Can You See What I’m Saying?

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Around 195,000 years ago, a transmutation happened when an upright creature, a hominid, took one more pivotal evolutionary step to become homo sapiens. From then on, we learned to create better tools to hunt, farm, make clothing, and machines; we peered into the universe, formed ideas of our existence that would be communicated by stories we could talk about, painted on cave walls, scratched on to rocks, and ultimately published, distributed, projected and broadcast. But today, we may have approached the pinnacle of our mastery of the world around us; we may be entering the dark age of false enlightenment where devolving minds gain reverse acceleration via digital tools that end up hampering human communication and let us as a species slip back a rung on the evolutionary ladder.

Having all the answers and “knowing what’s right” is a form of hate that has infected much of what and who we are and is a vehicle delivering us to ignorance. Hate in the sense that once a part of a thing or idea is known to the individual we can dismiss and isolate the part that remains foreign and peculiar, that whatever we are unfamiliar with should remain irrelevant or even plain wrong. This casting aside is, in a sense, the same reaction we manifest when we hate something or someone. It makes us a small species. A sense of certainty that one’s own knowledge is adequate and succinct enough to make critical decisions without needing to listen to and consider a countervailing opinion is to not see the self-bound to an intolerance formed in part by ignorance to perceive or understand all sides of something. This assumed absolute certainty casts the individual into a mold that finds intellectual domination without inconvenient facts a mark of advancement and celebrates mental conquering through a verbal assault. The naive curiosity that took us out of the cave and beyond our minds to find what lay over the horizon, to float across the seas, to fabricate lenses allowing us to gaze into space is giving way to an ugly introspection caused by fear and an obsession with all things bad. And what we find are bad answers to trivial monkey-mind thoughts. When did the mind’s eye close and stop looking for the grandiose?

It came with our dependence on focusing our eyes on the TV screen. Although a cliché by now and a well-worn epitaph, the conversation was reduced to a one-way street; we listened to a box that could not hear us but lectured us, programmed us, entertained us, and made us afraid of what we could not see, while what we did see left us with the sense that “it” was out to get us. It – was the man lurking in the dark, the army in the jungle, the meteor that would strike the earth, a diabolical communist man with his finger on the nuclear trigger, or the evil bearded man in the cave with an army of martyrs – it was the thing that wasn’t like us, everything around us that wasn’t and isn’t conforming.

Do we try to cross the rubicon of intellectual confidence and the sea of encroaching fear? Far from it, we are enabling the further division of our sense of humanness by isolating this social creature. The internet was to be that bridge back to communication and sharing, which, at a glance, some will argue, has been just that. But I see these blogs, cell phones, chat, email, and online gaming not delivering a new golden age or a renaissance of communication; I see a golden calf hiding in the shadows, working to distance ourselves from ourselves. Our faces are buried in portable devices, hiding what might otherwise be read from our gestures, grimaces, pains, elation, and smiles. We laugh alone and to ourselves, as we are the only witnesses to the miniature window to our new reality. Surely, our eyes will mutate in a generation as peripheral vision becomes superfluous to our newly honed tunnel vision.

Speech is fragmenting into short-form writing styles in which humans of potential great communicative skill reduce their story to a 140 character text message. Brevity and an attention span equal to the length of the digital dialogue are seen as an advancement. Emails of two or three sentences now act as much as an entire letter would have just 20 years ago. A 30-second voicemail tells us all we need to know about where to be next and what to pick up from the store as we speed down the street to save precious moments so we have time to hit the drive-thru for coffee and dinner before dedicating hours in front of TV or computer screens because we are too busy to engage in exploring the narrative of good old storytelling. Not the kind of storytelling where we must sit around the campfire or the reverting to oral history as it had once been our historical form prior to the advancement of the written word. No, what I’m talking of is the idea that we can discuss what life lessons we have learned, what we might like to see happen that improves our station in life, and what our contribution to that end might be. Instead, we complain, cast aspersions, and gripe about how much we dislike the boss, coworker, politician, or neighbor, or we nod in gleeful agreement about how much we like this particular Xbox game, some new TV series, or these great functions on the next generation gadget, cell phone, iPad, or gizmo. Yes, there are places for these modern tools, but are they tools, or are they becoming prosthetic devices?

Our dreams are dead. We can not see that we are not listening to ourselves, each other, or the history we claim is the root of our faith and beliefs. When the lights of the electronic screens brighten, our minds return to darkness. When the best we can muster in a critique of what our minds have just been witness to or stimulated by is along the lines of a one-word rejoinder akin to, “uh,” “yeah,” or “great,” maybe our display of brevity is a symptom of a malaise of mind and spirit that is willingly crawling into the back seat of life.

