Bitter Anger

Angry Old Men created by Bing

Recently, I’ve had a few encounters with people over 65 who can only be characterized as bitterly angry. Their certainty about an impending apocalypse has created a seething cauldron of despair they want others to know about and understand the danger because this is the moment in history when the wheels finally come off; we are all doomed. Their rationale is the talking points they’ve been spoon-fed; to disagree with them draws out their wrath that anyone should be so uninformed. Ignorance of doom is a red flag for them but also allows them to flaunt their disdain that one should be so belligerent about seeing the obvious truth of collapse all around them.

While I recognize that this wasn’t necessarily created by the Republican party, they did take advantage of a giant, malleable meatball of disenchanted, fundamentalist Christian, white, angry Americans walking in the crazy shoes of Charismatics. The Republicans soared and picked up the baton for this vast group of misfits when they and their media lackeys took on the role of fabulists to lure the simple-minded down a rat hole. Now, we have a riled-up base of the nearly insane that likely will not be pulled down from the rafters without someone giving up the strategy that was used to ensnare them, and that would reveal them to be tools for the propagation of a kind of zealotry that is nothing short of fundamentalism on the side of irrational extremism. Why would a political ruling class do something like this to its constituents? Because it’s lucrative and gives power to those who want to harness the energy of a loony machine.

The reverend Jim Jones and his People’s Temple in the jungle of Guyana immediately come to mind after listening to these cranks in public spaces defending their messiah and his party’s bizarre plan to accelerate his disciples onto the path of encountering heaven. Jim Jones was a master dog-whistle illusionist, painting images of impending doom that would befall the cowering, less-than-educated masses pummeled into fear. Rush Limbaugh, Fox News, Donald Trump, and the majority of Republicans appear to my simple mind to have taken a page from Jonestown to massage their followers into a state of panic similar to those who were coerced with fear and drugs into committing mass suicide, but ChatGPT brought me around to have to admit that the violence deployed in that jungle over 40 years ago is not a part of this modern equation. To quote:

It is also important to acknowledge that within any political party, there is a wide range of beliefs, opinions, and tactics. While it is possible to find similarities in some tactics used by various political groups and manipulative methods employed by cult leaders, it is crucial to distinguish between the extreme behavior exhibited by the Peoples Temple and the standard political strategies used by mainstream political parties.

Next, I asked it to define “dog whistle” as used in politics because I see some in politics and media using “extreme behaviors”:

In populist political culture, a “dog whistle” refers to a coded message or subtle communication strategy that conveys a specific meaning or sentiment to a targeted audience without explicitly stating it. The term is derived from the concept of a dog whistle, which emits a sound at a frequency that can be heard by dogs but not humans.

In politics, dog whistles are often used by politicians or political groups to appeal to certain demographics or supporters without alienating other potential voters. These messages may involve using certain words, phrases, or themes that resonate with a specific group but may not be apparent to the general public. Dog whistles can be used to convey controversial or divisive sentiments, such as racial, ethnic, or religious bias, while maintaining plausible deniability for the speaker.

Well then, I’m sticking to my potentially misguided thought that we are living through a moment of cultism being played on a massive scale where those with an inkling of hate of change or difference have been manipulated and taken to the brink of madness through dog whistles and extreme speech influencing people into irrational behaviors. As far as ChatGPT’s take on things, I tend to believe that it’s programmed not to take controversial positions, but the way I see it, there are those with public voices that are difficult for me to distinguish from someone like the reverend Jim Jones. Stay away from KookAid, you freaky right-wing extremists.

Yep, Monsoon in May!

Clearing clouds over Phoenix, Arizona

Wind, rain, thunder, and lightning were the overnight elements that let us know with some certainty that a monsoon has passed over us. Signs of it were on display here and there this morning, but the majority of it occurred while we were fast asleep. A great side effect of the storm is that it’s noticeably cooler out here, the cloud cover also helps.

In other news, it appears we might drag ourselves to North Dakota or thereabouts in the near future but things are fluid as we’re not making fixed plans.

