gain at least 8 months of fresh homemade sauerkraut. If you should think this isn’t as sexy as visiting the Grand Canyon, you’d be seriously wrong, but then again, how many people out there are able to indulge in such luxuries?

A Great Big Happy Place

Caroline Wise at the Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

A great, big, happy place graced with a sweet, happy face is the kind of starting a day I find agreeable. Add a pot of Belgian hot chocolate, mix in some coffee, and breakfast is off to a great start too. Can you recognize the setting by now? Yep, we are back at the El Tovar, luxuriating in yet more indulgence as if that were even possible.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Yesterday’s journey on the Rim trail took us west; today, we go east.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

I didn’t share it yesterday, but our walk took us out on the Trail of Time, albeit the part of history that is not visible, such as the beginning of the timeline when the earth formed. Today, the Trail of Time marks spots along our walk that not only explain when particular geological layers were laid down but also what the rocks look like and how they arrived here at this corner of our planet.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Gneiss, schist, and granite make up the Basement Rock layers of the canyon, and I would have loved to share an image of the Vishnu Schist, but that rock is black and sat in shadow; thus, my photo wasn’t worthy. Again, in my book Stay in the Magic, which chronicles our first-ever whitewater adventure, I wrote about my teary-eyed encounter with the basement. I’d like to recommend you click here to read about that day back in the fall of 2010

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

This is an example of Bass Limestone that is part of the very interesting Supergroup formation that is squeezed into the canyon. While I find the subject fascinating, maybe it’s not the quickest of explanations without diagrams, although the photo of the Trail of Time sign clearly shows the angular intrusion of the Supergroup between the basement and the majority of visible rock layers here in the canyon.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

By now, I wouldn’t blame the casual visitor to my blog for getting a sense that I’m posting many photos that look like others. Maybe you’ve not been to the canyon or studied its geology and history, so you wonder why these somewhat repetitive images are so intriguing to Caroline and me. Well, each photo I share is another work of art painted by the adept hand of Mother Nature.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

This polished section of rock was on the south side of our trail and was unmarked. The named and year-identified rocks are on the north side of the trail. I do wish we knew what this was.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

There’s as much gone from erosion in this photo as there is to be seen. A one-mile layer has been eroded from the north rim, which is visible at the top of this image. That’s where the fossils of dinosaurs and mammals would have been found had weathering not erased that part of history from our continent. To see what’s missing, simply travel north of here into Utah, Wyoming, and Montana, where much of that record still exists.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

The Trail of Time is not a difficult hike into the canyon; it’s a handicapped-accessible path offering all visitors the opportunity to take a nice slow walk on the canyon’s edge while also learning about the history of how the canyon formed. Spoiler alert: this place isn’t only 6,000 years old.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Things are not always as they seem here in the canyon, such as that age reference made to the religiously devout just above. This Redwall limestone is obviously not red. Back when the science of geology was a nascent endeavor, the people who had a hand in naming canyon features might have played fast and loose with things, as the truth about Redwall limestone is that it appears red due to erosion of the rock layer that lays just above it.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Manakacha sandstone is a 200-foot thick layer that rests upon the Redwall limestone, and thanks to its erosion, the limestone below it appears to be red. Don’t forget that limestone is formed by the shells of sea creatures, while sandstone is formed from eroded rocks that accumulate on a land basin or underwater. Maybe this all seems normal to most people, but to me, the processes that were at work to create the lands we live on are simply astonishing yet probably mostly taken for granted.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

This sign points out the top layers you’ll see in the following photo, where first there was a river (Hermit Formation), and then on top of that, sand dunes formed (Coconino Sandstone) until a river and a sea started leaving deposits (Toroweap Formation) before another shallow sea formed (Kaibab Formation). Personally, my mind is blown again and again, no matter how many times I read this and see it with my own eyes.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