Maybe we must reacquaint ourselves with an old instinct of survival. A forgotten instinct that time must be set aside to practice that thing that differentiates us from the other animals of the earth? We should ask ourselves, isn’t our real importance to maintain our ability to remember, convey, create, sing, yell, and whisper the story of who we are? Can we be content in allowing cell phones, web services, directors, news reporters, celebrities, and politicians to be the extent of how far a voice can be heard and find influence as it is transmitted silently on its invisible electronic journey to our eyes?

Look and listen to those speaking around you; do you hear the nonsequiturs? People cannot hear themselves repeat the slices of media speak and advertising sound bites that populate their vocabulary, giving a shallow appearance of being abreast of what’s happening, and they are not listening to you. They cannot hear you because the box does not talk back, and you are now but one more plastic box that can be turned down and off. People repeat what they hear because that is precisely how we were all schooled to do so. Didn’t we all begin with a mother asking, cooing, pleading with us to say, “Mama”? Didn’t your teacher ask you to repeat the sounds of the alphabet and work to convince you of the truth that one plus one is two? You have been conditioned to parrot and repeat. Where and when do you awaken to this? When will you turn off the TV, the Wii, and the iPhone and try to reengage your mouth to respond to what your ears are seeing and what your eyes are hearing? Can you ultimately be happy when your vocabulary is reduced to monosyllables and gestures of admiration for how great, fantastic, cool, or awesome something is? Are you yearning to hear and speak of what you know little of but might be willing to open your mind far enough to engage in a dialogue of exploration of your own history, beliefs, awareness, knowledge, verbal skill, and the potential or failure of our shared human future? I am.

Indo Euro Foods

Outside of Indo Euro Foods Indian and British grocery store in Phoenix, Arizona

Sonal is off to India today and I’m keeping watch for the next two and a half weeks at her store. Indo Euro Foods will be my home away from home. Lucky me, that my volunteer stint is only half as long as it could have been as Sonal’s daughter Hemu will be finishing another school year down in Tucson at the University of Arizona and will be taking the reigns beginning May 9th. The worst part of watching a small one-person operation is that there is no chance to get away for a short break, no leaving for lunch, and no being late or closing early.

Fibers Through Time – Phoenix

Sharie Monsam at Fibers Through Time in Phoenix, Arizona

This is Sharie Monsam who is a wonderful woman and member of the Telaraña Fiber Arts Guild in Mesa, Arizona. She, along with quite a few other people Caroline and I have in the past few years is in attendance at the biannual Fibers Through Time being held in Phoenix this year. Caroline and I are both on hand for different workshops.

All variety of fiber arts are being represented and even a few such as the bookbinding workshop I signed up for that are outside of that description. Caroline is here to learn how to make a bracelet using pine needles.

Other Side of the Counter

Customers from Indo Euro Foods British and Indian grocery in Phoenix, Arizona

On occasion, a friend of mine, Sonal, requires a little bit of help. Today was one of those days. Sonal had to take her mother for outpatient surgery and needed someone to cover her small Indian / British grocery store. Indo Euro Foods is located at Bell Road and 16th Street in Phoenix, Arizona, and opens at 11:00. It was me who was unlocking the door this morning as Sonal was running late. One aspect I love about watching her store is the people I meet there. As customers came in, there were a few faces I recognized from other times I’ve watched the store, and then there were some new faces. The first customer of the day was a man from Pakistan. We talked about his upcoming month-long vacation up near the Afghani / Pakistani border where he still has family. Strangely the next three customers were all from New Delhi. A man from Oakland, California who had picked up a taste for British chocolate stopped in, as did customers from Mumbai (Bombay) and the Punjab. You can guess from looking at the portraits above who was from Ireland – look for the clover. A regular and a funny guy I’ve gotten to know just a little came to America from Afghanistan, he loves Hindi films but rarely returns them on time. A real Native Arizonan stopped by; thirty years ago, when I arrived in the Valley, they were quite rare as it seemed most everyone in Phoenix was a transplant.

Maybe the most interesting customer of the day was 86-year-old Ronald Coach. Ronald is English, he left London in the ’50s after having survived being in Chiswick on September 8th, 1944 when the first German V2 rocket dropped on England. He told me of a friend who actually saw it falling from the sky thinking it was a telegraph pole. Ronald’s real claim to fame though is that he worked for Technicolor in the editing department back in England while they were doing work on John Huston’s version of Moby Dick with Gregory Peck. He lamented how alone he is these days with his wife now passed away and how infrequent it is that someone wants to hear the stories of an old man. Well, I loved listening to Ronald for the better part of an hour. At this little grocery, I have had many an opportunity to meet people from around the world. On any given hour I have filled in, I have listened to, learned from, and been amazed at the stories of people who have left Afghanistan, Iraq, Iran, Ghana, Bhutan, Sri Lanka, Indonesia, Zimbabwe, and all points in-between. Customers from across the Indian subcontinent come to Indo Euro for the flavors of home that our western groceries do not cater to, while many others visit the store because some time ago, somewhere on earth, they became familiar with English sweets or other Brit foods and are now desiring a taste that might bring back fond memories. Maybe most surprising has been the breadth of cultural backgrounds of people looking for Bollywood movies. It seems that even in the most remote corners of the globe people have grown up watching Amitabh Bachchan sing, dance, cry, laugh, kick butt, and grow older to become the most recognized actor alive. For more than a few hundred years, these lands first inhabited by Native Americans have become a land of transplants. I think we have lost sight on the whole about how great a nation can be when peoples from diverse backgrounds and lands come together to share and form new ways of seeing ourselves, creating a culture in which all these wonderful facets can mesh to influence, enhance, and enlarge a world view that is uniquely American.

