Self-Isolation Day 4

Wet Wipe

The collective efforts that are required right now are showing America that the individual CANNOT go it alone. As a matter of fact, we are complaining about those conditioned to their cores that they are on their own and that survival of the fittest is the ONLY game plan. And then, on a dime, they are not allowed to be rugged individuals anymore but must think of the impact they could make on others. Empathy is rising, the government is recognizing the need to support ALL people during this crisis, and our supremely efficient and greedy corporations that reward themselves and their shareholders handsomely are asking for our money to support their poor decisions. Individual people did not ask for this virus, and due to income inequality and lack of health care, they are rendered extremely vulnerable while our corporations and governments slice up a fat pie amongst themselves, all the while stating they couldn’t afford concessions to the weakest and poorest members of society. Who is thinking that the OLD way of doing things is just fucked?

There’s been talk about seeing the negative effect of globalization and that this will change manufacturing going forward. I don’t see how this will impact any of that. Prior to the virus, America had about 4% unemployment, and many companies were struggling to attract employees. If we were to attempt to create manufacturing jobs in this country, who would fill those positions? We’d need immigrants, but we’ve been building walls, letting people from South and Central America know they are unwelcome. While I think there are plenty of Americans, who’d like to welcome over white Europeans, who of them would come to a country without a social safety net? So we can dream of bringing manufacturing back, but that’s idiocy for a country that’s been pushed to the type of hostility towards others as we have now. And, if anything, we are going to have an even greater need for white-collar computer workers as we realize the importance of online shopping services, telemedicine, electronic medical billing efficiencies, and jobs that allow people to work remotely with the bandwidth and services they require. Regarding this last point, my wife and for one small example, could benefit the coastal economy of Oregon while maintaining work in Phoenix if we could spend time working from Yachats or some other idyllic place along the sea. This way, we would maintain two places to live, but if investors continue to drive the price of rentals up and hurt small-town economies, we cannot spend that time and money in a rural town that is too expensive and does not serve our needs because services are lacking.

All of this is about leadership and thinking that we do not have at the top of our government or corporations. I wish that Donald Trump would announce he’s not seeking a second term and that the Republican party would try fielding a candidate that moves them away from their neo-fascist platform and give first priority to working as a nation instead of a bunch of animals afraid they won’t get to eat at the corpse of the fallen animal before the jackals and vultures descend. We really have become a nation of idiots where WE are allowing our president to call COVID-19 the China virus because he’s a petty manchild reflecting exactly what his base is. This is not about liberal or conservative views; this is about humanity and the obvious position we are in right now, with an emphasis on WE.

While trying to shift focus to my hobbies, I can’t help but answer the occasional call of those who are concerned, and once again, I’m going over my observations and trying to share the positives.

In the meantime, I continue to scour the street for trash, and on my second monitor, I have the jellyfish of Monterey Bay Aquarium pulsing by in the light blue ether of their home outside the ocean as I look for something to soothe the fraying edges.

My exercise regime took a hit today due to some on-again, off-again rain we were getting, but still, I managed to get 152 active minutes squeezed into 16,800 steps or 7.82 miles (12.7km).

Self-Isolation Day 3

Blue sky and cloud

This isn’t a blog post as much as it’s a ramble of thoughts that streamed through my head today.

If more people could work from home, an electric bike, scooter, trike, or Citroën Ami might be adequate for the majority of a person’s life aside from long-distance travel.

Marijuana needs to be made recreationally legal across America right now, so businesses making edibles for the sick have products for anybody in need of pain or stress relief.

These days are starting to feel like I’m on Ecstasy as I want to reach out to everyone I know and make sure they’re okay. Until it turns into a bad acid trip where the green slime monsters of a different dimension start poking at my sense, begging to know what normal is.

Music might make a dramatic shift as the tone turns somber to reflect the grief that is about to enter society.

Movies and TV will have to change focus as reality is altering what’s important. What worked previously as reality TV and escapist movies will need to focus on how to help people heal. Surviving a stupid island challenge or wondering who’s going to marry whom will seem trivial and full of contrivance while people are recovering from losing loved ones.

