Gas-lighting

Gas prices in Phoenix, Arizona

The news about fuel costs, the endless lament, a conversation of extraordinary whining regarding the insane expense of filling a tank, this nonsense must stop because who really cares?

When gas costs $3.50 a gallon (such as back during this past January), the natives rest easy, but at $5.40 a gallon (current price as of today in Arizona), we have a national emergency. Give me a break. How can this panic be real when reality says this is NOTHING unless one considers it a distraction? The average roundtrip to and from work in the United States appears to be about 41 miles per day. The average fuel economy across America right now is a hair under 25 miles per gallon.

Using those numbers requires 1.64 gallons of gasoline for the daily commute. So, back in January, it cost approximately $5.75 to get to and from work, while today, it now costs $8.86 or $3.10 more per day than it did back at the beginning of the year.

By land area, Phoenix, Arizona, is the 6th largest city in the continental United States. A ridiculous commute from the north edge of the Phoenix area in Carefree south to the border of the Gila River Indian Reservation in south Chandler would amount to 43 miles in each direction or 86 miles roundtrip. For this long haul, you’d be spending $18.58 per day with gas at $5.40 per gallon unless you drove my 2019 Kia Niro hybrid, in which case it would be a $9.29 outlay.

My point is that very few people can lay claim to 100-mile-per-day commutes, even here in America’s 6th largest city, and if they are doing that using some large pickup truck, that’s an error in judgment, and besides, only 15% of pickups are used for work so please don’t toss that red herring at me.

For those who earn on the low end of the pay scale, sure, this hurts them, but not as much as higher rents do, and NOBODY is talking about that.

So let’s venture into the low-pay situation; someone I know works about 9 miles away from the coffee shop she works at. Her 2001 Jeep Cherokee, on a good day, gets 17 miles per gallon; so back in January, she was spending $3.50 to get to and from work, while today it’s approaching $5.50, and there are those who are trying to argue that this extra $2.00 is the straw that is breaking the camel’s back. If she works 22 days per month, she’s incurring an extra expense of $44 due to today’s cost of gas, but her rent increased by $300 a month, just as ours did. Yet the government has the audacity to call for a gas tax holiday that only adds $0.18 per gallon., I wonder what someone like this woman would do with the extra $5.40 per month she’d be saving? Oh, I know, she’d apply it to her rent.

The 2022 median wage in America is $16.50 per hour or $13.90 after tax. The national median price for a one-bedroom apartment was $1,216 back in 2019, meaning someone needed to earn $21 an hour back then to afford a small apartment, but instead of discussing wage inequality, we blame greedy oil companies and lay fault at the gas pump as being the boogyman ruining our ability to afford life. What a sham.

Recurring Rebirth

Lexi from Phoenix, Arizona

A daughter only becomes a mother upon the birth of her child, suggesting that two births happen simultaneously. So, it could also be said that the infant is the mother of its mother. The lineage of my understanding if I was able to comprehend what I was trying to draw from Catherine Malabou and her writing of Plasticity: The Promise of Explosion, in which she was referencing Claude Levi-Strauss’s writing about the poem titled Autumn Crocuses from Guillaume Apollinaire is that each interpretation of knowledge gives rise to a new thought, or as a metaphor, a new child. In this type of “child of the mind,” we might consider the idea of birth and growth of a non-linear intellectual play of things branching from an arbitrary point across the timeline of potentiality or knowledge.

What I’m taking from this is that every time I encounter a new bit of knowledge that resonates long enough with me that it has the chance to impregnate my curiosity and make me want to learn and understand more, I’m giving birth to a new “thought-child” that with enough nurturing will grow up to be something. I become the mother to this child who was the mother of an idea that could grow to maturity.

What, then, is the difference between seeing a compelling character in a movie that I might want to see again and reading a book about science, history, philosophy, or some other work of non-fiction that inspires me to go further? Why do I immediately jump to the idea that entertainment is a mindless bundle of fluff with little in the way of redeeming qualities that, while it might spark a kind of joy, cannot compete with factual narratives that arrive out of the past or with current developments that impact our tomorrows?

Putting that to the side for the moment, I’m just as curious about the idea that well-formed threads of learning where deep contextual information can weave a more immersive tapestry, I’m able to better visualize the branches of where discovery can take me. One thing that comes to mind is the story of Martin Luther. When I arrived in Germany with the U.S. Army back in 1985, I quickly learned about the role of nearby Mainz and Johannes Gutenberg’s work regarding the printing press. On the heels of that revolution in movable type, we see the Gutenberg Bibles. Over time, I was able to visit the Wartburg, where Martin Luther translated the first German bible from Latin, which would benefit from the recently invented printing press. At another time, I found myself in Erfurt, where Martin Luther studied theology at an Augustinian Monastery. With the rise of Protestantism (Lutheranism), history runs headward into World War Zero following the defenestration of Prague, when a return to Catholicism was rejected.

