A Forest

Ashtray

It’s not 1975, but if it were this ashtray wouldn’t only be filled with filtered cigarettes. Where are the snuffed-out filterless Pall Malls and Camels? If this were Europe there might be hand-rolled butts, if people used ashtrays when outdoors. This forest of butts represents about 460 lost minutes of work from the people who left the office building for a smoke. This doesn’t account for the ashtray on the other side of the building that had about an equal amount of filter trees growing in the sand. Then there are those people who hang out by the fence line, under the covered parking, or who pace and toss off their smoldering remnant of a cigarette onto the ground.

So in an office building with about 100 employees distributed across a bit more than half a dozen companies, I’d estimate that these small firms collectively lose about 20 hours of productivity a day. For these employees, they will encounter higher health care premiums and more sick days as smokers are typically sicker longer. Over the course of the year, they lose 218 days where they were paying people to go smoke. Just those days will cost those company’s about $52,200 not including paid sick time and insurance which, according to some studies, suggests amounts to over $100,000. That is the true cost of planting these forests.

Irrational Triggers

Earplugs

I have issues. Issues with others are more than likely actually issues with me. There are moments when I feel triggered for no great reason. This morning at the first coffee shop I stopped at it was after hearing the fourth and then the fifth Red Hot Chili Pepper song. The barista had tuned in to a Spotify channel that gave him exactly what he wanted, but the redundancy of the songs was seriously annoying to me. The funny thing is that I grew up listening to albums and often I’d play them multiple times. That was 40 years ago, and now I’ve grown accustomed to random playlists. Even 35 years ago, I was making my own mix tapes, and I made a load of them so I could try to avoid the redundancy of hearing the same thing twice a week. So, without having ordered yet, I packed up and left.

At the next coffee shop, I was again about to pack up shortly after arriving when the woman with her toy dog left. Then, I had to contend with the self-important macho blathering of the firemen next to me. The deal is that I never wanted to come to this coffee shop in the first place, as I know it’s busy in the morning, and I cannot help but listen to the banality going on around me. There are times my ears feel especially sensitive to the herd’s ruminations about bullshit, and I’ll either witness their descent into stupidity while I sit aghast in horror while at other times I must vacate the place out of fear that this special brand of doltish inanity could be infectious.

I readily admit this aspect of my personality is annoying to me. It is part of my road rage and a general sense of anger when I find myself at a loss for the sudden intrusion of other people’s hostility. I’m well aware of needing to find my inner zen, but the proximity of the trigger so near the surface of irrationality too often wins the day.

Time to order some earplugs.

Destruction

Notre Dame Fire

(AP Photo/Thibault Camus)

Burning in the heart of Paris the Notre Dame Cathedral is being laid to ashes. Today an incalculable treasure of religious and human history was gutted, ending future humans’ ability to witness large parts of its grandeur. The gravity of seeing the searing scars form on this 850-year old monument tugs at the heartstrings. I am one of the fortunate to have walked within this beautiful cathedral that could take the rest of my life to restore following this level of destruction.

It wasn’t even a year ago that fire destroyed Brazil’s National Museum in Rio de Janeiro, taking with it nearly 20 million artifacts stored in its neglected space. Then there were the Buddhas of Bamiyan in Afghanistan that were intentionally destroyed, thus denying others from peering into our past through that lens.

Part of me says none of this should matter in light of the data that suggests human activity has destroyed 60% of the wildlife populations on earth. It is possible that thousands of species go extinct every year. It is a tragedy that few of us witness our collective assault on nature while the visceral destruction of the Twin Towers, the Buddha statues, and now Notre-Dame allow us to make an audible gasp, as in a few brief moments we can see something we love disappear. I can’t help but grieve for all that as our actions and inactions rob future generations of the opportunity to bask in the accomplishments of nature, of which we are but one small yet highly destructive element.

Apple Wine Sunday

Caroline Wise in Phoenix, Arizona

Eleven years ago, June from Brown’s Orchard in Willcox, Arizona, a woman who ended up becoming a long-distance friend, gifted Caroline and me a few bottles of hard cider made from apples from her farm. Back then we were making regular visits, driving the 195 miles southeast to visit the farm and pick apples on those occasions that winter played along. We’d drag gallons of self-picked and -pressed apple cider back to Phoenix and freeze the stuff to enjoy over the ensuing months. The apples from that incredible variety of trees also contributed to the aforementioned hard cider and on this Sunday afternoon, 11 years later, our last bottle has proven to be as amazing today as it was then. We were a bit apprehensive that it had sat too long and had become vinegar, happily we were wrong. By the way, that is an authentic Frankfurt apple wine glass that would be familiar to anyone who has indulged in the traditional beverage from that corner of Germany. Thanks, June, for the fond memories.

Click here to visit the blog entry that detailed our very first visit.

