Los Angeles – Day 1

Fashion Institute of Design & Merchandising in Los Angeles, California

Left Phoenix a bit late for a trip to Los Angeles this morning; it was already 8:00. I didn’t have a lot of expectations for what we’d be doing today because the real reason for coming over was a concert we’re attending tomorrow and that’s all that’s really important for this quick jaunt to L.A. We made pretty good time getting there, and Caroline brought up that the Fashion Institute of Design & Merchandising, aka FIDM Museum, is only open on Saturday and doesn’t close until 5:00, so that became our destination. This formal wear was worn by the composer and pianist Johann Nepomuk Hummel back in the early 19th century.

Fashion Institute of Design & Merchandising in Los Angeles, California

The FIDM is free to visit with a small exhibition space, mostly used by the students who are studying here. In the gift shop, Caroline spotted a handwoven and hand-dyed indigo-and-white scarf that looked spectacularly good on her and so it became hers.

Los Angeles, California

We were somewhat worried about air conditions in Los Angeles due to recent hellish fires attacking the state, but as you can see here it’s a beautiful day to be visiting.

Caroline Wise, Jessica Aldridge, John Wise at Angels Flight in Los Angeles, California

Oh yeah, Jessica is still with us, though this was her last day hanging out. After we left the museum, we went wandering around with no plan at hand except to get some walking in after sitting in the car for so long. We stumbled upon the top of Angels Flight Railway and took the opportunity to finally ride this funicular down the hill. Obviously, we lived through the experience, but that wasn’t true for someone else back in 2001, when a malfunction had one train careen down the track into the train below, killing a passenger and injuring several others. This tragedy closed the funicular for the next nine years, only to reopen in 2010 and close again in 2011 for a month and then again in 2013 following a derailment, this time staying closed until late 2017. So here we were, acting as guinea pigs, tempting fate.

Grand Central Market in Los Angeles, California

Across the street from the funicular is the Grand Central Market, which must be the most popular food court in all of California. While we gladly accepted a free sample of a street taco, we had to forego eating anything else to ensure we had a large appetite for what was coming later.

Bradbury Building in Los Angeles, California

While my daughter lives just a couple of hours south of Los Angeles, she’s very rarely been up here. Seeing we were in the neighborhood, I thought she might like to see one of the more iconic locations where Blade Runner was filmed. She insists she’s seen the film before, but she’s definitely not as enthusiastic as we are, and so I’m gonna say this is checked into the category of remembrances in which she earned demerit points for not showing enough excitement.

Los Angeles, California

This was one of the first theaters on Broadway in Los Angeles – today, it is a rotting hulk. The Pantages Theatre first opened back in 1910, but by 1925, it started changing owners until, for the last dozen years, it was operational as a grindhouse-type independent joint. With all the million-dollar condos going up west of here, maybe someday this area will be gentrified too, and these old theaters could find a new use. Then again, why would anyone want to go out when they can watch their big-screen TVs in the safety of their expensive nests?

Talking religion on the streets of Los Angeles, California

Forty years ago, scenes such as this drew me into downtown Los Angeles on the bus over and over again without my parent’s knowledge. I was fascinated by those who preached, screamed, sang, cursed, or were putting their madness on display on the streets surrounding Skid Row. While much of the downtown area is going through a renaissance, there are still pockets where people can get their attitude on. These dozen angry men were preaching against the sin of homosexuality and bestiality. The sign on the right is admonishing white people to get ready for “Nuclear Fury and Eternal Slavery” for subverting the people of Earth.

Guelaguetza restaurant in Los Angeles, California

Out of the frying pan into the fire. We are at Guelaguetza Restaurante, known as the home of mole, where we will certainly be trying a sampler of their various Oaxacan mole flavors, but first up are the chapulines. You may have already seen in the above photo that I’m talking about grasshoppers. This is our most serious dive into eating insects yet. These particular hoppers have been cooked in jalapeno, onion, and tomato and are quite spicy. The three of us take a serious helping of fried bugs and roll them up into corn tortillas with Oaxacan string cheese, avocado, and a splash of lime. Other than the strange sensation when the end of the legs gets stuck in your teeth, these chapulines are seriously good eating. I’d eat them again. As for the moles, they were terrific, as was the dessert sampler.

Just as we were finishing up, I received a surprise phone call from Itay, and we set up a meeting at Aroma Sunset Bar & Grill on Sunset and Martel, just down the street from where Itay lives with Rotem. While I learned on the phone about his reason for reaching out, I left it as a surprise for Caroline until we met. Rotem is expecting a baby boy, due in April 2019. We spent the next 4 hours until midnight discussing baby names, dissing Los Angeles, talking about culture and discovery, along with their recent trip over to Hawaii for the honeymoon they never had after getting married. The funny thing about this chance meeting is that earlier in the day, I was complaining about how Itay never calls, and then when we’re just 30 minutes away from their apartment, he is dialing into our presence.