Will art take on a somber air that brings our senses to the contemplation of things such as sharing, mutual responsibility, and how greed systems stacked a world of abundance in such a way that put billions at risk having to suffer great anguish while the wealthy could afford to isolate in luxury?

If you are ten years old, you’ve lived 520 weeks, 20 years old, 1,040; if you are 40 years old, you’ve already lived 2,080 weeks, and yet people are complaining about giving up 2 to 6 weeks in order to save those who are susceptible to the worst effects of the virus. Even those who survive but require hospitalization might never have a normal life after what is called recovery due to reduced lung capacity. I’m nearly 57 years old and have lived an incredible 2,964 weeks already, so 0.0007% of my life where I need to stay home to contribute to protecting others seems like nothing at all.

I hope we as a society do well during this crisis as the world looks to America for inspiration when we team up and win with our collective spirit, or else China and Russia will be indulging in our cake in the future.

Our leasing office has closed. How do people move during this time? They don’t. They are closing the gym and even the gas barbecues. I guess if someone can claim they got the virus from a community asset, then the owner or management company for the property could be sued.

People are still out on cruises; can they get home soon enough?

Listen to the sky; do you hear airplanes? Listen outside your home, is it quiet?

I find an immediate need to change my routine, starting with how I turn to the news, email, and social media first thing after I wake. My email informs me about the services I use that are closing or changing the way they operate. There’s some relief in social media thanks to a good amount of humor in my feed and useful information that pertains to my hobbies and interests but still has scare stories woven into it all. The news media is desperately trying to carry anything that is not COVID-19 related, but I don’t think some quarterback for a football team should be headline news. So, instead of a quick pass on anxiety-inducing stuff that carries with Caroline and me when we go out on our first walk of the day, we’ll just get going, and the song of the birds can help us greet our new day.

How long till the skies over your city return to blue?

Sadly, I think we’ll see a huge spike in suicide as people turn hopeless in their isolation and loneliness, questioning what the value of waiting to die is. Depression can be exacerbated by too much distancing, and with the news media now telling Americans that their neighbors are stocking up on guns and ammunition, how can people help but think that this is some kind of apocalyptic situation?

The granular obsession with outlier cases of sensationalist news must come to an end. Normal is not the carjacking, mass shooting, or home invasion. Those are tragedies that elevate random, infrequent acts of despair upon victims who must then endure everyone else in society being witness to the violation of their sense of security, happiness, or worse, life itself.

To everybody who’s ramped up or started making content to share with the world, thank you. My hobbies are a constant learning endeavor, so as more of that type of media is created, the more entertainment I have to distract me from scouring sources that trigger my curiosity to follow up on chaos.

I need a media aggregation source that I can subscribe to the types of information I want while bypassing advertisements, but also that uses my subscription fee to pay the producers for what I actually consume. Why is it still so hard to help individuals? Sure, I can subscribe to them on Patreon or back them with their Kickstarter or GoFundMe campaign. I can send them cash via Paypal or Venmo, but these in piecemeal will fatigue my desire to send money to so many individuals if I could have an account for $20 a month where $18 of it was split between individual content creators and not corporate entities then I’d be happy as a clam.

Today is not really Tuesday or a workday; it’s a day where the weather is happening, birds are singing, and people are walking and riding bikes. Strangely enough, it is also the first day that people out on the street are offering greetings as we pass. This is a day to take a deep breath, and look forward to taking another walk and appreciating how wonderful it is to have that opportunity.

Hey America, please stop throwing wet wipe sanitizers and Kleenex out of your car window. I’ve been out in our neighborhood for the past six months with a bucket and grabber picking up trash, but in the past week, I’ve seen an explosion of wet wipes and Kleenex. I guess people don’t want their own trash in their cars. Well, you need to stop because birds pick some of this up to build their nests, and if you’ve thrown something infected out your window, you need to consider what would happen if this virus was transmitted to a bird and then yet another even more virulent strain of this was to infect us. Be polite and stop littering RIGHT NOW.

