Surface Data

Close up of Monome Arc

Blinking lights, knobs, shiny jacks, switches, buttons, tiny print, crazy characters, screens, and storage are just some of the parts of what makes a Eurorack synthesizer. Nearly every day, I turn on the machine next to me and am simultaneously dazzled and baffled by its beauty and complexity. Adding stuff to it becomes an obsession while learning its myriad functions can be mind-numbingly frustrating in part due to a certain obtuseness inherent in the beast and, on the other hand, because the larger the system gets, the more difficult it is to truly know all of its parts.

So, while I stand in awe of the synthesizer I’ve assembled from dozens of modules emanating from creators from around the planet, I also study the undeniable visual appeal of this contraption. I’m certain I’ve made decisions on acquisitions that were probably influenced to a greater degree by the aesthetics of a device rather than what its ultimate purpose might end up being. I justify this by convincing myself that regardless of why it is here, I am now committed to finding the angle to make the purchase integral to my larger goal.

This blog entry, as much as possible, will look at but a few of the user interfaces I play with every day. Not the overall design or the totality of functionality that a particular module might be capable of, but a peek into the surface of this synthesizer.

Featured above is a device that is not mounted within my rack, such as the modules that will follow. It is a recent buy that I luckily found on the used market as they are a rare find these days. You are looking between two knobs of the Monome Arc. This four-knob precision interface does require a module to be mounted in the rack called an Ansible, and with it, I can manipulate control voltages and gates that communicate with other modules within my configuration. This also brings me to Monome, the company that makes the Arc and Ansible, and how they have altered how we use surfaces and data to tease out of the machine the sound and functionality we are trying to discover. Monome also makes another control surface called Grid, which is now able to interact with the Teletype, also a Monome design  By connecting a computer keyboard to the Teletype (not pictured) we are able to use a scripting language to “talk” with other modules within our system in ways that had not been previously possible. The point here is not to sell you on Monome or write sales copy endorsing their brand; it is to point out that the systems around these synthesizers are still evolving, and while the ubiquitous knobs and jacks are ever-present, how we manipulate these elements is open to interpretation.

Pamela's New Workout from ALM

The feedback loop of information is presented in many ways to the Eurorack user, such as using lights, as seen on Pamela’s New Workout from ALM. Lights can be color or brightness-coded, and some offer feedback to the user based on how fast or slow they blink. These visual clues allow the user to gain an understanding at a glance, for example, whether the voltage leaving a jack is negative or positive, which might be represented by a red or green light. If a light is dim the voltage might be low and brighter when the voltage is running high. The blinking frequency might represent clock pulses that are determining tempo or could be offering info about how long a gate is open.

Piston Honda MK3 from Industrial Music Electronics

More and more modules, such as this Piston Honda MK3 from Industrial Music Electronics, are offering SD Card access. While function varies between manufacturers, we are able to better interact with device information, the ability to update firmware, save presets, or load custom sound files. Often this storage gives the user greater options and ease of use that wasn’t previously available; then again, when all synthesizer modules were analog, and musicians only needed to patch inputs and outputs while adjusting knobs, that wouldn’t have been an issue. With the rise of digital modules and greater complexity, there are those who may prefer simpler times, but there is a burgeoning world of enthusiasts embracing the options where a module’s functions may not be set in stone.

TXi from BPCMusic

As new modules become available, it can become apparent to users that the functionality of a device and, hence, how information is exchanged can be altered from what the original developer had intended. At that point, the would-be creator will have to embark on a learning journey that will take them from the circuit design of the new complementary module to the distributors of buttons, knobs, and jacks, along with PCB manufacturers and the overall specifications of the Eurorack standard itself. Knobs and the pots they are mounted on all have a particular look and feel, and it is up to the artist to balance their critical engineering minds on how something will ultimately be presented to the consumer. Knobs that are difficult to use, too tight to easily turn, or too loose that, when bumped, send a signal out of control have to be evaluated regarding their utility to the user. The knobs of the modules above belong to the TXi, which is a companion module to the Teletype and created by BPCMusic. Once Brendon Cassidy, who is the founder of BPCMusic, saw that using a rarely used protocol called i2c that the Monome Teletype takes advantage of, he could create a module that not only offers interface options from the knobs and jacks upfront but could also use a backchannel found in i2c to talk with the Teletype and extend an ecosystem of communication that would make the sum of the parts much more valuable. In this sense he not only allows us, users, to interact with the data moving between patch cables, but he’s also pushing things further by taking advantage of subsurface data transference.