Angry Bro

Stickers of hate on a truck

If the douchebags driving ridiculously loud motorcycles and cars that put out between 110 and 120 decibels of annoyance (about the same sound level as a jet taking off or gunshots) weren’t enough, we have to contend with these angry douchebags who use their vehicles to announce that they are likely half-crazy whackjobs. What kind of anger is behind the wheel of this truck telling me to “Fuck my hybrid” or somehow virtue signaling me that his ‘Mericun truck was built with wrenches, not chopsticks? The boob message to the left hints at a tendency to accept his incel situation while on the far right he’s threatening all that approach him or give him any side-eye that he’s willing to pull a gun on the transgressor.

As we passed him with my man-boobs heaving and our hybrid flipping him a middle chopstick, I tried to spy what size his impressive tool might be, but his blacked-out windows prevented me from witnessing firsthand him beating off to how powerful, strong, and hard his angry bro-ness has grown to be. I trembled next to this prime example of manhood, I mean douchebaggery.

Monsoon in May?

Early morning walk in Phoenix, Arizona

Following whatever rain we pick up over the winter, our next bit of moisture typically doesn’t show up until the summer monsoons kick in somewhere in July. So, what’s this stuff passing over the valley some miles south of us? Some of it looks like virga, but experience says that to the left of the clouds, rain is hitting the ground. These weren’t the only heavy clouds in the Phoenix sky this morning, but how can the monsoon season be starting up so early, we wondered? Also of note, we hit our first 100-degree (38c) day on April 30th this year. Fortunately, we’ve not seen 50c yet and hopefully won’t as that’s truly hot. For those in the United States oblivious to how the rest of humanity measures stuff in the metric system, that would be a scorching 122 degrees of blistering discomfort.

Sunday in the Desert

Caroline Wise and John Wise on Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

Wakey-wakey! The alarm went off at 4:45 in the early ante meridiem, the agreed-upon time to leave slumber if we are to accomplish today’s first goal. Knowing beforehand what was ahead of us, I felt that one of those proverbial hearty breakfasts was in order and had prepared the elements of eggs, garlic scapes, and chilorio (canned stewed pork, Sinaloa style) last night so I could be quick about slapping our first meal together this morning. Two hydrating glasses of water were downed in quick order and we were out the door. On the way we stopped at Starbucks to grab an iced coffee to share as time would be too short to drink our own. By 5:45 we arrived at the trailhead on the east side of the Phoenix Mountains Preserve to begin our 11-mile hike on Trail 100. Luckily there was plenty of parking left (there are only 4 spots).

Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

In my mind, this was the last day before the onset of summer that we’d be able to comfortably hike this trail right through Phoenix. We’ve been experiencing a “cold front” that took the temperature at dawn down to a low 61 degrees (16c) with daytime highs in the mid-80s (about 29c), perfect for a long hike. Starting on the east side of the preserve would also work in favor by keeping the sun to our backs and for a while allowing us to act as human sundials where sacred desert geometry is used to divine the future. And what was interpreted suggests that the two people represented in this photo will be in love forever and ever.

Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

It would occur to us over and again during our time on the trail how fortunate we are to both have the inclination that this is something we want to do and both are able to do it. Obviously, we are not the only couple getting on in years capable, but all around us we know people without a hiking partner or those who are limited in what physical activity they are able to do. And then there’s the pacing, we are complementary of one another in this area too.

We should have taken this hike a month ago when the wildflowers were in heavy bloom, but we had taken our chances that Death Valley might be in bloom too and so we drove there. We originally learned of Trail 100 from a friend of Caroline’s who invited us to join her and a group of her friends back in February but that weekend we were traveling down to Douglas, Arizona, on the Mexican border. Here we are today though and couldn’t have asked for a more beautiful day while the desert is still bursting with color.

Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

These happy reminders of where we live are needed because there is so much that pushes against a sense of enjoyment of being in Phoenix. Our relationship with the city is mostly at odds with what we believe we desire from the place we live in. The constant miles of cinderblock walls, gated communities, generic corporate restaurants, bland strip malls offering the same uninspired services, and a population happily splitting their time between jobs, gyms, drinking holes, and TV are the epitome of insipid conformity to the two of us. Fortunately, we’ve been able to frequently escape these doldrums and head into the surrounding areas and states on a fairly regular basis, but that might become increasingly difficult as the inflationary cost of travel and living is going up faster than wages. None of that conformity or cost to participate is here on the trail today as this hike and preserve is free to all who visit.

Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

Due to a commitment later this afternoon, we don’t feel we have the luxury of lingering or deviating from our trail to explore different perspectives, not that the ones we are being offered aren’t grand. We’ve previously visited other parts of the preserve but we had no idea that there was a contiguous element that links the more than 9,600 acres (39 square km), allowing visitors to spend a considerable amount of time in nature while still well within the city of Phoenix. Central Park in New York City by comparison is 848 acres while Tiergarten in Berlin, Germany is 520 acres (210 hectares) so this preserve is one of the largest urban parks in the United States. Also, consider that this preserve is the smallest of its neighbors compared to the McDowell Sonoran Preserve in Scottsdale weighing in at 30,500 acres and the South Mountain Preserve in Phoenix at 16,094 acres thus providing us with a total of over 56,000 acres (227 square km) or natural desert in those three parks alone.

Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

There are moments here that offer glimpses into what the Valley of the Sun might have looked like for the indigenous people of the region prior to the arrival of white settlers back in 1867. I have to admit to the tragedy that Caroline and I have lived in Phoenix since 1995 and are just now discovering the scale and perspective that can be had in this oasis in our city, such is the luck of those who do not participate with local media to apprise themselves of options for activities here in the valley. To be fair regarding our decision to ignore the media in Phoenix, when we first arrived in 1995 it was focused on shopping, golf, resorts, movies, and restaurants. The only nature that hit print and broadcast media was the Grand Canyon and maybe Sedona. No matter, the lesson has been taken to heart that we’ve ignored our own backyard for too long, and once cool weather returns, we’ll make a point of taking a different route through the preserve on a day we can dawdle to our heart’s content trying to get lost in the environment of what was.

Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

Out there beyond downtown Phoenix, you are looking at the South Mountain Park and while writing this post I came across the 16-mile South Mountain National Trail that allows for the hiking of the entire length of the range on a trail rated as moderate that is doable in about 7 hours. Sounds like just the kind of challenge we’d be up for this October or November. By the way, we are still in the preserve and just crossed under State Route 51 (Piestewa Freeway) using a tunnel that was built just for the purpose of allowing hikers to cover the 11 miles without ever having to cross a street or highway.

Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

Just as quickly as the surrounding urban area comes into view it recedes, and you are once again immersed in the landscape of the desert. I forgot to mention before now that there are many trails bisecting the one we are on with various other ways of entering the preserve. Regarding the number of miles here, well that’s a difficult one to answer correctly as ChatGPT only tells me that there are more than 50 miles, Bing says there are 93 miles, and rapidly devolving Google doesn’t answer the question at all as just today (May 9th is when I’m writing this particular paragraph) they’ve changed their search results into incomprehensible nonsense. In any case, there are many routes through the preserve used by hikers, mountain bikers, and those on horseback.

Caroline Wise on Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

Nothing quite like putting yourself into a situation where in order to cap the experience with some kind of narrative about one’s achievement, one has to research what else can be shared aside from the wow factor of having been to that place. And it was just that which brought me to the Phoenix Mountains Preservation Council and all the work they’ve been doing over the past 50 years to protect the wild nature of our mountains found in and around Phoenix. In a cookie-cutter city, the lands offering views of the cityscape or of nature become the most desirable and subsequently most valuable to those who would build multi-million dollar homes for the wealthy and the city coffers that thrive on the extra revenue. Due to so many years of careless development, we already suffer from a dreadful existence of endless miles of ugliness that seemingly cannot be seen by those who moved here for the weather, golf, and their fortress home within a gated community.

Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

Phoenix stretches forward some 20 miles to the south from here, another 25 miles of our city lay behind us, while 25 more miles to the west on your right will get you to that edge of the valley. Finally, go 30 miles to the left and you’ll reach Apache Junction up against the Superstition Mountains making this 9,600-acre park a real island in a sea of sprawl.