I dare you to look through my blog. On the right, in my TAG cloud, you can click on Europe, Oregon, or Yellowstone, for example, to peek into my wife and my lives. Look at what our normal was. I don’t know how things will be different on the other side of what we are just now starting to maneuver through as a species, but I’m guessing it might not be the same. Over the last 20 years, we have been focused on finding a balance between the demands of economic participation and the treasure of not taking anything for granted. We’ve been asked many a time how we tolerate staying in a cheap $ 29-a-night motel but I feel that those people put more value on sheets and a shower than on seashells and shorebirds. All of a sudden, I found myself wishing for the ease of returning to our favorite place because it was convenient and easy. For the most part, the places we visit are never very crowded because the shopping or lodging options aren’t what people want on a vacation. The flow of a river, mist illuminated by a glowing sun casting beams into the rainforest, or an old lady tending her cows on a farm on the Great Plains are sights and memories that, for right now, only belong to us and are mostly inaccessible to the majority of humanity as quarantines are spreading.

People too often turn their noses up at the simple things in life. When Caroline and I talk about our culinary adventures with people, they recoil wondering how we could eat such things while they go on, never altering a diet that relies on the same 30 foods from a planet where, up until now, we’ve been sharing an incredible wealth of cultural and culinary riches. To be honest, I should be happy that our favorite places are largely of no real interest to the masses as when we pass through where they go, they leave a trail of trash and a cascade of noise as they effectively pillage a serene environment so it mimics their chaotic home life.

Already starting to work through our dried beans and smoked meats for dinner tonight. I made a crockpot concoction of Kraski Svinjski Vrat, which is a dried and smoked chunk of pork butt popular in the Balkan region, with beans called Grah Krupni Bijeli, which translates to Large White Beans popular in Hungary. I added an onion, a few peppercorns, and two bay leaves, cooked it overnight, and am enjoying it as I write this. So, while we can’t travel right now, we can at least enjoy the flavors of the world around us.

The granola came out of the dehydrator this afternoon after being in the machine for the past two days, and now we are resupplied with over 5 pounds of the homemade stuff.

Our pattern for homemade surgical masks has been decided on and purchased through ProperFit Clothing; it feels nice to support others during these times. Last week, I bought the metal twist ties, elastic band, bias tape, thread, and various tea towels and put an order in for MERV-13 air filters that I’m supposed to retrieve from Home Depot tomorrow. The filters will be chopped up and put into a pocket in the mask with a layer of carbon filter cloth that will let us get seriously close to something over 90% efficiency. The only problem is this pattern calls for a different type of elastic so we’ll have to venture into the outside world beyond our neighborhood; scary. Just kidding about the scary part.

Mission accomplished, but like fools, we dipped into Costco as my obsession with apocalypse tourism is seemingly unquenchable. Seeing we were there, I picked up another bag of Brussels sprouts, as there won’t be anybody hoarding those, and a couple of containers of raspberries. As for the rest of the store, OMFG, we must be within just a few days of rationing as it appears the system is being depleted. As we walked in, we were warned by a sign of what was out of stock, including the following: ground beef and most all other beef, pork, chicken, rice, flour, sugar, bread, dog food, and all the other obvious items I need not list.

It’s apparent that we are entering a quarantine mindset even though we are yet to stay home one entire day as I couldn’t help but feel like we violated something in even entering a store, crowded or not, and lucky for us, the stores weren’t crowded at all. Tomorrow, we’ll once again be out as Caroline has an early appointment at the dentist to get a permanent crown fitted; such is the life of self-isolation when you live in a city that hasn’t forced the issue yet.

Went walking for 17,851 steps or 8.3 miles (13.4km), which today worked out to a healthy 140 active minutes. Finally, time for some chilling out to the soothing therapy offered by watching Baumgartner Restoration work on conserving the seascape painting by Henry Ranger titled Blue Skies Smilin’ At Me.

Self-Isolation Day 2

Toilet Paper

This is a bumpy process because we keep finding reasons to go out. I’m not complaining as I realize that those who moved from normal to lockdown in a night must see some incredible disruption when they find those simple things they need have all of a sudden moved beyond reach. This morning, Caroline ran into an issue with her company notebook that insisted on performing an update, rendering the computer unable to connect to her office. Her work analyzing medical billing claims for fraud comes with strict HIPAA restrictions and a ton of security; not being able to log in means not being able to work. Off we went to drop her at the office while my business partner and I decided to use the opportunity to get coffee at a local shop that, up until a week ago, had no parking and no seating available; it was so busy. Today, we sat outside while gloved baristas, after wiping down touch surfaces between orders and even changing gloves between customers, were obviously trying to do the right thing to alleviate anybody’s worry about the virus, as much as that’s possible in these circumstances and the place hardly had 15 customers.