Euclidean Circles from VPME

How to shape the complex into easily readable visual information was the angle that Vladimir Pantelic of VPME over in Germany was exploring. Back in 2004, Godfried Toussaint discovered Euclidean rhythm and wrote a paper that described the division of beats to the most equidistant distribution possible and that, with modifications, you could bring up almost all of the important music rhythms celebrated around the globe. What Vladimir brought to this are light-emitting rings where different colors will show the musician which steps or beats are active in a module called Euclidean Circles. This module allows the user to dial in various rhythms and then determine the best distribution following the Euclidean formula. Also, while there are just three rings, there are, in fact, six possible outputs with the push of a button, the user can change the color of the knobs and rings, which then denotes the second channel of three outputs. So here we see a very complex music theory that was only recently discovered and offered to the music-creating public in a relatively easy-to-use device that, while still somewhat complex, does a great job of bringing the data of operations to the surface where a quick glance can show the user a wealth of information.

Precision Adder from Doepfer

Though some would argue that a mere two or three modules can represent insurmountable complexity that stifles their ability to make music while they are bogged down just trying to understand signal flow, there are many clues on the face plates themselves that offer information for deciphering their utility. Take the Doepfer Precision Adder pictured here (by the way, to the left of the Doepfer is a variation of the Precision Adder created by Vladimir mentioned above) the arrows on the panel show the cascading effect of the voltage while the switches show the user negative, neutral (off) or positive inclusion of the voltage that enters the module above and exits below after being added to, subtracted from, or not affected at all.

Belgrad Filter from XAOC

In the world of flowing audio and voltage signals, there are seemingly infinite worlds of possibilities to alter this potential cyclone of swirling electricity and sound. Variations of signals at times require minute changes to what is coming into the module. Switches might allow for coarse or fine-tuning of what the knobs will be modulating. Other signals that can have an impact on the overall sound or voltage might have color-coded knobs that are tied to sliders or will have lines drawn on the panel pointing to something else that it is helping modulate. By having this wide variety of knob shapes, switch types, sliders, screens, and button types, the users can hone in after memorizing some of the color and module orientation specifics and allow them to build muscle memory of what does what and with a quick glance move to selecting the modulation source that best suits their need. Xaoc Devices out of Poland makes this Belgrad Filter using the red and black motif as a branding theme with modules that often have a design sense of being from a previous industrial age.

ER-101 from Orthogonal Devices

With the advent of digital modules not only did we get SD Cards for extending our storage capability, but we also started getting display screens. While musicians had an approximate idea of what value a slider or knob was delivering in the days of purely analog gear, in this age where fractions of voltages dictate whether a note is a C2 or C# in the same key, having precise display values is invaluable. Here the layout of LEDs, buttons, and knobs have been strategically laid out in consideration of how much information the hand might otherwise obscure. With a lesser design that does not take into account the importance of being able to easily see and understand what the musician is affecting, a poor user experience can ruin the potential popularity of the creator’s invention.

Consider that these modules in Eurorack are only 128.5mm in height or about 5 inches, so there is a limited amount of vertical space to place controls and feedback information. If modules spread out and get wider, that can impact the number of modules the user is able to effectively have in front of them and could reduce some of the utility. The module above is the ER-101 Indexed Quad Sequencer from Orthogonal Devices in Japan. Brian Clarkson is the creator and sole proprietor of this amazing, compact, and well-thought-out design. For this level of complexity and sophistication, the user can expect to pay a premium, and that’s only when the modules are actually available from this one-man show. Reading Brian’s forum on his website can be incredibly insightful as he has discussed design and layout considerations that have influenced him. Not only that, he is in an active conversation with his community of users, talking about functionality and how to improve operations from a technical viewpoint, but also the flow of information that moves through his modules.

