The Knife’s Edge

Macro of knife edge

We stand on the knife’s edge before the maw of the beast, its fangs bared, our future uncertain. After thousands, tens of thousands of years of evolving survival skills combined with cultural and scientific advancements, we are led by frightened greedy men drunk on treasure, fearful of one another, and ready to do battle with demons of extradimensional ferocity. Yet, it is only us standing on the horizon, alone with our existential angst and personal neglect of a personal healthy ecosystem of mind, that rages before humanity.

Without wandering hordes of enemies, without wild beasties ready to spring from the night to seize our throats in their jaws, we empower our fellow men to reign with deadly force and allow the madness of unchecked individuals to harness chaos among us to ensure we must live in uncertainty believing horror is just ahead. As we attempt to progress, it is our destruction of the resources of our planet, the potential for profound and abrupt cessation of lives due to mass illness, or political dogma painted in zealotry doing the bidding of jingoistic narcissists that trace back to the most privileged enjoying the high altitude life that survives atop the feeding chain of the haves and the have-nots.

Knowledge and wisdom from our elders were erased over the past century, and rightfully so, as we intentionally dumbed down our populations so that only a small cadre of sadistic opportunists could share power among themselves. We as individuals no longer know how to govern ourselves, our ability to voice our minds without resorting to violence or equally stupid rhetoric has been placed on the sideline, and thoughts of the future have been replaced with hope for survival in a world that if it was managed by wisdom would have few enemies other than those of our own making.

A solution will not be easily had as wealth and power are cowardly fellows and fully understand what could be lost if an angry, undereducated mob was unleashed with the knowledge that they are but frightened tools manufactured by the powers that be who once believed that a stupid society is a passive controllable mass of consumption, profit, and warfare that remains ripe for exploitation while ignorant of what they’ve sacrificed by not investing in themselves.

Alterity

My keyboard

I think I am starting to understand Derrida’s idea of erasure. Could he mean that once we’ve seen a sign, image, or word, we’ve learned what it means? On subsequent encounters with the sign or the word, we erase the previous one in a sense, allowing it to be replaced by a new context.

The written word is a dangerous sign that pries open areas of the psyche that are a threat to external control structures. The spoken word is a distinctly different organ/tool from the written word: the emoting tonality of the speaker triggers a temporary euphoria or understanding that arrives with the perceived intentionality of the person talking. Compare this to writing/reading when we decipher on intimate terms, using traces of other writers that weave between ideas of signifier and signified.

This mechanism of attention/deconstruction is not available to the listener, which for controllers is a good thing as the spoken words flow in ways that don’t allow traces to enter the stream as long as the orator keeps their foot on the pedal of delivering a relative barrage.

This was the method employed by Hitler, Trump, Putin, Charles Manson, Shoko Asahara of the Japanese doomsday cult known as Aum Shinrikyo, and many religious zealots, simply keep drilling the message using an authoritative voice that takes the listener on a ride and overwhelms their analytical mind, rendering them unable to find their own internal voice using threads/traces of what they might have otherwise considered, had they been reading the written words.

For example, I’m currently reading Gayatri’s preface to Derrida’s Of Grammatology, and if I’m comprehending it correctly, it is almost irrelevant as I find my own traces/threads through the meaning of things that produce thoughts and ideas I would consider my own, although I know that what I’m translating into my own discourse is a continuation of words and ideas harvested from everyone, including WSB, Nietzsche, Bukowski, Russel, Baudrillard, E.O. Wilson, and now Derrida via Freud, Heidegger, Foucault, and Lacan.

If I weren’t reading, I couldn’t find the space between words to activate my own thoughts, and I’d have to wait until the speech was finished and an extended silence opened before I could insert my own words. This is a danger of being a listener only as much is lost when waiting for a break. While reading and writing, I have only the tension of my excitement to reach the next word, and should I take a pause, I know I can return to exactly the same point, highlight it if need be, and continue pursuing inspiration if that’s what I’m exploring.

But this is all a palimpsest as I write over the erased text of what I thought I read because my understanding is of no consequence. My interpretation is that of a poor critic afraid to admit deficiencies in comprehension.

I suppose one thing I have learned is that when I reach the actual words of Derrida, I will have to examine the spaces between the words, lines, margins, and the vast empty spaces left as voids in Derrida’s writing in order for me to erase the missing meaning so I might insert my own meaninglessness that should also require erasure.

My job is not to bring closure (answers) to knowledge but to make the abyss larger and more confounding so as to grow the mystery of what still lies ahead. We hope to inspire others to fill the gaps we left behind to peer into the darkness between stars. This is the metaphor for understanding the infinite horizon of potentiality and that we are lightyears away from grasping the limits of our mind and language so we can endure the exploration of all that we’ve never imagined.

We attempt to destroy ambiguity as that is the frontier of freedom where discovery is the propellant, and to that end, all thinkers that risk convention by opening cans of experimental thought taunt the powers that be that their luxuries wrought from control could be put at risk.