Getting home, I went for something from the freezer and saw that some things were sweating as though the freezer was malfunctioning; definitely not the right time for it to bail out on us. I turned it up and vacuumed everything from the underside that I could get to and from the rear, including the fan and compressor. My fingers are crossed. My worry stems from the situation that things seem very fluid where we live as management is sending out near-daily missives about using facilities, packages that won’t be accepted at the front office, and limits to when maintenance will enter an apartment, meaning the issue must be an emergency.

The news of the day feels heavy and grim. The larger pattern portends a great struggle for society to maintain its bearings when so many people are handicapped by anger issues and disadvantages after America’s 40-year experiment of cultivating mediocrity. The stress that surrounds many of the issues we are facing is being exacerbated by poor decisions from the top of our government, or so it seems to me. On the one hand, by taking a glacial approach to shutting down society, the fires of immediate panic may be beaten back, but the ambiguity of how the individual without savings and job security will fare is causing empathy within me and raises my anxiety similar to when I see someone on the precipice of a great height, which triggers my vertigo.

Dishes, lots of dishes all of a sudden, as we take all of our meals at home. For dessert tonight, I’m feasting on the incredible cool news about this Facebook group that already has 6,000 members sharing open-source designs for making ventilators, respirators, and equipment that can be fabricated in emergency conditions on 3D printers. America has a serious shortage of those life-saving devices, and this effort outside of the insurance and medical industry is one of the first seriously amazing bits of great news I’ve seen in a week.

There was other good news as I read about the four volunteers in Seattle who received an experimental vaccine for COVID-19. Brave people.

Meanwhile, across the street from where we live, a guy has set up shop selling toilet paper from the back of a truck. This was today, during which I also covered 18,000 steps or 8.35 miles (13.5km) and 116 minutes of activity.

Self-Isolation Day 1

Clouds over Phoenix, Arizona

That breakfast we skipped yesterday took us out of our isolation nest this morning as we got out early to ensure there was nearly no one else in the place. Being regulars, we know that customers don’t really start showing up until about 7:00, and we knew we’d be gone well before that. We tipped one of our favorite servers the equivalent of about six weeks’ worth of tips in cash so she’d have access to it right away instead of having to wait for payday. We told her we hoped to see her in a couple of weeks, but who knows? Before we left, she let us know that as a single mom with three kids earning about $18,000 a year and being notified a week ago that she was being audited by the IRS, which would delay her refund by six weeks to six months, she’s in a serious pinch right now. Our generosity brought her to the edge of tears.

Oh, how I’d like to share that we went directly home after this outing so we could get serious about planting ourselves, but of course, there were “just” a few other things I wanted. You may ask, seriously, John, were those raw pumpkin seeds really that important? I have this perfect balance of things in my head for making that granola I wrote about yesterday, and while I maybe could have substituted hemp hearts, I thought if we arrived at the store early enough, we could top up our pumpkin seed supply. You know that movie World War Z with Brad Pitt, where the zombies are trying to scale the wall? That’s almost what the scene at our local Winco was, as they opened the doors at 7:00. We were pulling into the lot as a horde swarmed into the store in about 4 seconds. So, while I knew what just happened, the parking lot wasn’t so full that I thought the store was overwhelmed yet, so we went in. No pumpkin seeds in the bulk section, so we grabbed some additional oranges, limes, lemons, tomatoes, avocadoes, and nail polish and remover so we could paint each other’s toes.

So we stayed home after that, right? Of course not. Caroline was helping a friend empty a storage unit and move its contents to another unit down the street. We left early so we could visit our local Balkan Bakery on Bell Road for some kefir and left with a beef burek and a chunk of some mystery smoked meat that is supposed to add a nice flavor to beans. With the wife getting a ride home from her friend, I was once again heading to isolation.