Caroline Wise on Trail 100 in the Phoenix Mountains Preserve, Arizona

Our third and final tunnel taking us under 7th Street means we are on the last 2-mile segment of our hike, good thing as it’s starting to warm up. It was also in this area that we started running into more people because we are at this moment walking between the Tapatio Cliffs Resort and the North Mountain Visitors Center. Interestingly, it turns out that most of the others who are out here seem to gravitate to remaining within one mile of this central location as only a mile away the crowd rapidly thins.

Community garden at Mountain View Park in Phoenix, Arizona

After 5 hours and 15 minutes, we reached Mountain View Park and were surprised to see a community garden in an urban setting, wow! As for our time on the trail, we were only an hour slower than the average of 4 hours and 17 minutes to complete it. Thanks to Lauren, a pal of Caroline’s who was also the person who told of us Trail 100 for picking us up and driving us to our car. This outing has seriously been an incredible moment of redemption from the monotony this city puts on its inhabitants; now if only it could start converting some of its streets to bicycle and pedestrian-only thoroughfares where those of us who’d be willing to e-bike it around the valley could find a safe alternative to the highly aggressive drivers of our roads.

Phoenix Chorale performance in Scottsdale, Arizona

Our afternoon commitment at Pinnacle Presbyterian Church in Scottsdale was reached without issue and with plenty of time to spare. The tranquility of the day was multiplied thanks to the 27 voices on stage today who not only performed wonderfully but even brought Caroline and me to tears with their rendition of Hurt written by Trent Reznor and made famous by Johnny Cash. At the end of the performance we stuck around to offer thanks to the chorale’s conductor and artistic director Christopher Gabbitas, Lies’l Hill the soprano that had us weeping, and Nicole Belmont the executive director we’d first met at the performance of the chorale in March at the Phoenix Art Museum. It was Nicole who directed us to Aaron M. Villalobos so we could make a donation today to the chorale and become contributing members. A beautiful and wonderful day all the way around.

Old Birds

Caroline Wise spinning fiber to make yarn in Phoenix, Arizona

There’s a sense of delight when you look at the person you fell in love with so many years ago and take a moment to realize how deeply you are still enamored with countless aspects of who they are. There is not one thing or even a multitude of qualities I could pin my affection on regarding how I feel for Caroline. When I found myself lost in how the light was falling on her hair, shirt, and face with her gaze focused on what she was doing, I smiled inside and, in an instant, sighed upon the realization of how familiar I am with how her hands work at spinning yarn, typing, turning a page, holding a seashell, or reaching for my hand. I smiled at the single headphone in her ear as she was listening to an audiobook while the other dangled to the side so she could hear me if I talked to her. Her glasses are probably dirty because that’s their normal state, but that won’t stop her from looking up to glance at me occasionally and offer me a big warm smile with eyes that say, I love you.

As much as she appreciates putzing around at home on the weekend, Caroline also enjoys just hanging out with me, savoring her iced coffee with a splash of oat milk, joining in on the occasional conversation I strike up with people, and playing with whatever craft she’s brought along. The Fitbit on her left wrist reminds me that we were out walking earlier and that we’ll be walking again after dinner, as we probably get about 75% of our 10,000 steps a day walking together, often hand in hand. The blouse she’s wearing is a recent acquisition from Mexico because, for the past year, she’s been absolutely in love with clothes from the Mayan region of Chiapas, Mexico. Had this been 20 years ago, she might have been wearing a salwar kameez or kurti (Hindu shirt), as my wife has never been one to care about fitting in with the hip crowd while being appreciative of the diversity of global culture.

During the times we are apart, though we are never really apart because Skype is always open, so we can reach out and nudge one another with a hug or expression of love, we are still connected even if nothing is shared. There’s something about our relationship that seems to have grown in its symbiotic nature, as though we are becoming conjoined. This has me thinking about how albatrosses can spend years learning to cooperate before becoming mates for life; maybe that’s what Caroline and I are like. I was talking with ChatGPT about this, and it shared, “Albatross courtship is quite elaborate and can involve synchronized flying, mutual preening, and a variety of calls and displays. These rituals are important for forming strong pair bonds that can last a lifetime.” It also pointed out how albatrosses can spend 50 or more years together and that the oldest wild albatross, at 70 years old, is still rearing chicks, meaning it and its lifelong mate are still bonded. Yep, we are like a couple of old birds.