Trying to Find Something

John Wise in Phoenix, Arizona

In books, music, travel, nature, and, most importantly, my wife, I find the things that feel removed from the monotonous conformity of an American society that appears to be moving ever closer to an abyss of irrelevancy.

Yesterday, we voted to keep our heads in the sand. Today is the first time this year I’ve heard Christmas music in a public space. I move around a city where there is little to distinguish one corner from the next. No matter the business I visit, I will be greeted by the first victims of an education system that has not kept pace with our age of encroaching complexity.

I find nothing novel about life in the American city. The sense I have of broken people is running strong right now. We are no longer citizens of a shared identity called America; we are each other’s potential enemy. At one time, America was able to pit nations against other nations, and these new adversaries would battle one another. Today, our government has learned how to pit Americans against Americans, risking a conflagration that will allow the lowest common denominator of imbecility to demonstrate the extent of their rage against nothing besides their own personal failure.

In Europe, I’m ensconced in history. In nature, I’m embraced by beauty. With my wife, I’m enchanted with sharing love. While learning I’m enveloped in discovery. In American culture, I feel suffocated by aggression and the vacuous pride of those hostile in their rabid beliefs.

I’m taken back thirty years ago when Cabaret Voltaire sang “Don’t Argue,” which relied heavily on the words of Dr. Seuss when he penned the script for a propaganda film “Your Job In Germany” that warned occupying soldiers not to trust those around them. Then Mark Stewart and the Mafia comes to mind with “As The Veneer of Democracy Starts to Fade.” Finally, Test Dept with “Total State Machine” rounds out my sense of needing to return to the sound of rebellion and discontent. I’ll try and hold on to the hope that just as these English artists saw the same ugly situation devolving in their culture, they seem to have endured.

The problem here is that I’m now 55, and for over 20 years, I’ve been comfortable in the simultaneous oblivion and hyper-awareness of ecstasy, where beauty and love ruled my life nearly exclusively. Today, I am forced to witness the banality of a malignant horde that feels reminiscent of the failing industrial culture that was being choked out in the mid-’70s. Maybe the problem has always been the baby boomers. I’m looking for an escape from a generation that not only produced some amazing minds but also created the conditions of decay that see society taking two steps back for every step forward.

Grandfather

Herbert and Hazel Kurchoff Grave Marker in Phoenix, Arizona

I stopped at the National Memorial Cemetery of Arizona to visit the grave of my grandfather for the first time since he passed away. My maternal grandfather died on January 17, 2006. I’d seen him in hospice shortly before, which of course was a bittersweet moment in that I was able to say hi, but it was to be the last goodbye.

I have fond memories of the man that goes back to my earliest childhood. I still remember being on the back of his yacht at the Buffalo Yacht Club on the Niagara River in Buffalo, New York, on July 20, 1969, when Neil Armstrong stepped out of the Apollo capsule and onto the moon. Everyone was drawn in around a small black & white TV and told me to pay close attention because this was a very important moment that I should never forget. It got stuck there just as the shooting of Martin Luther King Jr did a year before on my birthday.

My grandfather owned and operated a painting business and as I bounced around between family members while my irresponsible raging young parents did everything they could to avoid raising my sister and me, he would take me out to his job sites and teach me to paint or help get things for him and his partner Walter Painter. I’m sure that wasn’t Walter’s last name, but that’s how I knew him.

Regarding Hazel, well, she and I didn’t get along. I never felt she had any love for me which looking back was understandable, as my mom got pregnant with me at age 14 had embarrassed the Kurchoffs. Their striving to be an upright standing part of the Buffalo social elites was made difficult by their daughter in her sophomore year of high school carrying the child of a blue-collar schlub. After I was born Hazel also learned that this man she already despised was also a violent person who frequently beat their daughter. My father taught me that her real name was Witch Hazel. The damage was permanent and even in her later years, her acerbic tongue and sneer towards me never allowed the wall to fall.

After Hazel’s death, in Herbie’s later years I was able to return the favor of hanging out and he and I would frequently get lunch, I’d take him for a haircut, or we’d go for a drive out somewhere in Arizona. A year before he died, his sister, my great aunt Eleanor, Herbie, and I took a two-week road trip over to Florida. Our mission was to visit some family I’d never met.

You’ll never know your favorite relatives as much as you would like to. The older ones, who we knew when we were too young and naive to understand the importance of trying to get to know them better, will likely be the first to pass out of our lives. Sadly, it mostly happens during our 20’s to ’40s when we are deeply engrossed in our own lives. Then in our 50’s, we start to truly understand the importance of deeper relationships that resonate warmly in our memories, but then those loved ones are gone.