Bach then gets tied into this as he was from Eisenach, Germany, where the Wartburg is located. Bach’s devotional music arises from his Lutheranism, and it was that which brought me to Mühlhausen as I was continuing my journey of building out a construct of devotion, spirituality, revolution, war, and intellectual evolution that could be referred to as the child I hold aloft in my mind created in the image of the influences that share these ties I’ve brought together.

My interest in geology is a wholly other child, which birthed my curiosity to cultivate knowledge about the formation and history of the world I live in. Symbiotically tied to land seen and unseen is the life that emerged in the crevices and small spaces, and while this potential silo of vast history and evolution could stand as a thing of its own, I’ve not really been able to separate them. Yet, intelligent life that branched from those areas has its own vector in my mind, but if I give pause in my thinking, I probably believe there are two vectors in regard to humans: those that evolve and those that do not. Chronologically, I can give parental attribution to the processes of chemistry that not only happen on the cosmic scale but also that have been occurring on the planetary scale. This lineage is only known due to intellectual processes, not because of the order in which I grew my interest.

These, then, are some of the children of whom I’ve become a parent, and it was their incredible potential that allowed them to become parents of nascent thoughts that would need nurturing over time for me to grow with them.

Let’s return for a moment to entertainment and the relative frivolity I see on its stage. Granted, there is a valid domain of aesthetic value and narrative, while those who take inspiration to further their craft have the most to gain, but other than the capitalist artifact of the potential of commerce to validate and create demand for those that work around the field, I see more harm than good. I refer to the harm that arrives with the absolving of consumers from participating. Thus, entertainment takes on the role of temporarily warding off boredom, which in itself is not a bad thing; it is the lack of balance between being an observer and participant that concerns me. Why do I care about this imbalance? Because I think it is part and parcel of our collective madness.

Just as humans must create new humans, I sense that those in balance and finding happiness do so as they cultivate aspects of themselves that flirt with creativity, thought, contemplation, and exploring difficulty. Mind you, these need not only to orbit around purely intellectual processes. Woodworking, pottery, fiber arts, robotics, playing an instrument, gardening, and a host of other labor-intensive hobbies can allow someone to practice mastery of a subject as they work through iterations of success and failure.

Maybe introducing something new to your senses on a daily basis will lead you to a succession of subjects that fail to find resonance with you but what if one a month strikes a chord? What if this only occurs once per year? Over a 10-year period, you will either be overwhelmed with dozens of fascinating subjects, or you’ll be honing in on less than a dozen new areas of thought and hobbies, which, either way, would be a win-win situation.

Living Vicariously

Storm Clouds

I suppose to live vicariously is better than having never lived at all. In a world that favors the haves over the have-nots, the need to be witness to something “real” fills in for the instinct to participate. One needn’t hunt and kill their next meal; to kill an enemy is only allowed when sanctioned by the state, justice is not administered by the crowd but by the court, we mustn’t build our own home, and there’s no certainty a spouse will be found.

So, we passively watch the life we are not living. We watch the superman take out a gang single-handedly, the underdog is portrayed as overcoming adversity to win the day, and against the odds, the hero gets the girl. Compliment the fantasy on the big screen by encouraging the citizens to take things into their own hands while practicing fighting, driving, collecting treasure, and maneuvering through impossible scenarios so they might win and be heroes themselves. If you love fishing, there’s a tv show for that, hunting big game, a show for that too. Do you suffer from depression, witness someone else’s that’s worse than your own, and maybe you find solace that your life might not be all that bad?

Don’t like where you live? Maybe a war somewhere else will convince you that your existence is pretty good. After all, we can’t all go to the lake, mountain trail, Disneyland, Central Park, Paris, or scuba diving off Key West. But then again, we can’t let the natives become restless because we have no real idea where the boiling-over point of humanity lies. What pacifies the horde so the wealthy are allowed to enjoy the spoils of their war against those in poverty? If only the impoverished could easily be placated to accept their station in life. Just where can the balance be found between self-incarceration and minimal amounts of participation?