Winter Bed / Summer Bed

Futon guts from Futon Favorite in Phoenix, Arizona

Today, on the momentous day of taking possession of a brand new futon mattress to replace our well-worn antique, I thought I’d let you in on the nature of our sleep experience. While our travels are shared on a frequent basis, an accounting of the many hours spent horizontally has been neglected, so this is my attempt to repair that. I recently ordered a new mattress from the same guy at Futon Favorite who made our previous one, Tom Flower. I have to mention Tom because he’s the only person in Arizona handmaking these futons, and what’s more, he let me have a peek into the process. Caroline and I don’t care a hoot about box springs or memory foam and would prefer that there’s not a hint of polyester or flame retardant anywhere near our sleeping heads. Do you want cotton batting, be it organic or otherwise, double wool lining or other special requests? Futon Favorites has you covered.

Futon Favorite in Phoenix, Arizona

Somehow, our previous mattress lasted for 16 years, or maybe I should say that it existed as it should have been replaced a few years ago, but circumstances regarding where we’d be putting our heads to rest were in question, so we held out. With our backs paying the price for that delay, it finally was time to act. After having the incredible good fortune of watching Tom build one of these, I need to point out that he says I’m the very first person afforded that opportunity. Later, I was able to transport our new futon home and, with considerable difficulty, drag our old, much heavier mattress to the trash before setting up our beautiful new bed. Onward to how we dress this thing.

Bedding

Caroline and I use two configurations, one for winter and one for summer. No matter which version is currently being utilized, our bed is the coziest bed we could ever imagine and has been so forever. Well, there is one phase that is less than optimal, and that’s the one we are in now, transitioning from winter to summer. The major highlight of our seasonal shift from the hot Arizona summer to even slightly chilly evenings is when we can bring out our goose-down comforter. It gets stuffed into a jacquard loom woven flax/linen duvet cover from Portugal while our futon is covered with a flax/linen sheet used instead of a cotton sheet. Our pillowcases are handsewn by Caroline of some beautiful cotton fabric we found while out traveling. Our current set of pillowcases was made of two different fabrics, both with an ocean motif. The two sides of the pillowcase are on the left, and on the right is our blue linen duvet, and the comforter is next to it

During the winter, the heater is never needed, even when the place dips below about 55 degrees (about 13c), because we have gloves and sweaters to deal with the cold. We have a space heater in the bathroom for warming it while we’re in the shower, should you be wondering.

Linen sheet and blanket

Here in the transition zone, we only reluctantly give up the comforter while considering using the air conditioning to chill the place so it is still comfortable in our cozy nest of a bed. Being rational about the amount of electricity we use, we eschew the idea and, with heavy hearts, place the comforter in a corner near the bed just in case we find ourselves too cold to sleep well. In our spring-and-summer configuration, the linen sheet we sleep on remains the same, but now the Tischdecke is brought out of the cabinet it’s been hibernating in. “Tischdecke” is German for tablecloth, and that’s exactly what this linen blanket feels like for the first weeks. The heft of the comforter is sorely missed, but as our place starts warming with the approach of summer, it becomes impossible to sleep under it. Our summer blanket is made by the same company that makes our sheets.

Considering that nearly a third of our life is spent in bed, we have certainly cultivated a cocoon worthy of worship that serves us in heavenly ways, which have us longing for it while out traveling. When it’s time to go to bed, it’s done so knowing that within minutes, we’ll be well asleep, snuggling into the world of dreams. There might even be times that we feel we have an awkward relationship with our bed as after the love of each other, we’d both likely admit to being in love with this bed, except for the week or two getting used to the Tischdecke.

For future reference:

Bed Threads French flax linen blanket – $200

Bed Threads French flax linen flat sheet – $110

Parachute flax linen duvet cover – $270

L.L. Bean baffle-box stitch goose down comforter, queen/warm – $400

Futon Favorite handmade mattress, queen – $640