How many photos that capture minor iterative differences in this scenery are required to be shared? All of them. I look at the spectacles of nature in ways similar to how others listen to their favorite songs. How many people might listen to nearly all 213 songs the Beatles released and never believe they all sound the same? Well, each photo I share here of these views of the Grand Canyon is a song, and each major point in the canyon is a different artist.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Inspired by our travels, writing these posts to images is the musical composition or aroma of a favorite dish that becomes a classic in the repertoire of references that amplify what would otherwise be fading recollections. In effect, I’m creating a soundtrack that allows us to relive moments as viscerally as a favorite song brings us back to being a teenager or falling in love for the first time.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Listen closely, and you might pick up on the smell of amazing as you gaze into the deep canvas of the infinite. While you scan the horizon, you are seeing the past, the present, and the future, too, though nothing of you is still left here from previous visits and your next present moment will be elsewhere. Out of that reality, your presence will likely never have been known here, but should any of my writings and photos exist at some later date far from this day, I might be so lucky to remain a part of the places I’ve been just as the sediments and fossils do before they rejoin the flow.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

The flow of time, of rivers, of songs, and stories over the ages all create impressions that leave temporary indelible marks on those things they touch. Carving into youth, imagination, rock, and space, these flows impress character and define the extent of culture that should be boundless but are often constrained by self-imposed and societal boxes that people are unable to escape. The man cave is not the totality of experience, nor are the toys that allow us to distract ourselves; it is the vastness of the Grand Mind and Imagination traversing words and thoughts we ultimately have to use to define where we are in this universe. Not taking the path of going deeper within one’s humanity of language, words, and speech, we risk falling off the cliff and into the void of an abyss. We are not meant to become nothings in a universe that offers us the unbelievable; we, too, must carve a mark upon the life we’ve been offered.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Well, this is embarrassing as, apparently, I’ve run out of songs. My lyrical content has dried up, and I’m sitting here trying to regain my flow as I move to finish this blog post.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

At least we are at the end of this trail, and I can begin transitioning to our exit of the Grand Canyon. This particular end is near the South Kaibab trailhead, where we’ll get a ride back to Grand Canyon Village, where lunch and our car are to be found.

Caroline Wise at the Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Of course, mule-powered transport the five miles back would be preferred, but as that would involve stealing a couple of these friendly animals, we’ll defer potential arrest and instead opt for the shuttle bus that stops here.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Lunch was at the El Tovar because, of course, it was. Thinking we’d get out of the Grand Canyon without another stop at a gift shop was folly because, of course, it too was. While Caroline went hunting for postcards in the Hopi House gift store, I remained vigilant in the great outdoors, waiting for the perfect image to present itself in case another addition to the photos shared here was required because I will never have enough to write about.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Caroline might insist that this was Moran Point, but I will remain defiant in my insistence that I read Moron Point; I’d then bet a dollar that she’d use that tired reference to the town in Texas that she says is indicative of these moments, it’s called Dumas. [John, you can be such a dumbass – Caroline] [John, did you really just write that fake comment in my name? – Caroline (the real one ^_^)]

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

We both agree that this is Lipan Point and remain astonished that we’d never visited this overlook before. Keeping something unseen to drag us back works again.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

At Lipan Point, we decided to skip the Desert View Watchtower in order to catch this overlook and the next one. But before we leave this view of the Unkar Delta, I need to point out another detail from our river trip that took us down the green band out in the middle of this image called the Colorado River. Just left of center on river left (as seen from the flow of a river, which in this case comes in at the right and flows to the left of the photo) is Cardenas Camp at mile point 71.6. The Unkar Delta area is also known as Furnace Flats; if you are curious about some of the psychedelic rock down in that area, you should take a glance at Day 5 of Stay in the Magic; your mind will be blown.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Finally, this is the view from Navajo Point, looking north up the Colorado River. If you look closely towards the top right of the image, you can make out a crack in the plateau that branches off the main gorge. This smaller canyon going to the right is the canyon that brings the Little Colorado River in to meet its bigger brother. And with that, we say goodbye to another visit to the Grand Canyon. What an amazing weekend and culmination of the third trip away from home this year.