Octocontroller from Abstract Data

Lights and columns are other methods of conveying pertinent information regarding what data and choices are about to influence the signal flow. Choosing the ticks, triggers, and modulations of a range of frequencies and voltages that will blend seamlessly into a piece of music is a complex undertaking when one desires to use electricity as the basis for this creation.

Analog percussion as found in drums from the real world, were likely the first instruments to be used by humans and their interface was simple in that we would strike the drum or wood with hand or object and the resulting sound was our immediate feedback loop. To create an electronic drum that keeps time and plays in a complementary fashion with the rise and fall of sequenced and moving notes is quite the quantum leap when we look at it objectively. For the sake of compact systems, there’s been a trend to make utility modules that feature many functions that would otherwise require just as many individual modules. With the Abstract Data Octocontroller, there are eight major functions that are chosen with a series of knob turns where corresponding light signals will indicate the user’s choice of function and the parameters that can be chosen for a particular algorithm. In addition, there are a few buttons that offer some alternative choices to the basic operations.

Derivator from Ladik

To ensure your module stands out and can be identified quickly, adding things like yellow-capped knobs and red plastic-coated switches can speed the learning process.

Telephone Game from Snazzy FX

This is but a tiny section of more than seven rows of modules that I own. As you can see from even this small cross-section there is the potential for an incredible number of jacks, knobs, buttons, switches, and screens. That the musicians most efficiently get to their objective while hopefully stumbling upon some happy accidents along the way is imperative. Matter of fact this idea of “Happy accidents” is probably better described by either the term generative music or “The Krell Patch.”

What is a Krell Patch? Back in 1956, the movie Forbidden Planet had a unique soundtrack that featured “Ancient Music” in the form of the Krell song. These are the days before synthesizers, and the composers Bebe and Louis Barron were only supposed to make weird alien sound effects. Instead, they ended up scoring the film and creating the first electronic music soundtrack. Then, years later, Todd Barton came along and experimented by building a patch on the Buchla modular synthesizer that should imitate the Krell song, and the Krell Patch was born. Modules that can shift timings and voltages in random but automated ways allow the performer to set the initial stage to cascade forward and backward to trigger events within the synthesizer that go beyond the logical progression of events that we typically expect in music. To that end, the Telephone Game from Snazzy FX with the blue knobs here is just such a device that creates new rhythms from input signals where the blue knobs influence how the new signal leaves the module to affect other modules further along in the rack. So again, we have a device that, while complex to use in its own right, offers a relatively simple user interface that masks some of the difficulty while allowing the artist to tend to other performance elements.

Regarding generative music, while Brian Eno is credited with coining the term describing an ever-changing sound created by a system, I feel it largely ignores the history of aleatoric music, as lectured about in the early 1950s by Werner Meyer-Eppler. There are other examples of chance music creation dating back to the 15th century right up to Karlheinz Stockhausen in the late ’50s creating these types of compositions. We should then also give a nod to Pierre Schaeffer, who in the 1940s gave us musique concrète using preexisting sounds to play an important role in breaking down preconceived notions of music. Now add Don Buchla to the mix, whose  System 100 in 1966 certainly was a milestone by breaking out of the rules of structure that Bob Moog was mostly following with his first synthesizers. The larger point I’m trying to make is that the “system” of generative music was an evolutionary mechanical and intellectual process that has had many important contributors and theories that were added to the mix before it was able to start becoming what we might think we know about it today.

Tik Tok from Animodule

Timing and how we control the ticks that drive the entire system is one of the first considerations we need to make. While the tempo may be best decided upon by listening to the beat of a drum, it is what happens after that trigger to the drum that is going to have a great influence on the rest of the composition. Again, we can look at chaos and randomness to drive things forward, or what is more likely for the majority of musicians is that they will want a precise set of timings to work with that maintain a sync between the various modules. While we can dial in a precise tempo, such as 120bpm, via a screen on Pamela’s New Workout mentioned earlier, we may also choose to use a square wave from our LFO to drive the clock, and if we put that signal into a clock divider, we can mathematically create beat-accurate impulses that stay in time with the overall tempo.

