Baseball

Spring Training in Phoenix, Arizona

I’m riven with anxiety triggered by latent agoraphobia. This situation began nearly as soon as I agreed yesterday to go to a baseball game with Caroline as part of what was organized by her company as an employee and family outing.

Tensions grew as I fell into the half-mile-long line of cars waiting to park. For a moment I relaxed, as on the walk to the entry I was nearly alone. Once in the park, I started having glimpses of panic. I’m in enemy territory.

Jocks, lunkheads, idiots, bros, angry old white men, skanks with enormous immovable blobs of plastic barely contained on their chests, muscle boys, the obese, and fanboys. They all add up to a menagerie straight out of the worst circus or theater of the absurd. Please excuse my unbearably biased generalization as I certainly am well aware that it is petulant and that many many people in the crowd do not deserve my ugly descriptions.

Instead of enjoying the show, I’m feeling that I’m being gut-punched by every Jersey Shore specimen of peculiarity that seems to be employed here as a kind of stadium mannequin just for that purpose. The display from the margins of society is conspiring to make me squirm.

Just as I get situated out in the grassy outfield resigned to my misery, an old friend drags me over the 1st row behind home plate. I’m in the belly of the beast and it threatens to consume me. I try looking at the players but my interest is running so negatively that I want to see anything else, except everywhere I look I see signs of baseball.

It’s the top of the 7th with the home team being crushed by the foe that also spends this time of year in Arizona for spring training. I collect Caroline who I’m certain was more comfortable with me out of sight as I’m not one to hide my disdain.

I do have to heap a ton of gratitude on Caroline’s employers as I believe these types of activities are great for company morale. Not only were we their guests, but they shared a generous amount of Salt River Fields Bucks good for food, drink, or merchandise. I cannot thank them enough for their effort and feel somewhat ashamed at my inner dialog of hostility. I last attended a baseball game in 2008 when I took my mother-in-law for the sole purpose of getting a photo of her at the event with a beer and hot dog. I tend to think that a large part of my anxiety was due to the fact that there’s a high likelihood that many in the park were of a particular political persuasion I’m not currently gelling with.

We are Neanderthals

Things in the Tea Shop

I feel overwhelmed by the awareness that we are squandering the resource of knowledge by pandering to a majority we dare not ask to abandon their primitive base nature. We are rewarding behaviors incompatible with a species at the cusp of ever-greater enlightenment. This is a burden that weighs heavy in my mind and upon my heart.

Every day, I witness and am nearly forced by proximity to listen to banalities that groupthink and pop culture have qualified as legitimate aspects of a mature human being. By and large, we are hardly an inch away from the worst characteristics of our distant Neanderthal relatives: we are warlike, brutish, wasteful, and barely cognizant of the fertile grounds we carry between our ears. While we are certainly capable of modern communication and commerce with the wider world and have specialized skills, the same may have been said for the Neanderthals in that they were utilizing their own advanced modes of communication that were distinctly different than those of their animal neighbors. They were likely aware of the extent of their world as far as they understood it to stretch to and practiced specialized skills, be it for raising children, going on the hunt, gathering food, or entering battle.

Strength is still the largest measure of power, with its manifestation being ensconced in physical prowess or in the ability to gather money and weapons to cast the shadow of overwhelming fortitude and superiority. As a society and species, we are marginalizing the better half of our potential found in caring, thinking, sharing, and cultivating a culture that has largely been relegated as being secondary to a perceived constant threat from the “other.”

We are once again warming up our vulgar, angry selves, the part of people that starts a war and hinders human potential due to the need to cull the lower classes, who may present too much competition for resources that the powerful covet. While these epic battles have the ability to lay waste to the combatants, they also act as a filter to hide the simultaneous removal of activists and intellectuals who would otherwise try to rein in the abuses of power and give voice to those who do not have one.

This has been repeated time and again during the thousands of years of our evolution, and rather than learning from it as we have from agriculture, writing, math, and science, we continue to nurture this primitive Stone Age person found deep within and take pride in putting it back on a pedestal from time to time.

Suspicion of the other still lives on within our species, and those who would encourage this mistrust by stoking the flames of xenophobia are most likely preparing for battle. To fan the tinder of intolerance and breed this volatility is giving context to the justifications that are about to be unleashed for the pretext of a solution that, in an instant, will seem viable to those who will be set up for doing the bidding of attacking the other.