Panic Writing

Starbucks

Yikes, just sat down at Starbucks and in 15 minutes I need to write something, but I have no ideas about a subject. The reason I’m in a hurry is that I must leave shortly to pick up Caroline from her office. So here are some random observations: One guy just ran in for the toilet. He was smiling on the way in and I noticed a bandage on his elbow like he had been donating plasma earlier. His backpack and state of clothes suggested homelessness, but not in the way that had me thinking he’d been on the street long. He emerged too quickly to stoke the imagination regarding drug use so I’ll let that go.

I see two students studying together, from the size of the books it looks like nursing school. An elderly couple is sitting in the soft chairs reading the newspaper; who reads the newspaper anymore? Across from me is a guy with glasses and full headphones with a large notebook computer plugged in, giving me the impression of a gamer, then I spot the game controller under the table confirming my ideas of pigeonholing him. Drive-thru is keeping the staff busy and a slow trickle of people continually enters the lobby, but it’s slow for a Friday afternoon. There’s a 65-ish-year-old woman sitting out front with short-cropped reddish hair; she’s overweight and reading a book about Berlin. I’m getting the sense of my mother sitting out there, except my mother is dead.

Earlier this morning, instead of writing, I was testing some website functionality that resulted in the owner of the company throwing $100 of free software my way. The guy is Michael Hetrick who makes VST’s a.k.a. music plugins. Years ago, while he was writing his thesis about modular software units based on Eurorack designs, I’d made a contribution to his efforts. Today he said thanks again and let me know that his gift was a token of his gratitude. I am touched by his generosity. Afterward, still before noon, I ran into Kenny from HEK Yeah BBQ at Costco and after completing my shopping proceeded to go to his place for an early lunch. While we were at Costco he picked up some rib-eyes that he would be smoking this afternoon, so that, along with some asparagus, will be dinner.

Currently, it’s a pleasant 72 degrees with cloudy skies while it was over 95 degrees and windy just two days ago. I’m about to turn down the computer after I hit “save draft” as Caroline will go over this for grammatical issues and ensure I’m making sense (not always a sure thing). With the computer packed up, it’ll be time to start our weekend as soon a the wife is in the car.

Got Nothing!

Black Tea from Starbucks

I’ve been working on writing five different things, but none of them are ready for the light of day yet. One is my version of a fairy tale, one is a dark piece, one about death, another on things mundane, and finally, the last one is a return to the subject of time. Regarding time, this is not a look at my usage of it or others who waste it; instead, I’m looking at the very nature of what it is. Then a hint about the entry on death: I’ll be considering how little I can know about it and that I’ll never be able to convey anything about it from my own experience in a blog entry.

Been dealing with a few dozen loose ends that pertain to many things in our lives as we get ready for summer, a kind of spring cleaning. Finished our taxes today, that’s always a relief. Then there are all the other things that need clearing out before any serious travels can commence.

Trying to get a lens that I’ve dropped repaired for the fourth time, this time to fix a dented front filter ring that is stopping me from attaching and removing a polarizer. It was just this past July that I’d sent it in to repair most of its guts as the auto-focus no longer functioned and some broken interior piece was causing serious zooming issues with the lens when we were in Europe last year. Previous to that it was a dysfunctional image stabilization system. If you think I should change brands from Canon to something else, you’d be mistaken. This 17-55mm f2.8 lens has snapped well north of 150,000 images for me and is simply perfect. That lens has taken photos in the wilds of Alaska for more than 30 days, it’s been weeks in the bottom of the Grand Canyon, visited Death Valley and Yellowstone where it encountered hot and cold extremes.

Today I received the first firmware update to the Bionic Lester MK3 that is really allowing the filter to feel like a real module. Sound in and out is a bit limiting, but with some modulation capability life begins to be injected into the thing.

Caroline had her hair trimmed today by Sydney who’s been taking care of these duties for nearly a decade now. I’m out this evening writing this stuff (look at the time stamp on the iced tea above) because the wife is out for dinner with her coworkers who are dining with a visitor that had come into town. The big news though which should probably be a blog entry of its own is that Caroline is starting to move the ball forward in trying to resolve her need for dual citizenship. You see Caroline is still a German citizen working with a Permanent Resident card a.k.a. the Green Card. There are reasons for desiring both German and American citizenship and maybe someday I’ll write about what they are, as of today it was simply getting some documents notarized for sending them off to Cologne, Germany.

So not a lot to share that has any real novelty. Some might say that has been true of many of my entries, but these are for Caroline and me and the digital memory that will be constructed by an A.I. in the future from these fragments. That memory will effectively be a shadow of me representing an artistic interpretation of a person born in the middle of the 20th century. Hmmm, I should write a blog entry just about that, titled “A.I. John and how the landscape turned digital.”