In an analog world before displays, we used fixed output jacks that were hardcoded to particular divisions or multiplications if what we wanted were faster tempos for particular modules. A jack without a dynamic indicator would never give the user a precise visual clue as to when the output that was chosen to hit the snares was being triggered. You could hear it, but imagine you could look down at the blinking lights and see that the fourth jack from the bottom has a speed that you feel will best fit a particular sound, and so you patch that signal. Having viable visual information allows us to make judgments not just by ear but by the eye as well. This dual-purpose clock divider and multiplier is the Tik Tok from Animodule; Jesse McCreadie makes them; you should check out his modules. (That’s his tag line)

Three Sisters from Whimsical Raps

There are probably very few people on Earth who will ever remember all the functions of the various parts on a large system with over 1000 jacks and a similar number of knobs and buttons. If we are lucky, there is clear and large enough text that highlights the value of a knob or what a slider is responsible for. Some module makers decide to go the obtuse route and use funky font types that some may find difficult to read. Or the user manual is a poetic license of hints, or was never considered by anyone besides the engineer who wrote it? This issue of non-viable data about a module or less than clear guidelines on the module itself can act as a hindrance to the user finding the kind of utility with a module that can lend it great value. This particular module above is known as the Three Sisters from Whimsical Raps and has great information on the panel to determine which button does what, but the creator has decided to use non-standard descriptions at times that leave the user wondering what Air, Barrel, This, That, and Survey are used for. In addition, the creator of these modules has come under fire for writing prose in his user manuals that some claim is impenetrable, while others delight in the challenge of deciphering the puzzle. I’m in the latter camp.

Multi-Envelope from Verbos

Sliders offer yet another means to alter the flow of information, while a nearly useless manual does nothing to explain the markings above the jacks, but hey, this has to be part of the challenge of using something that is already so incredibly difficult anyway. Mark Verbos and his modules take great inspiration from the Buchla series of modules, and it shows.

ER-301 from Orthogonal Devices

Screens. We don’t have touch screens yet, but the proliferation of screens appears to be gaining acceptance. This is Brian Clarkson again with his Orthogonal Devices ER-301 Sound Computer. With a fairly minimal physical interface driven primarily by a single large knob, this larger module is capable of things that extend far beyond the typical Eurorack device. Things can get deep here, as it is possible to assemble a complete synthesizer voice inside this module. Matter of fact you can create four mono or two stereo voices here and even add effects such as reverb and delay to your signal. I originally bought this for its sampling capabilities, but with feedback from the community and watching Brian’s design and coding plans evolve this device, he is changing the way we are able to relate to the incredible volume of data this sound computer is able to generate and manipulate. Not only do two screens feed our ability to interpret data, but we can also now connect the ER-301 to the Monome Teletype and Grid ecosystem, where we can extend the limitation of the ER-301 front panel ins and outs to having 100 triggers and 100 control voltages being manipulated by scripts in the background.

The interface and data we get from our synthesizers are going to change. I foresee the day when the touch screens from smartphones will move into our modules, and voice activation will set things in motion. Artificial Intelligence will analyze our signal flows and start to recognize patterns we cannot see and tell us how fluctuations in voltages could produce subtleties we may never discover while modulating knobs with limited amounts of granularity to change signals. Vision systems should be integrated for sampling light and the person’s movement and shape in front of the synth for generating random signals and influencing movement in algorithms to extend the aleatoric possibilities.

There are already great strides being made by the likes of Expert Sleepers where interfaces for MPE devices and old joysticks can interface with our modules. Landscape.fm creates fun interfaces for touch control, and his upcoming Human Controlled Tape Transport (HC-TT) will take old tech found in the cassette tape and allow the user to play audio to their Eurorack setup with the added character of noise and warble. Looking towards old meets new, Jesse McCreadie (Animodule) lent me a hand by converting an old telegraph key into a switch with 1/8-inch jacks so I could interface this nearly 200-year-old technology with my very modern Eurorack synth. These methods that explore the world of interfacing old and new are the springboards of innovation and experimentation where engineers learn the skills that will let them propel their discoveries into ever more complex designs that will surely challenge our ability to relate to the myriad data emerging from a tiny little metal jack.