I’m going off-track as I came to this page after having watched a couple of dozen clips from Jack Reacher, John Wick, and The Equalizer. Obviously, I’m broken as I want to fail to understand the appeal, or maybe I don’t have a choice but to fail, as the idea of a solo Johnny Badass cleaning house to show the bad guy what it is to suffer for violating the honor of men. This primitive idea that a man’s rage, when employed for the greater honor, will propel our abilities to overcome evil; give me a break. At best, this is pandering to man’s primitive lizard brain; at worst, it drives home the ambiguities of having un-intentional, near, purposeless lives in the age of meaningless social media.

When knowledge exists in the forbidden vacuum occupied by the despised, those intellectuals, nerds, coders, scientists, engineers, professors, creators, and rarely controllers, these are then the class of people able to give context to their experiences which might take them into the corners of the Arctic, the Balkans, glaciated mountain trekking, Amazon river adventures, visits to museums, operas, and other places of sophisticated immersions. On the other hand, the vast void of ignorance holds appeal to those who needn’t lend meaning beyond the visceral, and yet, they travel with resentment that others might take more from their position of privilege while the masses feign indifference or discontent.

This then begs the question for me: where is the messaging about the importance of vast knowledge beyond the absolutely superficial surrounding manufactured drama that accompanies professional sports, television series, the antics of celebrity-based governance, vapid personalities that hawk indulgence, and finding completeness through consumption?

I can easily understand that I sound like the idiot thinking liberation from the yoke of banality can be found in intellectualism, but that would be a misunderstanding as what I mean to insinuate is that authenticity and curiosity are the missing elements that pull us forward in ways that are healthy for society.

Bamboozling

Elon Musk Tweet

Late yesterday, Elon Musk asked on Twitter, “Is TikTok destroying civilization? Some people think so.” Nearly immediately, he answered his own question with, “Or perhaps social media in general.”

Just this past week I stopped following Musk on Twitter, and already I find myself blocking him so I can avoid his form of madness. Back to the opening of this post, the audacity, banality, and sardonic nature of his missives have devolved into trolling, and this coming from the man who claims he wants to improve the human condition. Had his question been phrased, “Is social media exposing the true debased face of a society where mediocrity has been propagated for the past 50 years?” maybe then I could have easier digested his aggression.

Social media is a mirror, and the reflection of cultural trainwrecks is the cream that rises to the top because stale stories and images of success are boring. Why would positive stories be boring to society at large? Because success is normal, it’s routine, so who wants to see the commonplace? The spectacle of the extraordinarily stupid, vulgar, and violent is far more interesting when all around us, people just keep paying bills, go on vacation, find praise at work, and buy cars, clothes, and nice food. Why be interested in the mundane while there are people willing to gulp down the world’s hottest chili pepper, stride atop cranes 1000 feet over the street below, or act out some ridiculous miming of the next viral hit?

We do not want to be average, and social media offers us the avenue to be larger than life even if we don’t recognize that we are dumber than all life that came before us. This makes sense when you think about it: you are validated in your mediocrity from a young age, and now you are celebrating it thinking that the other troglodytes are going to dance with you in your overwhelming stupidity, not recognizing just how akin you are to the proverbial box of rocks.

So my message to Elon Musk is: Get off your high horse! You’ve lost sight of the majority of not only our country but the mass of humanity that isn’t insanely rich, works with the smartest people on earth, and rubs elbows with the most successful and beautiful people who move in rarified circles. Elon, you can easily find yourself on any TV show you choose, snag an interview with any news source on earth, ask for a cameo role in a movie, and get it, but the rest of us are relegated to Twitter accounts with maybe a few hundred followers, Facebook with the tiniest fraction of friends as compared to influencers, or a TikTok account that will never see millions of views. Consider that for the masses, this is their version of playing on the stage where Charli D’Amelio, Rodrigo Contreras, and Elon Musk live, and the idea of erasing these platforms because they are distractions, places where people say things hateful or show themselves committing atrocious violence is missing the point.

The point is that we, as a society, are incredibly primitive, and NOBODY wants to address the question of what individual responsibility to the intellectual process is and what it means to be in the club of humans. We are as free to be as stupid, insipid, banal, and lacking self-awareness as we choose, just like Elon Musk.

Rafi

Rafi of Phoenix, Arizona

Shock greeted my brain while big uncertainty was writ large over this man’s face. It must have been the crazy look in my eyes as I came to an abrupt stop on my way to the ATM at this gas station and stared at him. Without saying a word, I pulled out my phone and frantically searched for something while looking up at him and then back to my phone. He looked worried as my smiles didn’t seem to allay his anxiety that I might be crazy. If you knew the location of this gas station you’d understand the distinct possibility that a man looking at him wild-eyed was indeed insane.