On my way home finally, it dawned on me that yesterday we had wanted to stop at the Euro Market on Cave Creek Road for kefir, but we already have some. What’s one more, especially if I dump the goat kefir that Caroline hasn’t been enjoying anyway? In this shop and seeing some interesting large white beans, I scoured the joint for some kvas but the lady didn’t even know what the stuff was. I know; I’ll try Misha’s on Union Hills. They don’t carry it anymore as they’ve changed their market focus by becoming Misha’s Kosher Food Market, but Misha recommended I visit his brother’s shop on 32nd Street called Yasha From Russia. Not wanting to leave Misha’s empty-handed I picked up some kosher stuffed peppers, stuffed cabbage, smoked sprats, and roasted eggplant in tomato.

At Yasha’s, I’m kind of tripping out by the Russian hipster guys with undercuts, seriously tight red pants, and tight red shirts talking Russian to me; maybe they think that by carrying a bottle of Kvas I’m some kind of Gopnik in the making. I try to tell them it’s for my wife, but they then ask if she’s Russian, “No, she’s German, but she’s serious about transforming into a Gopnitsa after watching too much Life of Boris.” They have no idea what I’m talking about. With that, I went home and arrived just after Caroline did.

We made it nearly an hour at home before it was time to go for a walk around the block. For the past few days, I’ve not been cleaning up the path of our walk as I had been since November 1st, as our 5-gallon bucket has been full of rainwater we collected while things were torrential here recently. The bucket of water has now been depleted after Caroline drenched her cactus and other plants. Over these previous four and a half months I’ve picked up something around about 1,000 pounds of trash. Lately, though, I’m seeing an abundance of wet wipes and tissues as people wipe down their COVID-infected surfaces and then toss the contaminated shit out of their windows.

The neighborhood is back in sanitary equilibrium, except for the constant dogshit that blights our walk. So it goes. Time to make granola. An hour later, my almond, walnut, pumpkin seed, sunflower seed, flaxseed, oat groat, and oatmeal granola is mixed with eucalyptus honey, coconut oil, homemade vanilla extract and put into the dehydrator for the next two days.

On to making dinner, though by this time, I’m ready to go out and maybe get some Mexican food. Who am I kidding I’ll certainly not be heading into a restaurant during their busiest part of the day, but some Mexican food sounds really good right now. After dinner, you might guess that we will be out for our next 1-mile walk around the block, which will take us both over 6 miles for the day.

While I toil in the kitchen, Caroline doesn’t sit idly by; she’s been working on her sewing machine to finally make our new pillowcases. Last November, while in Oregon, we picked up some seaside-themed cloth, and now we’ll be sleeping on those so we can dream of one of our favorite places on earth. Our step and activity goals were similar to yesterday’s, with us clocking up just over 15,000 steps or just over 7 miles (11.4km) and 105 minutes of activity.

So this has been the blow-by-blow rundown of the majority of our day. Like clouds, we just keep moving.

Self-Isolation Day 0.5

Detour

This was supposed to be Day 1 of self-isolation from the COVID-19 virus, but after reading a couple of things today on the Center for Facebook Control site (CFC), I decided my earlier panic shopping wasn’t enough and that we needed more of everything else that we’ve already stockpiled. Of course, toilet paper, pasta, chicken, dried beans, rice, soup, peanut butter, oatmeal, water, sanitizer, and pretty much any other soap or Clorox product is off the list, along with most bread products, frozen veggies, pizza, potatoes, and hamburger. Via the CFC network, I learned that vegan and gluten-free products were readily available, and we’d decided that we seriously needed ziplock plastic bags so we had to break our own quarantine.

I’ll admit that the whole thing was a half-assed attempt anyway: we thought we’d visit a local breakfast place and leave one of the servers a healthy tip as we’d not be back for a couple of weeks, but by 6:30 in the morning we figured we’d beat the crowds by getting out to the store early. Hah! That was a mistake. Fry’s was already out of shopping carts, and only the self-checkout lines were open as they had everyone else restocking shelves from the carnage from the night before. They opened at 5:00 a.m., and by 6:40, when we arrived, the lines were to the back of the store and reportedly 4 hours long. Nope, there’s nothing we needed that badly.