It’s Oh So Grand

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

We’ve not seen all the sunrises that have ever risen over the Grand Canyon, but we’ve seen every one of them we’ve been present for, and that’s probably more than either of us might have ever expected had we imagined such a thing after our first visit here together. The thought strikes me that we might only be here at the edge a couple of times this year when these first rays of light reawaken the spectacle of this treasure, and while that will be infinitely more than the fraction of less than .01% of humans that will even visit the canyon and even less than that who will wake up here. While we are certainly in a fortunate minority of humanity as measured by those who will greet the first light of day from within a national park, it feels like there’s room for more. Maybe we can…I was going to write, “…add another day this year,” but before I could jot those characters down on my keyboard, I went ahead and looked for availability on the North Rim of the Grand Canyon, and there, on the last day of the season, found a cabin that had “Book Me!” written all over it. I obeyed.

El Tovar Hotel at the Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Of course, breakfast would be had at El Tovar, the home of Belgian hot chocolate, and as far as the Grand Canyon (and maybe all of Arizona), this is the only place to indulge in such a treat. We’ve been lucky enough to spend more than a few days in this famed hotel at the precipice of the canyon, but rooms are now hard to come by and have grown in expense. Rightfully so, considering the likely enormous upkeep of such a historic structure. So, while we may not want to spend so much of our budget on lodging, that doesn’t mean that we won’t attempt to eat every meal we can here.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

From Grand Canyon Village, we head west on foot in the direction of Hermit’s Rest, though the likelihood of getting that far is slim at best. Who cares? We’ll just walk out on that rim trail as far as time allows.

Elk at the Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

About a dozen elk were also heading in our direction, though their stopping to forage meant we were moving a bit faster. While they appeared nervous about us, we were equally nervous about them as they have a big weight advantage over us puny humans. Be that as it may, it is amazing to be in close proximity to such graceful wild animals that appear to daintily nibble at things and walk with a light gait.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

There were light patches of snow still present, though much of the white stuff had iced over. Speaking of ice, there are smatterings of that in shady spots in the Village as well as on the trail. Prior to choosing the rim trail, we’d already read that most entries into the canyon were loaded with enough ice to require crampons and walking sticks just to be safe, and we had brought neither.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

We did bring wide-open eyes, ready for expansive vistas that we’d calculated would communicate directly with our memories and imaginations to remind and inspire us that what we thought we knew would appear new and unique. Searching those previous experiences, we couldn’t find a hint that we’d ever walked this trail as far as we are now, but even if we had, could that familiarity possibly diminish something that looks like this?

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Right down there in the black rocks known as Vishnu Schist, a.k.a. the Basement, lies the river called Colorado, which is a place we have very minor experience with. Over ten years ago, as I’ve probably shared a thousand times by now, Caroline and I were aboard dories right down exactly there. We were on Day 7 of our journey and had woken up at river mile 84.6 above Clear Creek. We’d run a couple of rapids, one called Zoroaster, that was quite large, before taking out at mile 88.1 for a walk to Phantom Ranch. After an hour or two along Bright Angel Creek, visiting a gift shop, and visiting the first flush toilets in a week, we were again riverside where we’d have lunch before passing right through here to our next camp that was only 6 miles downriver.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

The view from here is one of expanse and the immense flow of time. The gargantuan landscape stretches out in all directions; there doesn’t seem to be a beginning or an end. Down in the canyon, the world is ancient, within grasp, and extremely detailed until you try to reach out and experience it. From our perspective on the canyon rim, it feels like you could reach the other side rather quickly, but that’s an illusion, while on the river, there is no outside world. Infinity is nearly within reach of being understood if you’ve been on the Colorado through the Grand Canyon, but it’s an illusion as the North Rim is only about 14 miles away while the South Rim is under 8 miles via the Bright Angel Trail. Not that those distances really mean anything, as the majority of your time on the river, there is no way out other than straight ahead. Of the other trails in and out of the canyon, many are treacherous and difficult.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Today’s walk here on the Hermit’s Rest rim trail is one of extraordinary ease, other than the acclimation to the cold and elevation.