We’ve seen this specter of hostility following World War II and the perceived threat of communism when we invaded those we felt were leaning too far left. Today, we are trying to contain our rage against Islam and those countries that are producing refugees. In both situations, we identified the evil perpetrators and collaborators who became the new targets, and then, while making maximum noise about their threat to the internal stability of the republic, we entered into hostile conflicts. McCarthyism and islamophobia allowed us to focus our existential anxiety on enemies outside our borders who might otherwise corrupt our way of life. Today, we are taking aim at liberalism and intellectualism by attacking social programs, the news, and those who would protect gays and immigrants and who might change our gun laws under the pretext that once these lefties seize power, they will alter our way of life. The primitive and angry solution would amount to civil war; even if the battlefield is in other lands, our crisis is right here within our own minds.

I had once believed that America would not have a black president in my lifetime, and so it is my thought today that we will not reach escape velocity from the anchor that is the stupidity of our own doing. We carry the tribe of Neanderthal deeper within than our relatively recent adoption of racial hatred. I hope I’m wrong that the primitive dolt inside all of us is not going to rule the day.

Words as DNA

Things in the Tea Shop

I have a theory (probably not original) that words and numbers are the symbolic DNA that plays a large role in our intellect and has a significant influence on our personalities. While our social environment and economic situation during our formative years also impact our character, I believe it is our vocabulary and ability to form complex strings of words that are likely shaping the path of our potential.

While the double helix strands of DNA are the foundation of the genetic materials that dictate our physical being, I’m suggesting that strands of words form our mental being.

If a young person is surrounded by people with a limited vocabulary and half-functional intellect during the early years of development, how does he or she find mentors to benefit from and get inspired by? If no such person exists among family, educators, or circle of friends, can we rightfully hope that the young person finds inspiration on their own? At one time, television shows such as Sesame Street and Mr. Rogers offered a one-size-fits-all blanket of conformity that tried to impart positive messages and improved vocabularies, but those shows have given way to apps that play on instant rewards, thus satisfying the dopamine wishes of the player, but rarely providing intellectual linguistic exercises.

If we had word games that offered more verbal play between the software and player, then maybe we’d start to see a general increase in vocabulary and, ultimately, in intellectual ability. The challenge would be how to involve parents to be part of the game or simply get them to start reading.

I thought I was done with this blog entry with the previous paragraph, and then I started thinking again about the roles of educators and was considering a teacher 50 years ago. They would have had a classical education without the influence of all-pervasive media. There are times when I’m listening to casual conversation in public, and if I don’t see the people who are talking, I can easily believe that the cackle I’m hearing is from some high school girls. Then I look over and see some youngish 30-year-olds, and as I continue listening I learn they are teachers. Their gossip is insipid nonsense that would have been of similar gossipy tripe when they were 14. Yet these are the people we have entrusted with raising young minds for the work of the future.

Education, I believe, will have to relegate its role of using people to bring learning to our populations to artificial intelligence that can be responsive to the immediate and near future demands of a workforce able to deploy greater knowledge. The very DNA of the intellect will shortly be forced to undergo a rapid evolutionary leap forward, or humanity will suffer the consequences of producing ever greater numbers of people ill-equipped to compete with smart machines.

Ginger Salad

Pickled Ginger for Burmese Ginger Salad

What a process this has been. This past weekend I bought more than 10 pounds of ginger (4.5kg) and by the time I was done preparing it I had reduced it to less than 6 pounds or 2.7kg. After peeling I had to slice it into very thin matchsticks and apply a generous amount of salt. I kneaded this for a short while and removed a large amount of water. Rinsed the ginger, salted it again, kneaded some more, drained, rinsed, and pressed as much water out of as I could before working through this procedure a third and fourth time. I finally added a cup (240ml) of lime juice and about 2 tablespoons of salt to the shredded ginger.

From there I transferred the spicy concoction into a couple of quart jars with loose-fitting lids that I  let sit overnight. Peeling this much ginger took me nearly 2 hours and slicing it took about 4 more, maybe 5. Pressing about a half gallon or about 1.7 liters of water from the ginger required about another hour. By shopping for the ginger at our local Chinese store I was able to buy the 10 pounds for only $11.50 or about €10.

After it sat overnight I had to squeeze as much fluid as I could out of the pickling ginger, place it in a clean jar, pat it down, cover it in peanut oil, and store it in the fridge. While it took about 10 hours between purchasing and preparation the luxury of being able to indulge in this delicacy cannot be understated.

This week we’ll be testing our homemade pickled ginger in the Burmese salad known as “Gin Thoke.” The last time we had this amazing salad was at Little Rangoon in Scottsdale, but sadly that restaurant is no longer here. Matter of fact there’s not a Burmese restaurant to be found in Arizona.

It’s Sunday

Heavily Annotated Bible in Phoenix, Arizona

The extraordinary peculiarity of listening to adults talk seriously about God and Jesus in public never fails to strike me as being childlike; forgive me for the overt condescension. How does the 30-60-something-year-old find the enthusiasm to speak so fervently about a deity none of us have ever seen? How can two adults, before eating a meal stop to pray? I know the answer is faith, but I can’t relate to religious people who are otherwise apparently well-educated.