The Kraut

Caroline Wise holding a quart of fresh homemade sauerkraut and a glass of sauerkraut juice

Cheers to the sour German kraut! I don’t mean my German wife Caroline, I’m talking about the stuff in her hands. On the left is one of seven quarts of homemade sauerkraut that back on February 23rd was just 8 heads of raw cabbage that I shredded and stuffed into a traditional ceramic crock where they would sit and ferment for the next 47 days. As the temperatures begin to rise past the range needed for successful fermentation, it was time to empty the crock and refrigerate this traditional German gastronomic delight. This is our fourth year of turning perfectly good cabbage into this sour, slightly salty, and super healthy food. In her left hand Caroline is holding a massive 16oz glass of freshly poured sauerkraut juice she is about to drink that wasn’t needed for the quarts we put up, in Germany, sauerkraut juice is a popular and powerful LAXATIVE, which is also high in vitamin C!

Arizona Wildflowers

Wildflowers in the Arizona desert April 2010

A wet winter in the desert portends immense beauty come springtime, and our Arizona roadsides, hills, and mountains are awash in a rainbow bursting with color. Wildflowers abound. Southeast of Phoenix, we turned East on the Florence-Kelvin highway. The pavement ends, but the dirt road keeps going. From the car, one might think they are seeing what there is to see, but we were proven wrong. Step away from the road, walk thirty feet or so through the cactus away from the car to surround yourself in the greenery of this rare occurrence of a lush green desert and you’ll never see that old brown desert the same way again.

Wildflowers and saguaro cactus in the Arizona desert April 2010

And we thought the flowers were great along the main road! Out in the middle of nowhere and between a bunch of rocks, carpets of wildflowers begin to stretch up hillsides. We pay no mind to the washboard road as we inch along, whiplashing our necks, craning first one way, then the next. Red dirt is kicked up by the occasional SUV driver speeding somewhere in a hurry, leaving us to choke on their dust. It never fails to amaze us how many people will not slow down and smell the flowers on their trek to reach a destination while skipping all the fun of the journey.

Wildflowers and saguaro cactus in the Arizona desert April 2010

Orange gives way to purple, and yellow punctuates it all as the backdrop of green and blue rides atop the weathered and cragged brown and gray mountains rising out of the sandy earth below. Saguaros are fat with moisture, their ribs bulging compared to dry years when the outside skin of the cactus draws tight on the inner skeleton of these giant sentries. Miles can pass where few flowers are seen; then around a corner, it is as though the elements have aligned and the sun is favoring this particular spot where up pop a thousand lupines, the fragrance of Cleveland Sage intoxicates the nose, and the coercion that forces you from the car has been executed perfectly – it is time to explore the desert.

Wildflowers in front of a mine in Kelvin, Arizona April 2010

Even where man has tried to move and strip the earth with his mining, the flowering fleeting intruder is determined to take back the view damaged by us. It tries to convince passersby that the world is indeed a more beautiful place that deserves to be viewed in awe for its potential to alter our perceptions. The sun begins to bear down, showing the teeth that will, in a month, clamp down on our comfort. This star of ours will fade these hues into various shades of tan and brown that will blend back into the sand and rocks, leaving a few fond memories in the mind’s eye of those who took time this spring to witness the desert’s rare display.

The road going east towards Globe as seen from the overpass in Superior, Arizona April 2010

Hunger and thirst beckoned; the impromptu turn on the dirt road earlier in the day saw us leave civilization ill-prepared, with no water and no food – big no-no’s when entering the backcountry. Now it’s time to rejoin the masses and the race to who knows where. For another twenty minutes, we’ll find ourselves still on the edge of suburbia, wishing for this spectacle of wildflowers to linger another month or so, but this is the desert, and this kind of show is nothing if not elusive and temporary.

Parry Penstemon pink bell flowers growing wild near Superior, Arizona April 2010

And just as we think we are leaving the zone of tranquility, one last round alights our senses with colors hitherto unseen this day. We are lashed with a fury of pink. The Parry Penstemon is blooming. Also known as the Beardtongue, these pink bells are the grand finale to a spectacular day of witnessing a sight few people of the southwest will take the time to see for themselves. But we did, and if you were so inclined, this would be a good time for you to treat your senses, too.