Maybe Safeway is a better bet as it’s the Dasani of grocery stores. Walked right in and easily bought more of the stuff we already had. I’ve got to say that being flexible in what we eat has made our shopping lives during the pandemic much easier. By the way, I don’t know when Dasani became associated with something negative but we’ve seen stories where water is sold out everywhere, except for Dasani. I still wanted a bit more Silk Soy Milk for my sprouted and dehydrated homemade granola (still working through our Y2K supply), so with Safeway sold out, we visited our nearby Albertson’s, where I can rest assured there are no neighbors who’d dare drink almond, cashew, coconut, soy or any other plant-based milk; I scored.

We have one more outing to make to a local Indian store where I need to replenish our spice supply, as these 20-year-old soy chunks likely need some serious seasoning to make them palatable. In nearly celebrating this culinary edgelord status, I should give my wife Caroline a lot of credit as when she went vegetarian 25 years ago; I found it to be a real pain in the ass. Now, today, I’m happy as a vegan clam that we can eat from the fringe and be happy. These days, Caroline is once again an omnivore and certainly loves her pork, but when pressed by the threat of full indulgence or getting by while we live in this self-imposed isolation until it’s forced upon us from outside sources, we know that we’ll be living it up while others are forced to eat toilet paper and Lysol wipes.

Well, turns out, local Indians are not immune to the panic shopping as the Turmeric Cash & Carry was a mob scene and about two hours away from being sold out of most everything. Signs were up everywhere, warning people that NOTHING could be returned. Caroline took a place in the line while I went and grabbed some turmeric, cumin powder and seeds, mustard seeds, coriander powder, some Kala chana, and chana dal. After I got the things I wanted, it was Caroline’s turn to run through the crowded aisles; she returned with snacks and sweets. We were still about 20 places from the register, but things moved fast.

Across the street, at the Balkan Bakery, where we were hoping to indulge in some cevapi and pick up a bottle of kefir, we found a sign in the window that they closed early because they were sold out. Needing something to eat before our last chore, we visited HEK Yeah BBQ, sitting outside to minimize proximity to people because our time at Turmeric was kind of stressful. Over to Joann’s for some thread, bias tape, sewing machine needles, and a bit of yarn. With our charcoal-lined tea towel, elastic bands, and wired ties, and the stuff we picked up today Caroline will be making our homemade surgical masks. After doing a bit of research, it turns out that cloth masks can be close to the efficiency of commercial surgical masks. While not N95 levels of protection, since when is 85% as efficient better than ZERO percent effective?

Now we’re home. Our detour away from our first day of self-isolation is complete, and now we have to hang out together 24/7.

Uh oh, we forgot to get a TV. Hah, fooled you, as we’ve not had one of those in the 21st century. Instead, we sit on our computers reading every horror story about the virus we can find so we can better secure our fear of the giant unknown. Okay, that’s not true. We did get some serious walks around the block, with me clocking in just under 7 miles (about 11km) or 14,541 steps, giving me 105 active minutes for the day. I’ve started this journal of how things evolve in our new routines where, hopefully, in a couple of years, we can look back at these notes and the global anxiety that has arrived with 2020 and be happy that it came and went.

Apocalypse Tourism

Flowers

Vigilant about what I touch and how close I am to people I’ve taken to strolling the aisles of stores to be a first-hand witness to how this rapidly evolving apocalypse is rolling out. Being a tourist in order to see with my own eyes the behavior and effect all of this COVID-19 business is having on people can be kind of heavy-duty emotionally. Back on Tuesday the 10th, while making my twice daily visit to Costco to investigate the progress, it was the most somber day as older people had gotten the message to stock up on food since they are the most vulnerable. The achingly painful look of grief was writ large on many faces as they stocked up on supplies that were quickly dwindling. If you are over 60 or even approaching that age, staring into the face of your mortality is going to be an incredible weight on most people’s minds.

My new form of tourism has rapidly grown depressing, so I needed to go for a walk and take delight in our Arizona Desert that is stunningly beautiful, following all the rain we’ve had.