Life itself is encoded in written form and must be read using the evolving strings of DNA that are forever altering the story of life on Earth. When we write, we are crafting the future. When we wave in the wind, we are but trees on the surface of a complex structure that lacks meaning; we are the meaning. Should we devolve further and abdicate our responsibility to craft signs, we will become nothing, unable to perceive the abyss of joy.

Torn From Our Moorings

Screen cap from my text

The letter and the word are signs equivalent to those used in any of the sciences. They represent a formula unfolding like a string of mathematic equations that will find their answer or allusion to further investigation after the totality is consumed, though it’s possible that the problem will not prove solvable or fully intelligible.

The author of anything is not the creator; they are handing the trace of thoughts and ideas through their pages or speech using archaic elements that have greater meaning than can ever be conveyed by any writer trying to say something unique. We filter and allude to directions that paint unknowable pictures in others’ minds whose interpretation we don’t get to control nor how the thread will be continued. Everything is flowing through us, and the more of that everything we can grasp, the bigger the picture grows, while conversely, the less we know, the lesser a human we devolve into.

The creator joins the lineage of gods, shaping the image of history yet to happen as the contribution of interpretation and alteration dislodges convention and tears us from our moorings.

Surprise Visit

Jessica Aldridge and John Wise in Phoenix, Arizona

Yesterday around noon I learned that my daughter Jessica would be flying into Phoenix for a work-related reason and that she’d be spending the night with us. The exact message was more akin to, “Can you include me in your dinner plans?” She showed up after 6:00 and while I knew, Caroline didn’t have a clue so it was great to see her face when Jessica came strolling up the stairs after I led her through the nearby gate. Their conversation took us to the point we needed to close out the night and wish each other sweet dreams.

Come morning, we took breakfast at an old favorite place where the Triathlete and Quinoa Breakfast Bowl resonate in our smiles. Dropped Caroline at work and did what I do most every day, headed for my first coffee. Jess and I caught up until we could find a small spot in our stomach that said lunch might work and with that, we moved to a place halfway between coffee shop and airport. And then, after one of the briefest of visits ever, my daughter was dropped off at the curb of Terminal 3 at Sky Harbor right at 12:30 for her flight back to San Diego, California. What a nice little surprise.

Sunrise in Phoenix, Arizona

Sunrise in Phoenix, Arizona

It’s a gorgeous start to a Monday and to the week. The weather forecast here at the end of July suggests we can expect the next 5 to 7 days to all be under 100 degrees (37c) which is extraordinary. It’s 5:30 in the morning and as usual, we might pass a couple of other people out for a morning walk, maybe with their dog. Once we return from our walk, Caroline will call Jutta because it is her birthday.

Arizona Trail and Walnut Canyon

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

Wait a moment, weren’t we just here yesterday? Well, no. This is Walnut Canyon National Monument east of Flagstaff, but as we pulled up to the pay station, the park didn’t open for another 30 minutes. So, we turned around to check out the dirt road we passed, probably less than a quarter mile behind us which leads to the trailhead for the AZT, a.k.a. Arizona Trail. A couple of miles in, an oncoming bicyclist waved at us in a way that said, “Wait a sec.” He informed us we might want to think twice about driving down the hill as the road is rocky, and beyond that, it’s quite rutted. We immediately pulled over and continued on foot. He was right about the road condition, and it turned out that the trailhead was just past that stuff.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

On the trail information panel, we saw a number of spurs, but it was the Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon Trail that caught our eye. Only five miles with the promise of seeing lots of horny toads. OK, I just made that up, but sure enough, we saw more than a few of these horned lizards.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

Maybe it’s because we are only 40 miles (64km) east of yesterday’s trail (except that was in the Kaibab National Forest and today, we are in the Coconino National Forest), but things look quite similar.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

So, I will have to find what’s different.

Caroline Wise at the Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon Trail in Flagstaff, Arizona

Hmmm, she seems about the same as not always, but certainly of recent.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

Okay, narrow cliffside trail using switchbacks to descend into a canyon; this is different.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

Oh, a giant swallowtail butterfly; we didn’t see any of those yesterday.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

After hiking to a low point on the trail, we started climbing again, and while there were plenty of other photos of the trail that probably warranted sharing, we still have more than a dozen images that I’m posting below about the second adventure we’ll be enjoying today.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

The trail we are on is well-marked and well-defined, likely due to the fact mountain bikers enjoy the same path. I give it to those on bicycles out here as there are some spots where their vantage point so high above my own view triggers a good amount of respect in me for how close they are to some precarious edges.

Caroline Wise at the Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon Trail in Flagstaff, Arizona

There’s not a particularly great clearing at the end of the trail for a view into the canyon…

…the best we can do is grab a view here and there through the trees.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

Caroline was admiring these flowers and so at a moment, I hoped she hadn’t noticed I took this photo for her. The plant is known as purshia but is also sometimes called bitterbrush or cliffrose.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

This trail is not a loop; it is an out-and-back, and so on the way we came, we return.