The Archaic Among Us

Lament

How and why have we arrived at this crossroads in our shared history as a species? Our current difficulties, I believe arise from our reluctance to change as rapidly as our technology is pushing us. There is a large part of our population that is rebelling against their own better interests, as they are being left behind. Sadly, they represent a kind of Neanderthal past that has to go extinct, just as the real Neanderthals did about 40,000 years ago.

I postulate that our early homo sapiens ancestors saw the Neanderthal as a threat to their own successful evolutionary steps forward. The Neanderthal’s inability to innovate and adopt new skills might have been seen as an impediment to homo sapiens’ rapid move towards planetary dominance. The slow-moving subspecies of archaic humans, loathe to move out of their comfort zone of simple yet harsh existence, was a boat anchor. With the appearance of homo sapiens, a species had arrived that was keenly adept at tool and language skills about to redefine the natural order.

Are we again at an inflection point in our ascent where we must leave behind those unable to navigate the transition in our evolution? With a class of people among us talking of artificial intelligence, genetic and computational bio-medicine, autonomous vehicles, immersive experiences delivered by mixed reality, Mars colonization, and blockchain as a backbone for everything from cryptocurrency to contract and identity verification, we are exploring a fringe of human adaptability to complexity.

For approximately 200,000 years, humans were hunter-gatherers wandering around the savanna, looking for a meal. Then, about 20,000 years ago, we settled down to gradually become farmers, and with that, we were able to build communities and, ultimately, cities. Fast forward to a mere 5,000 years ago and the Bronze Age is upon humanity and with its metal and written languages appear. Only 200 years ago, the Industrial Age was ushered in with steam and telegraph, quickly followed by oil and telephone.

We are likely in the throes of the Anthropocene, where the world of advanced sciences must play a far deeper role in humanity’s lives. This age is a result of changes wrought by our destructive tendencies, and it will also be known for how complex systems came to shape our future and how we deployed our growing knowledge to repair not just the planet but our species, too.

This is where, in my view, our biggest problem currently exists, as a large part of our population is firmly stuck romanticizing outmoded ages where a blend of hunter-gatherer, farmer, and industrial worker is holding sway over their identity. Just how these fellow citizens who are our friends and family can be convinced to give way to knowledge workers who often seem alien may prove to be an intractable problem where our population has grown too large to assuage.

We are witnessing the destruction of the earth and its carrying capacity, and while we have the means to repair our centuries of mistakes, those continuing the devastation are hampering our progress to such a degree that they hasten the demise of ecosystems that support not only our way of life but life as we know it.

Externalities

From the Lament Series

We are quick to talk of externalities that we perceive are, in some ways, harming us or our communities. What I mean by communities is an amorphous and ill-defined idea that is more of a generalized lament for “all those” whom we do not personally know but “intuitively” have linkages to, even when they don’t live in our immediate vicinity or in our “community.”

Conversations swirl around ideas that baggy pants, video games, music, porn, too many guns, not enough guns, drugs, fake news, immigration, non-English speakers, narcissists, the one percent, the poor, the government, gays, republicans, democrats, George Soros and Hillary Clinton or the Koch Brothers and Proud Boys are the causes of our societal problems.

Who among us really knows what society’s problems are firsthand? I see a man in baggy pants once or twice a week at most, if I see them more often and don’t like it, maybe I should change where I’m hanging out. I don’t play video games often and I have a choice of what I do play. I love music of all genres, and aside from my teen years, I’ve never felt compelled to slam dance at the grocery store. I never see people acting out porn in public, carrying an arsenal of weaponry, or seeing my local coffee shop explode into a bare-knuckle brawl because there was nobody with a gun to keep order.

I feel bad for the young adults in the coffee shop nodding at a table from their addiction to opioids and wish there was help for them and that they’d had what they needed as children to not reach these lows. Immigration has brought me cheaper food, great software, clean hospitals for my sick relatives, affordable motel rooms across America, restaurant diversity, well-trained doctors, nurses, mechanics, engineers, architects, and a range of other workers, professionals, teachers, and entertainers.

The one percent go about their wealthy lives just as they always have. I hear there are more of them, but I don’t see their Gulf Streams on the freeway, their yachts in a local pool, or large tracts of land being sequestered by eminent domain for them to build their next mega-million square-foot mansions.

George Soros and the Koch Brothers have never offered me cash or asked for my advice. Matter of fact, I can’t see where their impact is on my life. I don’t feel gay, and at 55 years old, I’m guessing I may never come out, but who knows? Maybe the impact of the gay influence will take longer to work on me, though I think this is just me talking out of my ass. As far as right-wing extremism and, for that matter, left-wing extremism, I’m not for choking out anyone or flattening economies and choices in order to establish a perfect socialist state.