When I encounter middle-aged recovering drug addicts or alcoholics who are finding themselves in the hands of God, I understand that they have returned to the emotional age of when their addiction first took root. Listening to well-off adults discuss their spirit and baptism sends me reeling that they are seeing themselves as rational people steeped in reality. These very same people are quite content being dismissive of other religions as fantasy but find it sacrilegious when others challenge their own flavor of holy deity.

Worse is when listening to a group of older adults carry on about a pastor who they didn’t gel with at church earlier in the day. Their disdain and sanctimonious tone seem to me to be the most unchristian of ways to practice their religion. When I hear god-fearing people dismiss the homeless or less fortunate, I wonder what part of their dogma their dog ate for breakfast. And when I think I’ve heard it all, I find myself listening to the guy at the next table tell a young person how he’s operating with greater spiritual maturity than the kid due to his greater experience through his relationship with God. The hypocrisy of these numbskulls is simply not constrained.

So much judgment, wrath, and pride among people who claim to walk with Jesus. Tragic that they cannot fathom their own ugly bias but are prone to cast aspersions towards someone like me who is comfortable in his atheism. Then again, I suppose all they have to do is confess their sins to Jesus, and they can continue their own wicked ways while I, not having accepted Jesus as my personal savior, will be forever condemned.

The idea of punishment on the astral plane seems to be a relic of primitive people who never really matured much beyond their childhood. This reigning spirit in the sky playing the angry father figure who will deliver retribution for our transgressions is probably borne out of a need to give weight to authority, as contrary or disobedient persons can be threatened with the holy father who has jurisdiction over their soul.

We are, to an extent an archaic people wielding the advanced tools of exploration which allow us to peer into our own genetic building blocks and have looked back in time to interpret radiation spreading through the universe that helps explain the origins of matter. Yet we persist in carrying forward dated mythologies with no basis in anything that resembles facts.

How primitive we are that we have lofted so much irrelevant meaning not only on the symbols of religion but on the very tools we use on a daily basis. Many a person find a kind of holy affirmation when acquiring wealth and use their purchases as validation that they have achieved something that sets them apart. The car, house, designer clothes, and jewelry are nothing more than accessories that humanity has given false value to. The intangibles of intelligence, passion, empathy, and sharing play second fiddle to the outward glorifications of the self. I find this to be one of the greatest contradictions of the semblance of piousness from those who believe. When do we as a species transfer value from the unseen symbolic spirit world and objects of wealth to the demonstrable actions that arise from our work and efforts? In the modern world, beauty is not only skin deep it is the totality of our reality.

Snow in the Desert

Snow encircled Phoenix, Arizona

Rarely have we been witness to so much snow right here in our desert home of Phoenix, Arizona. As the clouds came and went yesterday we were offered glimpses of nearby mountains that had acquired a considerably heavier dusting of snow than during the few other infrequent times those mountain tops were cold enough and the desert was receiving enough rain to make this magic happen. Today every single one of those clouds has moved on and we are under clear blue skies.

Snow encircled Phoenix, Arizona

I’d snapped this photo yesterday but it was heavily overcast and I never got to jot down a blog entry so I’m including this here to give an idea of just how surreal our place in the Southwest looked.

If I were a betting man I’d wager the snow will be gone by the end of the day, but for now we get to bask in the sense we had a legitimate winter that went beyond the temperature dipping into what most think is cold. Yet I’m still in shorts and my sleeves are rolled up, as it’s exquisite out here and while it’s a mere 40 degrees (about 4c) I’m enchanted by the beauty and the fact that it’s not 25 degrees out (about -4c).

Caroline is at a nearby workshop this weekend with one of her looms learning some other new technique. I dropped her off and after dinner will be picking her up. While carrying her loom into the lady’s house who is hosting the workshop I recognized more than a few of the women Caroline has gotten to know over the years since joining various guilds here in Arizona. Come Monday she’ll have three projects spread across her various looms, some yarn is developing on the spinning wheel, a pair or two of socks are on her desk, if I’m not mistaken there’s a backstrap project working somewhere, and she’s still crocheting her miniaturized version of the Canal Convergence artwork that she had worked on for the previous year.

As for me and the rest of my day? My mortar and pestle showed up last night (Amazon same-day delivery) and so I’ll be pounding some pickled green tea for making laphet thoke for Caroline and me next week (Burmese green tea salad). I need to turn my soaking sprouting almonds into almond milk. A blog entry I was editing yesterday for the fourth time still isn’t working for me so maybe I’ll turn to it. The synth is always begging to be given attention so I’ll probably allow its circuits to warm so I can torture some sounds out of it. Along the way, other things will arise to distract me, but so it goes on a Saturday.