Kurchhoff Brothers Motorcycle Act

Rudolph Kurchhoff (left) and Herman Kurchhoff (center), unknown on right in Buffalo, New York circa 1902

Rudolph C. Kurchhoff born in 1884 is on the left and Herman William Kurchhoff born in 1887 is in the center, the person on the right is unknown. Herman is my maternal great grandfather. Best we can figure the boys were photographed here around 1903 in Buffalo, New York. The bikes play a foreshadowing role in their lives because less than half a dozen years later the brothers were starting to earn close to $1000 a week by risking their lives simultaneously riding motorcycles in a steel cage known as the “Globe of Death”.

Kurchhoff Brothers Motorcycle Cage circa 1907 in Buffalo, New York

The cage took two years to engineer, build, and perfect at a cost of $4000.

Herman W Kurchhoff circa 1908 with his Reading Standard Motorcycle in Buffalo, New York

When they started riding in the cage they both rode “Indian Camel Back” motorcycles from what appears to a 1907 model. This photo of my great grandfather Herman is from a later date, as his “Reading Standard” motorcycle is most likely a 1908 model.

Rudolph Kurchhoff circa 1907 and his Indian Camel Back Motorcycle in Buffalo, NY

With a little more than 2 horsepower, the brothers sped around the interior of their cage at the crazy speed of nearly 60 mph.

Flyer about the Kurchhoff Brothers Motorcycle Act in Buffalo, New York circa 1907

Not only were they flying dangerously fast, often touching elbows as they passed each other, but they were also blindfolded!

Kurchhoff Brothers performing their Motorcycle act under the big top in New York circa 1907

Their big break came when they were invited to perform their death-defying feat for the very first time at the Hippodrome in New York City, which at the time was the largest theater in the world. They performed this act a full 10 years before Harry Houdini would take the exact same stage in the Hippodrome to make an elephant disappear.

Following the New York City performances, they went on to perform their act across the region.

Newspaper clip from Illustrated Buffalo Express May 17, 1907 about the Kurchoff Brothers

Only a few fragments of press clippings still exist that tell of their story, but it’s interesting for me to know that about 110 years ago I had family that was daredevils and doing the Evel Knievel thing.

Shari Wise

Shari Wise in West Covina, California about 1977

This is my little sister, Share Wise, at home at 943 W. Herald Street, West Covina, California. I believe I shot this image around 1977 when Shari was in 8th grade. This series is from the negatives that I recently scanned. She has since been married and had at least a couple of other last names, but this is how I knew her back then.

Shari Wise in West Covina, California about 1979

I’ll bet a dollar she remembers who the guy was; I don’t. Sure enough, it took her some time, but she came up with his name, Scott Gilbert.

Shari Wise in West Covina, California about 1979

Shari believes this might be 1978 or 1979 on one of our excursions with high school friends to the beach. Might have even been playing hooky and cutting class.

Shari Wise and Steve Wagoner in West Covina, California about 1980

But I do remember this guy well: Wags. I first met Steve Wagoner at Barro’s Pizza on California Avenue in West Covina in 1980. I’d been working there part-time for a guy by the name of Terry Love, who apparently was fired, to be replaced by Steve. I started with Terry in 1977 and liked him in large part because his weirdo friend Jeff was the first person I’d ever met who had purple hair. Jeff introduced me to punk rock, KROQ, and a record store where I went and bought the Talking Heads: 77 album because upon hearing the song Psycho Killer, I had to have it. By 1980 I took on more hours, and right around then, Shari met Wags.

Shari Wise and Steve Wagoner in West Covina, California about 1980

After a while, my sister got a job with Steve and me, and for a good couple of years, the three of us hung out quite a bit. If I had to guess, I’d say this photo was taken up Highway 39, also known as San Gabriel Canyon Road, where we’d go to walk in the trees and listen to the streams trickling through the mountains back in 1980.