Walnut Creek via AZT Walnut Canyon in Flagstaff, Arizona

When we left Williams this morning, the weather forecast predicted a 15% chance of rain starting around 5:00 this afternoon, but here we are, approaching noon, and the dark clouds carrying the rumble of thunder are just behind us, spurring us along.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

Just as quickly as the threat of rain came up, it passed, and after returning to the car, we drove into the National Monument itself and found ourselves on the short 1-mile Island Trail.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

Apparently, it’s been close to 20 years since we were last here at Walnut Canyon National Monument, though as I continue working through our old photos, I have the feeling I might stumble into a directory that documents a visit up this way since then, but who knows?

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

The descent to the Island Trail is 185 feet or 17 stories, but listening to those climbing the stairs, you’d think they were trudging their way out of the Grand Canyon. I know I’m fat, old, and highly opinionated, but just how out of shape are these people bragging about how tough the trail is and that they hope we have plenty of water (we had left it in the car)? Not that I would advocate that any of these other visitors do the same, but Caroline and I know where we are, and we had decided to suck down nearly a liter each before we left the car, so we feel well prepared for a short hour-long hike.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

This afternoon has us walking in the shadows of the Sinagua people. Sin is Spanish for “without,” and agua means “water.” After living in these alcoves for about 125 years, they left. We are fortunate to have the ruins that still exist here as, according to one of the placards along the trail, early visitors were not discouraged from taking souvenirs, and so in their efforts to discover what they could, some of the dwellings were disassembled and pillaged while cliffsides were dynamited in the same effort.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

Well, no crying over that spilled milk as it was a little over 100 years ago after visitors out west were busy destroying these old dwellings that Walnut Canyon was first declared a national monument, and then in 1934, the National Park Service brought these lands into their care to try stemming our carelessness. Now consider something: my paternal grandfather would have been two years old when Walnut Canyon became a national monument, and it was only 88 years ago when it started receiving proper protection; he would have been 17 by then and could have been one of the collectors/marauders. Think about it; it’s not all that long ago, and then consider our present bias that suggests that somehow we could never be that culturally oblivious, and yet, look at where we are regarding the mediocrity we are wallowing in and the abundance of stupidity we hold dear.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

The struggles of people who lived in this canyon likely had to do with real issues such as the availability of food, water, and aggressors who might want their homes and compare that to our whining about gas prices, the personalities of feeble leaders on both sides and our inability to demand any responsibility of people exercising their right to be as stupid as they want to be, including ourselves.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

Damn, I’m ranting again. Calm down, John; take some deep breaths and try to hear the faint echoes of people living in this canyon 1,000 years ago. Honor those who built this and called places like this home instead of ransacking everything in sight, adding false value to people’s perception of wealth. I really seem to be stuck on channel rant.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

The parking lot was nearly full; there were people everywhere. From the Island Trail, we heard the voices of kids and adults, and then, in a moment, everyone disappeared and went silent. I refuse to believe there was a sudden flash of maturity and respect for others of those out here with us today, so it could only be that the ancient souls of the Sinagua people felt our need to connect with their ancestral village and pushed the irreverence to the edges where they wouldn’t intrude upon us. Yep, that’s more likely than conscious decisions by oafish dolts with their half-wit families playing that they’re at Disneyland.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

As I said, everyone else disappeared, and for a good while, this was all ours to take in.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

These 275 million-year-old petrified sand dunes from what was once a desert reflect a cross-bedded appearance due to the dominant direction of the winds and how they changed over time. Above this Coconino Sandstone is a layer of the softer Toroweap Formation (shales from a calm sea), which allowed the Sinagua to build their home below the much harder Kaibab Limestone that acted as the natural roofs to their dwellings. A genius relationship where geology played a big role in offering shelter. By the way, these three layers are the top three layers at the South Rim of the Grand Canyon, too.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

Carbon from fires within these dwellings still exists on some of the walls.

Caroline Wise at Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

Yep, we are still alone down here, though we can hear voices from around the corner.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

Moving toward the exit.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

Look closely; there are eight people on the trail back up the cliffside, and to the left top, you can see the roof of the visitors center.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

Of the over 80 dwellings in Walnut Canyon, we are lucky if we can spot all 25 that are visible from the trail.

Walnut Canyon National Monument in Flagstaff, Arizona

When we reach the car, after a quick visit to an old pueblo and pithouse, we are approaching 10 miles of hiking for the day, and we are hungry. I have a hankering for a patty melt, and so we Google that. The results don’t feel trustworthy, but it’s all we have, so we head to the place with a 4.9-star rating and hope for the best. Over on old Route 66 is this small place called Proper Meats + Provisions; good luck finding parking, but if you do, you are in for an amazing surprise. Today, we had the greatest patty melts of our lives; they were that good. Time for a coffee and the two-hour drive home.