Caroline Wise at the Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

The swerve of the trail has the pleasant effect of bringing the canyon below into view again and again.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Look at the river in the center of the photo, just to its right, and on the opposite shore is Granite Camp, which is next to Monument Creek and just above Granite Rapid at river mile 93.8. On the 28th of October, 2010, we slept right down there. While I’m no hydrological expert, I’d wager that the sandbar you can see is the result of the Class 8 rapid just upstream.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Framing, shadows, air quality, clouds or lack of them, season, time of day, and intensity of the sun all contribute to how we’ll see the Grand Canyon on any particular visit. Just stop in any of the gift shops and look at the photos on offer: aside from the fact they were taken by people with great cameras, being present at the right moment when conditions are just right plays an important role in what version of the canyon you might witness.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

As the time inches past noon, we spot what looks like a perfect place for lunch right here at Mohave Point.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Before we set in for a mid-day meal, we spotted this lost necklace that had been placed on a branch awaiting its owner’s return. We are now the owners of this necklace; well, Caroline is. The chances of the person who lost it at some random spot on their walk ever returning to look for something they had no idea of when it fell from their neck is likely zero. So that it might continue to charm someone else who will now associate it with a perfect lunch stop at the Grand Canyon, it seemed only natural that it should continue its journey to other places.

Caroline Wise and John Wise at the Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

It was Caroline’s idea to bring our thermos with us and a couple of bags of Heisse Liebe (Hot Love) tea from Germany. [Heisse Liebe is the name of a popular dessert in Germany, a combination of vanilla ice cream with a hot raspberry compote. Just to give the gentle reader an idea of what the flavors in this tea are – Caroline] After sharing a sandwich we had picked up this morning, we enjoyed a couple of cups of hot love and the smiles that come with that. [And also the memories of our first shared cup of tea from this very thermos in Winter in Yellowstone back in 2010 – Caroline]

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

The perfect dessert feast for the eyes was next up on our mid-day break that included visual culinary delights such as this one.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

The closest either of us was getting to this Mormon tea plant growing on the very edge of the cliffside would be from this photo; while I love most everything about the canyon, standing near areas where a gruesome potential death awaits those of uncertain footing drills into my acrophobia with tensions that extend empathetically to those nearby.

Caroline Wise at the Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

While neither you nor I can see Caroline’s face, I can tell you from experience that her eyes are telling the story of how deep these impressions she’s taking in are resonating within her. If not from nearly imperceptible extra moisture emanating from tear ducts, then the way she’ll smile at me with eyes pleading for my understanding of how monumental the experience and memories that flow through her. My wife, while vitally realistic, is also a romantic who loves indulging those things that plum her wellspring of love and sense of profound awe that we are so lucky to experience such gifts.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

We made it out to the Abyss, but it turns out that we had nothing to fear as, apparently, we’d vanquished the monsters that might have looked into us. Instead, we are happiness personified by looking at an intrinsic beauty contained in the arrangement of rocks, plants, and reflected light that paints these images for all to see.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

The cost to stay at the Bright Angel Lodge is $139 per day, and the price of three meals within the park will set you back between $100 and $200. Transportation to get to the Grand Canyon will depend on where you live, but if you are a mule deer, it’s all free, aside from the risk of being hit by a passing car. If you consider that a mule deer lives an average of about ten years, life in the Grand Canyon would cost us humans over $875,000. The lesson here might be: have cloven hooves instead of hands, and you may not have to toil a lifetime, never being able to afford real luxury.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

I can’t remember a visit with such clear air as we’re enjoying here today. That is Humphreys Peak standing over Flagstaff, meaning we can see 70 miles (112km) south of here.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Maintaining a snail’s pace in order to allow even more of the canyon to seep into our souls, we required a solid 8 hours to walk 11 miles of rim trail out and back. It would have been 17.5 miles had we made it to Hermits Rest.

Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Returning at sunset, our hunger had grown large, and without a reservation at El Tovar, we could only hope for a table. We could have never guessed that this would be where we’d be sitting for dinner but this is exactly where we were seated and without any wait at all. It was dark as we finished, and the lounge had a waiting line, so a slice of apple pie and an Old Fashioned were not going to happen; instead, we headed to the upstairs part of the lobby to grab a table. I opened the computer to work on photos, Caroline brought out her knitting, and we listened to the piano player arpeggiate pop songs and lounge favorites into a glissando wormhole as big as the canyon just outside.

An encore of starlight for the walk back to our room was provided by an obliging clear sky that allowed us to marvel at a Milky Way that all too frequently is not seen by us city dwellers. Come to think of it, nothing about this time in the Grand Canyon is common to those of us who live in big cities.

Heading Towards a Giant Hole

Highway 64 to the Grand Canyon National Park South Rim, Arizona

Today’s title could allude to a lot of things, such as something financial, emotional, or possibly even intellectual, but the reality is much more mundane, though the gravity of the hole is immense. This hole of immensity is mere hours away from our home, and for those encountering this blog post who have the knowledge that we reside in Arizona, it should be apparent what this reference means. That’s right, we are going to the Grand Canyon National Park, which lies just 217 miles north of us.

I’d love to find an appropriate metaphor to stand in for the destination and relate our adventure to some esoteric thoughts I’ve recently been reading or writing about, but trying to be real, we are going somewhere beautiful and likely extremely cold to go walk with one another because that’s what silly people in love do. Sure, we could walk around Phoenix and save the expense, but our mission to help keep the American economy humming demands that we rent a room on the South Rim for a couple of nights.

Bedrock Campground near Valle, Arizona on Highway 64 on way to the Grand Canyon National Park

The other benefit of this brief excursion is that it will inspire me to photograph things that will force me to write about our experience, so I might offer the appearance that important events happen in our lives other than eating, defecating, and sleeping. But here I am at the coffee shop hunting for wit instead of heading home to finish the last-minute packing and making lunch that would allow us to skip out of town, but as I’m not impossibly feeble (yet) to control things, I’ll add a period to this sentence, call it a paragraph, and get moving.

Grand Canyon National Park South Rim, Arizona

Living only three and a quarter hours from the South Rim of the Grand Canyon allows us to leave at nearly any time, but it was our intention to catch the sunset in the canyon, so leaving at 1:00 p.m. would give us plenty of margin. Sure enough, it’s shortly after 4:00 as we reach the park entrance. There will be no selfie here as we’ve got that photo from a previous visit, maybe more than one. Then again, we likely have many versions of the next image, too.

Caroline Wise and John Wise at the South Rim of Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

A little more than 28  years ago, we made our first visit together to the Grand Canyon. Just a few days before, we’d gotten married in Las Vegas on a trip from Frankfurt, Germany. Back then, we had no idea that one day we’d be living in America; as a matter of fact, it would be the following year, in 1995, that we packed up and headed west. As I sit here at the lounge in El Tovar following dinner trying to write this, I apparently don’t have enough fingers to be able to count how many times we’ve been to this corner of Arizona, but I’d guess we’re approaching a couple of dozen times.

Grand Canyon National Park South Rim, Arizona

Once we arrived at Yavapai Point, we were not interested in chasing the setting sun. We could be happy right here. I could be cynical and say we’ve seen it all before, but that would somehow diminish the intensity of feelings still experienced as maybe the view is no longer new, but the memories we’ve shared with so many friends and family continue to echo out of the depths and crevices that have captured our oohs, aahs, and astonishment.

Caroline Wise at the South Rim of Grand Canyon National Park, Arizona

Have you noticed that all three photos are of the same location? Can you tell that Caroline froze to death where she was standing as I asked her to wait one more second until the light was just right? It’s a brisk 32 degrees or a big fat ZERO Celsius for our friends in other countries, and with a bit of breeze, we were slightly, but only slightly, chilly, probably in part because we are wearing those warm, cozy things Caroline has knitted for us just for these occasions.