Steve was a surfer, and every chance he could, he’d head to a beach. These two were a large part of my life from 1977 to 1982. I know you might be thinking, “Of course, she was a large part of your life; she’s your sister,” but after 1982, we drifted in different directions, and while we’d get together a few times after Shari’s son Shaun was born, we started a long period of estrangement. Dysfunctional parents can have a large impact even on the relationships of siblings.

Shari Wise in West Covina, California about 1979

Shari informs me that this was 1983 and that she was looking at her newborn son Shaun. Shari and Steve had moved to Arizona for a short while and, upon moving back to California, had a son and took an apartment in Covina, California.

Steve and Shari Wagoner at home in Covina, California

While you can’t see much of Shari and Steve I’m posting this for them to remember their old apartment.

Shari Wagoner, John Wise, and Sally in Glendora, California

Shari’s fat and I’m a dork, while Sally, who was also a dork, looks awfully normal here. I wish I could remember Sally’s last name; I owe her an apology for being stupid and horrible.

Steve and Shari Wagoner at Huntington Beach, California

Going surfing at Huntington Beach.

Steve and Shari Wagoner with John Alexander Wise in Covina, California

This is our paternal grandfather, John Alexander Wise, and it was probably the last time Shari ever saw him. He was a cross of W.C. Fields and John Wayne to me when I was still five years old living in Buffalo, New York, and he’s also the guy who gave me my first camera.

Budapest (Side Note) – Europe Day 11

Statue from Budapest Cemetery

There is no time to slow down, and yet we are moving too slowly. Impressions are flooding in faster than we can adequately process them, but we reach for more. Our short pauses are for physical recuperation, not for reflecting on what we are taking in. We have been to six countries in the past week and walked over 70 miles within them. We have slept in five different apartments spread out between as many cities. We intend to remain relentless in maximizing the effect of blitzing the senses with a constant barrage of novelty.

Our way of traveling may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but the way I see it, this is like reading a book where my eyes absorb word after word, and over time, the sequence unfolds with a story being exposed to me, though while in the first chapters, much of what will happen is yet to occur and little is apparent. A good adventure should deliver a long and sometimes convoluted story filled with exotic details and characters whose nuances keep us mystified and intrigued until, somewhere in the final chapters, it all starts to make sense. Until then, persist and collect further details as you grow familiar with the plot. This is a journey that I hope will continue to feed my imagination from the impressions made for years to come, just as my favorite books have done.

Vacations shouldn’t always be a simple break from the daily routine; they can also be enigmas and treasure chests that lend tall tales and riches that can be experienced in bits and pieces for the rest of our lives. The photographic record and the rare words I’m able to find along the trail are the strings of popcorn to memories that might otherwise fade without these helpers.

Our lives are not pop culture, and the major milestones and markers should not be other people’s dramas and comedies. We do have the ability to forge personas based on the makeup we have gone out and collected actively, as opposed to having banality smudged upon our faces while we have not learned how to invite uniqueness into our experiences. Taking an active role in reading, talking, traveling, and learning is difficult and fraught with failure compared to the ease of watching TV, playing video games, and trying to survive on junk food, both literally and figuratively.

So we race forward. Back home, we read, read, and read some more. We read to gather history, to expand our vocabulary, to feed our dreams of things we’ve not seen but are allowed to imagine. Then we travel, and we once again gather history, expand our vocabulary, and feed our dreams while having the images delivered firsthand to our memories.

Every moment out here in a place we are unfamiliar with is only worth as much as we are able to interpret it. When we encounter a word we do not understand, we don’t close the book and only look for tomes where we know all the words; we open a dictionary and learn something new. Likewise, when we find a food item we’ve not tried, we do not walk away; we try it and attempt to know something about it. Should I come upon a 15th-century red marble relic from a palace I may never have thought I wanted to see, I embrace that its image is now a part of who I am, and in the future, should I be reading a book about Hungary from five hundred years ago I might have a reference point and connection that would have otherwise not been there.

Voracious could be the word used to describe our attitude to taking on this journey across Europe. Like a great book, we will not want to put it down as we approach the end, but we will look forward to what comes next as we are old enough to now know that it’s okay to embrace different subject matter where the next title might be more compelling than the last. Life and sharing conversations will help fill in the gaps as another piece of the human puzzle starts to be understood in some small way. To do this, we must find enough persistence to persevere in a quest to know more.