I found what I was looking for and at that point, I told this “stranger” that I knew him. He was certain we hadn’t met before. So, I turned my phone around and showed him a photo of him I had taken 12 years ago. I explained that I had snapped the photo at Indo-Euro Foods where he used to rent videos and surprise overtook his face along with a big smile. That old photo can be seen here, just click somewhere near this.

This is Rafi, originally from Afghanistan. He is now married and has two kids. Just as he was a dozen years ago, this is one of the happiest people I’ve ever had the good fortune to run into. I’ll have to stop in from time to time to say hi.

Where Is A Place?

A place

Today, I’m asking, “Where is a place?” because a place that was once one thing has changed to become something else. There’s the fast and easy answer that says nothing has changed other than the observer, but that’s only part of the story. A crass example might be found in two plots of land found in Oświęcim and another in nearby Brzezinka, both found in Poland. Back during World War I, a migrant worker camp was built in Oświęcim. After that war, Polish soldiers took over the facility. Prior to this, I’d imagine the area was farmland, but I cannot find definitive information to confirm that. Regarding the other location, meaning Brzezinka, it apparently was wide open just before development activities got underway.

Starting in 1940, the army barracks and, subsequently, the large plot of nearby land were being repurposed. Up to this point in history, these places were of no significance at all, but that changed as Oświęcim, infamously known as Auschwitz, and Brzezinka, better known as Birkenau, became two of the most notorious concentration camps. During their years of being operated as extermination camps, approximately 1.1 million people lost their lives there. Following World War II, the camps became memorials.

As memorials, these sites have become solemn grounds that remind humanity of the atrocities people are able to commit against one another. My point is that places start out as ordinary, yet if extraordinary events transpire, they can end up inscribed in cultural memories with significance that transcends the easily forgettable.

I know that this is a heavy-handed example where readers might say that nothing should be compared to such things and that I risk sliding towards the sacrilegious, but in my opinion, places hold memories, and while it is our collective knowledge that imbues a place with such notable attributes, they do exist.

Well, this was a long-winded (I’m well known for such things) way of getting to the main gist of my post, “Where is a place?” I’m currently at a place where I find the memory of what it was to have greater meaning to me than what I perceive the location to have now. I do understand that my own trajectory is constantly moving, but I am not the change I register as I sit here writing, observing, and contemplating. The differences are arriving with others who have started considering this place as one they could consider frequenting. The place is being repurposed.

Similarly, America as a place and an idea are mutable with a plasticity that, while still pliable, could at any time calcify and appear destined to collapse due to a rigidity that steals its flexibility. Back to my ugly references to concentration camps and the prisoners whose lives ended in Oświęcim, Brzezinka, or Treblinka, those who arrived in the four-year period of mass extermination saw their limited time in a camp as the horizon looking at the end of their existence. A killing system had an infinite grasp and could never change in the eyes of those destined to die there. Similarly, in pre-Soviet czarist Russia, an empire ruled for nearly 400 years before Lenin and Stalin brought the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics to be a force of control for almost 70 years before calcification crumbled its bones and wrought change. All systems appear to fail when change is lost to sclerotic stagnation.

Change is the operative word here today. Places change, and we change, but if we fail to transform ourselves and places do not change, we begin to normalize a docility that demands things stay the way they always were. The brilliance of America since its founding has been this endless metamorphosis that allowed us to adapt to the needs of the day, but today, we are seeing a pandering to base natures where those who abhor change want to pass on stability to strong men who offer promises of today being similar to the day, week, month, and years before when a place and your sense in it was known and familiar. This line of thinking negates ideas of change and, if not rooted out, risks dragging people into the inevitable convulsion that must catapult stagnation out of the doldrums.

The effort to break free of the crippling gravity found in the total loss of movement is akin to the rocket lifting a multi-ton payload into the heavens; all hell must break loose. The violence of the sort that tears apart what it is leaving behind is the revolution that upends those who brought malaise and are about to be murdered before their very eyes. War is then the inevitable outcome that must arrive to wash away the fear of change. Are we headed into that war?

I hope we are not moving towards conflagration as I surely do love the place I inhabit in my life at this time and feel loathe to change that, though I do enjoy my inner conflict that remains in a near-constant state of battle.

Our motto for the next decade could read, “Fighting an internal war against complacency for personal freedom.”