I’d wager that the majority of people would have to answer the same. However, I’m also certain there will be those indignant few who are feeling personally harmed by their perceptions that have become a kind of reality with an immediacy verging on panic who will take umbrage and inform me that I have my eyes closed.

How many of us look at ourselves and engage in such a vociferous dialog about our own shortcomings, biases, and attitudes that are creating the cages that close in on our outlook? I’d posit that most people somehow believe their opinions are on solid footing, and because they are the owners of their view, it is the correct one. Where did these outlooks take shape? When was the last time you took a hard look at a potentially outdated perception and cast it off as foolish and full of bias, maybe delivered by someone who was ill-equipped to offer us such a skewed opinion that corrupted our own in the first place?

So why are we choosing to wear the baggage of others who are pushing us to adopt unhealthy attitudes toward ourselves and our communities?

Maybe we have an inherent need to be outraged. Maybe it’s a mask that hides other aspects of ourselves that we are unhappy with. If we complained too much about our own shortcomings, I’d guess we’d find depression creeping in pretty quickly.

This still leaves unanswered what the underlying issues are that we collectively (to a large degree) believe are the problems in our society that are destroying the essential fabric of life in modern America.

I believe that the majority of Americans in this can of unhappy worms are generally dissatisfied with their lives. Don’t get me wrong, they may have great jobs, families, and opportunities, but something is missing. It could be that their jobs take them into contact with the unwashed masses of mediocrity and their fear of what is accepted as intellectual normal may weigh heavy on them.

Maybe people would like to tackle some difficult subjects but don’t have the income or time to learn a musical instrument, a foreign language, or how to be an electrical engineer.

I’m coming to believe that a large part of our dissatisfaction is about shortcomings within ourselves and the recognition that those around us are not going to act as positive role models and mentors. In that sense, the order of the cross-generational influence is broken.

Our problems in society are not what others are doing and not doing; it is what we are lacking and failing to do. This isn’t about happiness per se; it is about self-satisfaction. I don’t need to be happy as I’m well familiar that I have angry and sad sides too that also offer a kind of nourishment, but I do need to be human. Only when I’m in discovery and accomplishment, do I feel my most human characteristics growing and starting to shine.

Stagnation in constant lament is a downward spiral that will never offer us the opportunity to become. When we are distracted from the boring selves that take us into complaining about irrelevant things and exploring new horizons, we are usually taken by the moment and find that we are finding exciting new dimensions of our truer natures.

Our problems are not from those “out there” found in externalities; they are from the meek person within who is afraid to be bigger than the group’s anger.

Cultivating Mediocrity

From the Lament Series

Insipidness abounds when mediocrity becomes the new meritocracy, while banality can offer good standing in your local hate group. So, from the top of the system to the bottom, we can have goals.

Why are we cultivating these trends?

I always wanted to fit in, to be accepted, but I felt like I was on the outside regardless of how much I tried. Now I know I’m on the outside, and I no longer want to fit in; I want others to rise up from the muck of their putrid minds, shake off the stink of intellectual stagnation, and reinvigorate their humanity by embracing what has propelled our species forward for millennia, which in my view is the exploration of potential.

I’m afraid we are course-correcting the trajectory of advancement we’ve been moving down and that it may prove to have been too fast for the majority of our species to keep pace. After one hundred years of incredible technological progress, it appears that the powers that be are curbing our path forward. Instead of paving the way with policies that allow and encourage easy participation and personal development, we are harming the structures and institutions that have, in the past, been responsible for giving an opportunity to those who can and are willing to grasp them.

My opportunity to advance my own early education was wrecked by a system that forbade my overly ambitious curiosity and insisted I conform to my peers both socially and intellectually. If I wasn’t fitting in, I was in trouble. I was cast aside while those who preened themselves in blind subservience were elevated to seize the chance to attend the best post-secondary schools.

Maybe my socioeconomic background played a role, or maybe the majority in my community were simply destined for tertiary roles in society, and education was not deemed to be imperative. But still, my curiosity and desire for knowledge were bolting straight ahead; I just couldn’t tackle the mistrust of systems that seemed to reward cultural conformity and, too often, intellectual mediocrity.

Today, we look at designer medicine based on individual genetics and extol the virtues of this future form of healthcare, and yet we still force our children through a meat grinder that makes too many of them look and act like formless bags of gray meat. How can we consider a new practice of medicine that could treat 325 million Americans individually and not be able to start tackling individualized education for our children?

Did the experiment of enlightenment fail, or are we failing nature? When do we return to cultivating potential and stop the race into the depths of our own worst instincts?