Grand Canyon National Park South Rim, Arizona

As we were losing available light, it was time to head up the road to the Bright Angel Lodge, where we were spending the next couple of nights. Without dinner reservations, we were hoping to get a table over at the El Tovar, and with luck on our side, we were seated without so much as a 10-second wait. That put us here in the lounge with an after-dinner Old Fashioned for Caroline and a hot chocolate for me. By 9:30, the place is empty, our bill is paid, the stars are certainly out in the millions, and after we bundle up into these many layers of winter clothes, we’ll take the short walk over to our hotel.

Nothing is really as easy as it first sounds when it involves doing something in a timely way when we are in a place of such immense beauty. With the moon out of the picture, the Milky Way screamed out at us for our attention while absolute quiet surrounded us. Where is everyone else who should be out here gawking at the sky? Caroline points out how lucky we are that they are already tucked into their warm rooms and cabins because if they were here stargazing, they’d probably also be chatting up a storm. Instead, it was just us and millions of dots of light as we strained our hearing, certain we’d pick something up of that far-away light that worked so long to reach us.

What’s Going On?

Working setup at King Coffee in Phoenix, Arizona

I need to post something today to fill the gap between trips and to keep me from wondering years from now, “Just what happened between Death Valley and the Grand Canyon?”

Well, here it is. Like after so many other trips I’m typically saddled with a lot of photos. On that recent weekend trip to Death Valley, I shot 949 images. The Monday following, just like after any get-away, I had to work on prepping the photos that hadn’t been done while we were out. Once that’s finished (in this case, it turned out I’d chosen 68 images to accompany 3 blog posts), I started writing. This kept me busy until Thursday; at that point, I needed a down day and I might have spent Friday between talking at my local favorite coffee shop, doing chores at home, shopping, reading, or any combination of those things.

Getting “back on track” I wasn’t interested in writing as much as I wanted to return to some deeper reading. Over the past couple of months, I’d finished In the Dust of This Planet: Horror of Philosophy by Eugene Thacker, The Third Unconscious by Franco “Bifo” Berardi, and was making progress in The Age of Disruption: Technology and Madness in Computational Capitalism by Bernard Stiegler, but I was stumbling with this last one so I’ve turned to A Thousand Plateaus by Gilles Deleuze and Felix Guattari. Whoa there, from super complex to mega-complex, are you sure that’s the path you want to take? I’m not certain but I’m thinking that it might help pave the way to that end. I do write notes to myself trying to explain what I think I’m figuring out from some of these obtuse writings that typically wouldn’t find their way to a blog but this is different as I’m filling a space to let future self know what I was doing here in early 2022. So for example, here’s a paragraph I wrote a couple of days ago where I’m trying to understand Deleuze’s writing on strata:

As we fix on certainty (arrogance and ego) we limit ourselves to living in the corner of the tiniest universe while searching for stability and the absence of chaos because the turmoil of uncertainty frightens those not prepared for exploration. Disrupting our ideas could lead to us challenging what we believe are foundations of maturity as that’s what we are graded and promoted on. In these situations, only those who hire, fire, arrest, grant credit, and allow our existence have authority. We are helpless and can’t think for ourselves, that was buried in some long-lost strata, which by definition is rigid and inescapable until the underlying foundation (earth/reality) convulsed, thus upsetting the order of things in crushing profoundly destructive ways.

After a morning and afternoon trying to decipher concepts such as Body without Organs, Deterritorializations, Planes of Consistency, Rhizomes (not in the sense you might think), and assemblages my focus is finished. At best I can tolerate listening to another 20 minutes of Caroline reading more from In Search of Lost Time by Marcel Proust on the way home, the first 20 minutes is read on the way to her office. After that, I struggle to convince myself to make dinner and then we head out for the last one-mile walk around our neighborhood. The final two hours of these evenings are open to mindlessness but certainly never television.

Between chatting here at the coffee shop where I’m also trying to write this morning I’ve already spent 3 hours of my time and haven’t cracked open my book yet; as a matter of fact, that’s certainly not going to happen before lunch. Also, I need to consider if anything special needs tending to with regards to our visit to the Grand Canyon starting tomorrow. That’s about it for now.