We’ve met very few like us, but we’ve met enough to know we are not alone in the hunger for cultural and intellectual knowledge that extends beyond the mundane.

Encoding

I'm looking at you

Slicing the blade of time along the disappearing edge, we begin to approach the sharpest point where the event horizon distorts: we are about to collapse into an alternative universe. This current space we inhabit is another launchpad for extra-dimensional exploration. Our minds have been packed with the tools of interpretation that will allow us perspective shifts upon cultures not yet experienced.

The influence of previous proximity is largely negated by the time delta. Nearness can be enhanced momentarily for those best prepared for newness. How does one become equipped for such encounters? We tune in to being wakeful. Brevity demands we act now and embrace what we may have otherwise not known.

Are we headed somewhere without? Is that even possible? Regardless of where we are on the physical plain, we are still within. No matter where we embark or where we land, we will still be inside the entity only known to us. Should we decide to expand the universe, the plasticity of our conditioned mental environments will dictate and limit the breadth of our ability and discovery. Malleability is not a desired trait aside from those who have managed to cultivate themselves as creators and leaders; even there, we enforce hard limits.

With conditions ripe, we manifest a reality alteration. Automated systems of support are aligned for the occasion, and all that is left is to act and be present. What patterns emerge and sequences coded will be largely dependent upon all that preceded these days. A record of this journey will be forthcoming.

What is Love?

Drawing

What is love?

Love is the internal hope and desire to inspire others, to mentor, to teach, and to learn from. Romantic love comes when that desire arrives with intimacy.

These characteristics of inspiring, mentoring, and teaching are also the cornerstones and essence of parenting. We, humans, learn from others, investing decades to share their knowledge with us. When the basis of that sharing is poor or ineffective, the results can greatly limit the potential of the person who was to be the recipient of those investments. Over the course of time, the benefits of this community involvement and individual sharing have the potential to aloft those students into various specializations. I suggest that this is an act of love.

To defend in law, treat with medicine, or enhance through invention then becomes the extension of offering love through skills that the one benefiting from these services would not be able to provide themselves. So these skills then reflect our inherent need to offer love and, in turn, require love to be reciprocated.

Art, music, and storytelling are gifts of creativity that allow us to demonstrate abilities that others can strive to emulate so that they, too, might share in the pleasure of witnessing others’ passions. In an age where mere survival is no longer the primary concern of a people, the arts and crafts have the potential to flourish and evolve as new levels of expertise are allowed to find expression.

Finding ourselves able to enjoy passion, inspiration, and finally, intimacy, we may encounter those we can romantically love. Cultivating and then nurturing these relationships requires finesse and nuance to establish mutual trust, finding a sense of certainty that the other will not hurt us.

Because love and pain are so often experienced as being delivered by the same person, we have built defensive mechanisms that can fan the fires of mistrust, making the seed of love difficult to germinate or keep alive. But it is not just love that is harmed by the effect of blurring the line between love and pain; it has an equally damaging role in our ability to learn. Trust between those who are bound together with this delicate emotion must nurture the relationship and not abuse the ability to inflict pain, or else the tender root of love can wither with dramatic negative implications for the individuals and society.

As we move out of adolescence into adulthood, we explore the fragility of deep trust as we try to nurture an exclusive relationship with another person we have not previously given our love to. The effort to satisfy and bring shared experiences passionately into someone’s life requires a tremendous effort where a symbiosis of novelty is evolving between the two people. The herculean task of opening space in oneself while exploring new space within another is precarious as both egos are exposed, and both are made vulnerable. It is then, out of these shared moments of tenderness and acting delicately within the senses of perception that we are able to realize the connectivity of moments that further act to build love.

But what happens should we forget to make these explorations or we never learned how to trust someone else while our most exposed inner selves are laid bare? Can we know love? What of those who are constantly denied love? Most of us start our very lives in the embrace of the people who unequivocally love every single atom of our existence and are willing to take their precious time to start teaching us how to communicate with one another. When will we recognize our own innate ability to share the love and return to inspiring, mentoring, and teaching one another?